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I don't belong on this earth and am seriously contemplating suicide. I have been for many years (I'm 21) and basically as I grow older the thoughts are turning from an unconscious desire to be free from the suffering into a conscious realization of the absolute agony that the rest of my life will be. Basically all I have to look forward to is a life of prayer on my knees begging God to give me the strength to bear the weight of this miserable, stupid, dark world which I am forced to live in.

I don't believe in heaven or hell but I do believe in a many dimensional universe and life after physicality. However I know that I know nothing so I came here to get some perspective. Is suicide the right call?


You'll be living in a self-made hell. It won't get better after death, it'll be exactly the same. Experience this world naked and stand your ground as best as you can.



Then what is there to look forward to? Is there any salvation? Is there any way to transcend circumstance?

What I'm saying is I've looked within and I've looked without and I don't like this existence. At all. No one else likes it either that's why the world is full of pain and death and rage.

I can't change my circumstances but I can reject them.



Furthermore, if you are right that simply reinforces my observation that this is a loveless universe that I don't want to be a part of.


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Your solution is easy. Just don't make the self-made hell. That's all. You can as well end up in a self-made heaven. All is mind.

But you need to prepare your mind and at least practice somewhat. Prepare yourself for the astral planes and for the afterlife. Read "Astral Dynamics" by Robert Bruce. Read "Initiation into Hermetics" by Franz Bardon. Read the Tibetan Book of The Dead. Read whatever you need to read and practice meditation. Maybe even astral travel and learn about those planes first.

You must go into the afterlife without any fear or hesitation and you must exactly know where you are going. For this you must have your mind under control perfectly.

There is nothing wrong with suicide, you can always leave this world early. Especially if you don't belong here at all. But educate yourself before and practice first.

I attached the Tibetan book of the dead for you in this post. The rest of the books you will find in the library.

Realize that all is Maya.

And one more point, you must withstand all the suffering that your friends and relatives experience because you killed yourself. I hope you can do that. And also you should not have any attachments to earth like desire for sex or some other addiction. You must be completely free and at peace.


Only religious ignorants and anime-pic posting bullshit occultist yell about hell or punishment after death. Those people are not qualified to talk about those matters because they have no idea. Those self-proclaimed buddhas will only spew out information they have been fed to by other bullshit sources.

Any genuine and real enlightened master will tell you that after death you only return to pure consciousness, to pure love. There is nothing else. There is no difference between any kind of death. You merely return to "god", to love, to void, to the source, to pure consciousness.

But if you really wanna make sure then follow this post>>121026.



Suicide would be a waste. Things as simple as meditation can allow you to choose your mindset and perspective. There's always something to live for. To me, suicide is betrayal to humanity. Most suffering comes from the circumstances perpetrated by other humans, and can only be changed through human intervention



no guarantees but this might make you feel a little bit better. I know how you feel. It's totally understandable to feel that way about life and the world. It's just a little pick me up/guide to understanding things just a little bit better. I mean, I made it and everything but I'm still very very depressed. It's nice to read something nice though. The truth is a powerful thing.


polite sage


Is there any chance of evolving into something like a demon after death? I just hate being pathetic animalistic human.




OP here. Thanks for the kind words and the information guys. I really do want to try but I get overwhelmed sometimes. Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed all the time that's why I came here and made this post. I'll reflect on these things and acknowledge that the best path is gaining mastery over my own mind. I'm well aware that I'm my own worst enemy and to tell the truth I kick my own ass pretty regularly. I'll get through this and I'll do it with the memory of your kindness in my heart. Thank you.

As to anyone who tries to pretend to be me to derail this thread and confuse others… begone.



If you really wanna end it take the time of like 6 months, if you can bear it, for your own sake and fill yourself with energy. The energy stored in your energy bodies will greatly help you to move about in the astral world, so create and to do what you must do. During those 6 months you spend all your time eductaing yourself like some other post suggested and you also use the time to store energy and work on your chakras and your mind. Fill up all your 3 dantians, but really fill only your first, the other two will be filled automatically after the first is full and the energy overflows into the other two. In these 6 months you will grow in power and maybe even develop psychic powers or "superpowers". You may even get a new perspective in life and change your mind about the suicide because you see the world in different light now. Your third eye is also likely to open.

But the main reason you do this is take the energy into the afterlife. I'm sure you will find with little research all means and ways to fill your dantians (energy storage centers), activate your chakras and strenghten your energy bodies. If you can hold out longer than 6 months then go even longer. You'll thank me later.

not ejaculating at all is the single most important part of raising your energy and getting the powers you want. semen is life force, so if you really wanna kill yourself better be celibate for the entire 6 months.



