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 No.28472

キタ―――(゚∀゚)―――!!

 No.43045

https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=72062442

"LILITH // REF SHEET

A ref sheet for my new character, a chuuni cowgirl!

It kinda went out of control and I really needed to reel myself back and just compile it. There's more left on the cutting-room floor.

She cries easily so please treat her kindly!"

It goes without saying, but it doesn't belong to me.


 No.43046

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whoops


 No.43047

File: ff2dc681815ed38⋯.jpg (119.4 KB, 900x1237, 900:1237, sadfgawg.jpg)

She deserved to win.


 No.43049

>>43044

>>43045

>>43046

Yes, I'm really into such a character. Thank you for posting this.


 No.43050

File: d1a18274defeac9⋯.jpg (53.9 KB, 600x600, 1:1, 76576464467677667567.jpg)

Can any /jp/ help me?, lately I'm having a terrible insomnia. I can't believe I couldn't sleep for a whole day today. Is there anything I could do fix this without going into suicide.


 No.43051

>>43050

Any idea what the causes might be?


 No.43052

File: 12bb898619fe1e4⋯.jpg (5.07 KB, 160x147, 160:147, 5475562243.jpg)

>>43051

Depression and loneliness maybe. I normally ignore these kind of feeling though. Just recently I happened to learn such a valuable skill which I believe, really interesting in my life for the first time. Therefore I shouldn't be in the state of mind of being depressed right?


 No.43053

>>43052

anxiety


 No.43054

>>43052

You learned a new skill. That means that you're excited. Even if you don't appear to be excited, you're likely excited deep in your heart. Your subconscious doesn't care that you need sleep. It's pretty much necessary that you express that skill in some way before you could consider yourself capable of going to sleep properly again.


 No.43055

>>43052

If you can feel passion for a skill, or anything at all, you're most likely not really depressed.

And any stimulated state could keep you awake:

Interest in that skill, performance anxiety for doing that skill properly, anxiety in general in fear/worry about depression coming back, or just being really active before trying to go to bed (Completely exhausting yourself aside).

There are many things you can do. Like slow breathing (5 seconds inhaling, 5 seconds holding, 5 seconds exhaling, etc), rubbing your neck slightly on the left side.

If you're actually desperate then you could drug yourself to sleep. Even with simple chamomile tea.


 No.43056

Lying in bed one night, I realized that I messed up. I spent that day wastefully and didn't even do my daily push-ups or meditation.

So I rose from my bed and faced the darkness approaching me from all directions and started throwing punches. My heart was full of nothing but a desire to change fate. The process of throwing those punches could be considered exercise and it was also somewhat meditative. I just kept doing it over and over again, waiting for something to happen, waiting for something to change. I didn't want to die just yet. Then something "opened". I can't put that exact feeling into words. I felt so full of energy and of power for a moment, a moment that felt like it could last an entire lifetime. For a moment, the women who weave the fate of all things felt like they were within arm's reach.

Then I went to sleep, and the following morning faint traces of that feeling remained within me, which can be called upon as long as I acknowledge that they're there.

The process of making this post alone can awaken them and make me feel as though I can do great things if I really try hard enough.


 No.43057

>>43055

why are you doing this to me

>>43056

Given that the universe is at least Turing-complete, I feel like that point can very feasibly be reached in no time.


 No.43058

wait, no, fuck the "computable". that's the entire point of the campaign against fate, after all


 No.43059

Unpopular opinion: Yuri is gross


 No.43065

if i were suddenly transported into gensokyo, it would end as a catastrophe. i just have a feeling that only that conclusion would await me, especially if i'm not perceived as a threat quick enough.


 No.43071

Computers regularly encounter conditions which make them behave in incorrent, unexpected ways such as hardware failure or interference. Is it impossible that the world could act the same way?


 No.43074

Angel girls are actually far cuter than demon girls.


 No.43076

File: ccd85cc259a9bf5⋯.jpg (1.88 MB, 1682x1708, 841:854, 632f0bdf76f3ca1e5fd964b0a4….jpg)

>>43074

Wrong.


 No.43078

>>43057

>why are you doing this to me

Doing what? Making you think about it? I am interested in making people do things that aren't really difficult but are generally considered undesirable. Like breathing manually, blinking manually, listening to your heartbeat, or losing the game. It is fun.


 No.43083

>>43078

You had no idea you were doing it, too!


 No.43084

it's not a simulation, it's more like a story. or perhaps it's a play. that could be interesting.

what if we're all just specific performances which actors are playing? what if we are the masks which are worn?


 No.43086

>>43084

I seriously disbelieve that the Universe is only part of a greater whole, but it can't be denied that the world is made up of numbers, and that all numbers are ultimately reducible to binary expression (∴ the all information in the universe is binary, not that the fact is very important in itself). Pythagoreans made it half of the way to this discovery.

Demystifying the world in such a way makes it very easy to compare with our simple information machines. So I come up with these strange analogies (or digitalogies, I should probably be saying. the analogue is unfamiliar and not entirely consistent to every person) which make the world make more sense to me.

If you're wearing a mask I'd recommend you stop, there's no telling whether the role has a happy ending. It might still be uncertain without, but at least you're in control.


 No.43087

>>43084

>what if...

As long as the actors do their jobs well, then that information would ultimately have no impact on anything. I would make the same decisions and do the same things the same way as otherwise.

There may be some potential deeper meaning, I guess. But it simply would not bother me.


 No.43089

There's a certain potential that was within me, one which will thankfully never come out. I could've very easily ended up as a Chris-chan type of autist, as I displayed various signs of social abnormality at a young age, liked drawing despite of a lack of art skills, was very delusional and had an obsession with Sonic the Hedgehog, among other things.

But there was one primary factor which changed that fate. I had an extremely talented brother and had to deal with being referred to as "his brother" rather than my actual name. I spent much of my childhood, especially my early childhood, completely eclipsed by my brother and developed an inferiority complex which held me back from doing anything notable. That unknowingly protected me from doing anything until a different personality bloomed deep within me, a personality which is the one I possess now.

The fact that I have an imaginary girlfriend is proof that I had it in me, that I could've been completely delusional, thinking that I know so much while not knowing anything. But the inferiority complex made me doubt things, it gave me the opposite belief, a belief which said that I was worth nothing and that I knew nothing.

I'm weak, and that's why I have the capacity to grow stronger. That's what I believe. And I'm thankful for the factor which allowed me to reach this stage, a stage I would've never reached if I had sank into delusion or had accepted mediocrity.


 No.43090

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File: a8614b7c366acb6⋯.jpg (191.63 KB, 853x1200, 853:1200, gawg.jpg)

Best girl coming through.


 No.43094

I had a dream in which I was lost in a forest. So I grabbed Youmu in a very inappropriate way and told her that "this might tickle a bit". Youmu clearly didn't like what was happening and then proceeded to transform into a tent.


 No.43095

You made Youmu into a tent, now sleep in it.


 No.43115

10 minutes. I'm a generous man, so I will give myself 10 minutes to come up with a post which can provoke conversation. If I fail to accomplish such a task within the time offered, I warn you the results will be dire.

(Shit! I've got to come up with a new post or my butt is roast!)


 No.43116

Do you think your favourite 'hu would use EASTERN, or WESTERN style toilets?

(Phew! I hope that did it!)


 No.43117

>>43116

eastern toilets are a thing that exists?


 No.43119

File: f77658e7e6ddcad⋯.webm (2.57 MB, 1600x1000, 8:5, whiterun.webm)

I'm not required to have a textbook for a few semesters still, but I want to buy Genki I and II (w/ the workbooks) to really give myself something to work at. What are the chances that a new edition will be released (currently its 2nd edition). I don't want to buy it if they release a new one out of the blue. Thoughts?