If you wish a 'vacation' from your current problems, suicide will provide that. If you wish to escape your problems completely, you will be disappointed. Death is only a temporary reprieve…sooner or later you will incarnate back into this world, and pretty much the same problems you left behind will be waiting for you.


Just celebrate the suffering of your enemies. I am celebrating your suffering as we speak and it's going very well for me. Dumb as's birch nigga faggot aas pussy bitch. This whore and her whore friend who both look like Robin Williams without makeup were rude to me once and suggested that my existence was not as good as the existence of other's and I should just be content with watching other people live a fulfilling life. I should just spend my entire life watching Astral parasites steal energy from me in my own universe. Then both their mom's died because they were dumb drug addict cunts. Next time I see them I'm gonna say "hey you two should start a band called dead moms".


"100% of people except me who talk about what happens after you die have died zero times and are just hypothosizing while pretending they are providing you with concrete evidence about the rules of death, and therefore you should kill yourself to get away from these lying Astral parasite kike faggots. Earth is a prison where lazy as's trumps and Kushner's steal energy from people because they are too useless to create their own, so your existence if you consent to this is just being a battery for Wolf Blitzer for eternity, therefore there is no such thing as death because why would Astral parasite rapist thieves want something they leech off of to die in this wack as's crystal prison in this faggot as's computer simulation world.



While you reincarnate in faggot demimoore world where faggot as's celebrity worshiping egos rape your as's by killing yourself you are doing a massive act of rejection , and that removal of consent will reshape your personal energy forever and if done enough you break out and create your own reality. Science is a game, it has absolutely nothing to do with anything. It was programmed in by faggot as's jewish aliens before they created big Jewish tittis and made every jew look like John olivers slightly more retarded twin son


Using the energy to kill yourself is one of the hardest tricks to do. I have overcome the fear a few times but am now in what seems to be a more improved prison. Despite wanting to blow my brains out this instant it's hard for me to do that. The good news is this just provides constant reinforcement that I'm in the retarded Jewish ego world that even Jewsus Cuckst thought was gay, also instead of killing myself I can just say forbidden words In forbidden orders and that makes the "politically correct" society which got everything it has by murdering stealing and raping reject me, effectively killing me because it leave's me in a state where I'm just my own energy and not some fucking slave bitch tip toeing around ninety trillion losers with nothing to offer but unlimited rules about what I need to do to be an approved servent.


Rule 1) if you don't counter my argument then I am right

Rule 2) attacking my character is not a counter argument

Rule 3) if you still attack the character behind an anonymous egoless post it's because you are a fucking idiot who think American elections aren't theater and that defending opinion one against opinion two will get you brownie points with a diva reality TV star who fixes his hair more than any woman on the planet and got rich by exploiting simpleton rednecks and narcissistic christcucks with iqs low enough that they believe comic books have anything to do with reality.



Hey! By being a reality TV star diva whose life goal is having other men notice and approve of his faggot hairstyles, you are more masculiner than the snowflake libturds, because I did the science and also because I said so and I'm more Americaner and more patriot and more betterer because Tom Brady has to walk into bars and announce to people that he is a champion



"This is what happens because I said so. 100% of rapists who kidnapped people said there was no escape, I am using that same line of thinking to imprison you in fear, and that is why you need to listen to me."

Nice argument. You really seem like the guy to go through when I need to learn the correct way to do nothing and help your shit agenda.


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It would be extremely painful…



Hey! Who would have guessed that Unfunny Deadhorsebeater would show up here to enlighten us with a joke he didn't come up with. Thank you so much for your service. Without you I wouldn't have another person who copies and paste's other people's jokes and ideas to look smart to deal with.



Are you a big guy?



Hothead pls go


OP however you decide don't fall for reincarnation bullshit. Those idiots who preach it don't understand it themselves (what a surprise, eh?). You will not reincarnate again, you will simply dissolve in the astral. As above, so below. As your body decomposes your mind also decomposes back into it's elements until you are completely gone and dead. However you might live a couple of hundrets of years in the astral planes doing what you want. It doesn't even matter since you (the individual) are a mere illusion so you being not even real, there is nothing really that will die.

The All will simply reincarnate another human being into this world, but it will not be you. That's how reincarnation works.

Now if you were to attain Gnosis aka the ultimate illumination either in this lifetime or in your afterlife, your individual mind would actually become immortal and never dissolve. But that's a whole other topic. I am just bringing this up so you can understand better and maybe change how you think about suicide.



If the self is an illusion how can you say that it's not me.


Try it and come back to tell us if it was worth it or not.



The only thing that is not an illusion is pure existence, everything else is play.



You don't understand the self.

Are you any less you for having developed amnesia?

Any less you for having lost a limb?

Any less you for having lost the body?

You is the thread that connects you through this all.

When the character Jason Bourne lost his identity he didn't lose himself. He's still himself even though he has nothing of his memories. Your identity is not yourself.

The self is that which is aware and experiences through mind and body.


Also concerning amnesia, are you any less you when you dream, and forget temporarily your life when you're awake? When you assume another identity for awhile? …or when you're lost in work, so focused, that your whole purpose becomes entangled with the work, and nothing outside of your focus exists for that moment?



Of course, that's exactly what I mean. The true self remains always while the individual false self undergoes change and eventually dies.

Unable to achieve illumination and making his individual false self merge with the real self and attain immortality he will have no choice but to simply die and all that will remain is the real self.

Lose your limb, you are still the individual self. Lose your body, you are still the individual self in the astral. Dreaming, still the individual self. Losing identity or getting amnseia…well here your individual self starts to crumble already but you are probably still your individual self.

When all this happens and you have no enlightenment then you will be blind to the real self regardless. When real death comes the individual self will be gone completely. Without any realization about the real self you will be still completely attached to your fake individual self, and therefore you will die completely. Only the real self remains and your individual ego which was a mere illusion from the beginning and unreal will fade away for good.

You are but a character of the real self. if you fail to wake up to the matrix reality you'll just be deleted. The real self, infinite intelligence or pure consciousness or the monad is the player that created you, the character ego, and experiences through you. But when I create a character in a mmorpg that doesn't mean that I am that character for real, or he/she is me. When I delete the character and turn off the game then it's gone and I don't actually give a shit. I, the player, remain I and the Char I created will be forever gone. Now if the character would suddenly attain Gnosis and become self aware, if he/she would suddenly see that they are stuck in a game, in a matrix and they are a mere character created by the player, the real self, only then they would actually become aware that they are also the player who created them and then they can break all walls, open the console, cheat, alter reality, leave the game and become immortal. It's the journey from NPC to player character. The quest for liberation and enlightenment.

People severely underestimate the actual death that followsphysical death. New age movement has brought in the paradigm "you are immortal, your soul lives forever, you can reincarnate infinite times and evolve more and more, you are the all, you are god etc etc." But sadly it's not that simple. There is only one way to immortality, and when you don't attain it you will die because you are just a character. You don't even exist. You must be born through Gnosis or you will fade away like the illusion that you are in this matrix



>It's the journey from NPC to player character

I am sorry, I actually ment to write journey from a game character to the player in "real life". Just to clear that up



No, I don't think so. You probably shouldn't, because I selfishly don't want you to, but I literally can't give you any reasons beyond that. Honestly kind of envy you if you do.



>I don't belong on this earth and am seriously contemplating suicide

Yeah, I do this all the fucking time. Nevertheless, the suffering is good for your spirit; helps it grow. I've decided not to kill myself, no matter how much I fucking want to, especially considering since the First Creators/God/Demiurges were killed and we're able to decided what we reincarnate as. Just stick through it, anon. I'm doing the exact same fucking thing, and while it's horrible you may as well sit through the rest of this sludge-lifestyle, because it's only going to get better from now; this is our last life to experience true, forced suffering. Make the most of it, because it is beneficial for your spirit.



The only thing I'm looking forward to is the next life, or never entering body again. But this is about the final life of pure-suffering I can grow through, and your spirit grows faster this way before we are given the opportunity to take the easy route.

>Is there any salvation?

Depends what you consider 'salvation'.



top kek tho, suicide doesn't free you from the universe, only the current life you're living (and this is considering your consciousness doesn't continue through quantum immortality).



>Maybe even astral travel and learn about those planes first.

Astral travel is one of the closest things to being dead.



>Any genuine and real enlightened master will tell you that after death you only return to pure consciousness, to pure love

You don't even need to be enlightened to realise that, you just need to understand.



>Is there any chance of evolving into something like a demon after death?

Yeah, but good luck. Demons get killed for fun now ever since the First Creators/God/Demiurges were killed.



>sooner or later you will incarnate back into this world

There are other worlds to reincarnate to, we're not forced here anymore as of 2012.

>pretty much the same problems you left behind will be waiting for you.

But yeah true.



>celebrate the suffering of your enemies

>I am celebrating your suffering as we speak and it's going very well for me

>Dumb as's birch nigga faggot aas pussy bitch

>This whore and her whore

>people were rude to me once and suggested that my existence was not as good as the existence of other's and I should just be content with watching other people live a fulfilling life

>dumb drug addict cunts

>I'm gonna say "hey you two should start a band called dead moms".

>t. not a pleiadian

This is the opposite of how Pleiadians act.



>The All will simply reincarnate another human being into this world, but it will not be you.

>but it will not be you.

That's what OP wants.

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