 No.43121

>>43117

We've still got them in the more GENKI parts of eastern yurope, rural train stations and the like, so I imagine there are still a good few to be found in asia proper.


 No.43122

I did my final project on Japan and got an 87 on it do you fellows wanna see it.


 No.43123


 No.43124

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 No.43128

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 No.43129

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 No.43131

I read it all. That was very nice.


 No.43152

Look at what this brat child did, he killed the board!


 No.43155

makenai


 No.43157

Why do I keep dreaming of high school when I don't have any real memories of it? My actual high school years consisted of me experiencing the same uneventful days over and over, always waiting for them to be over while doing nothing but indulging in internal monologues. No one really bullied me, but then again, no one really noticed me either. All of the teachers would accidentally call me by my brother's name, which would damage my then weak self-esteem more than before. I felt like a corpse in the world of the living for a while.

Maybe it's just because I watched a lot of high school anime.


 No.43158

Doesn't posting on /jp/ feel a lot like being in high school?


 No.43159

「The Virus 23」


 No.43161

I love you Jesus Christ.


 No.43170

I went completely vegan for an entire week. Did it make me physically stronger or make me spontaneously develop psychic powers? No. But it still did make me stronger by making me think and changing my perspective on things? Yes.

Even though I've gone back to eating lots of tuna as I did before, I now no longer feel like I'm reliant on the tuna.


 No.43179

>>43170

But you, like any other living creature, ARE dependent on food for nutrients. Whether that's tuna, or whatever else you eat instead, it hardly matters. If you're eating a lot of tuna, then you are relying on that tuna.

It's not a good idea to delude yourself into thinking otherwise.


 No.43184

>>43179

Well he could switch to rice with more ease if it came to that


 No.43197

every day I check the jay only to find more gays to slay


 No.43202

>>43170

I got mercury poisoning from tuna. Went vegan for 4 months. Cheat every once in a while with pizza or chicken.


 No.43203

>>43202

Now youv'e just got irreparable brain damage.


 No.43207

Hello.


 No.43209


 No.43210

File: 26fa1d0cde6914c⋯.png (1.05 MB, 1916x1080, 479:270, you should be able to solv….png)


 No.43213

Merry christmas. I wish some of you would come back to 4chan /a/ though.


 No.43214

>>43213

And I wish you would stay on 4chan /a/.


 No.43215

>>43213

Never in my life have I browsed 4/a/ because it has always been repulsive.


 No.43217

File: 24c63c014f7f39c⋯.jpg (324.09 KB, 768x1024, 3:4, 2126529e474c541e8836d20f5d….jpg)

any SEA lads here?


 No.43218

>>43217

South-east Africa?


 No.43219

>>43217

Which country are you from?


 No.43221

>>43217

Can you post your nudes?


 No.43222

>>43217

If Australia counts.


 No.43223

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I really want hafu kids. Until I have my own little ゆずる to raise I will be in a state of constant and mortal angst. Indeed I am. It is said by Richard Feynman that God is whatever we don’t understand. With the advent of all known laws of physics, God has become increasingly narrow to the point of de jure atheism. But something feels benevolent if there is an existence for me in which I, a walking sac of flesh, can learn 日本語 just for the sake of creating some beautiful little daughter in a far away land.


 No.43224

>>43223

Best of luck to you, don't let your filthy dream remain a dream.


 No.43229

>>43223

Wow you are so based and deep because you are an atheist, not some retard that respects the accomplishments and thoughts of our forefathers. You stupid nigger.


 No.43230


 No.43234

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>43230

fuck off christcuck

I've been listening to the yume 2kki OST recently. There are some nice tracks.

Although I'm meeting my goals in the game of life, I can't help but feel that I'm neglecting the things that are truly important to me. I always rationalize by saying that, in meeting more pressing goals now, I'll be better suited to deal with the things that I actually care about in the future, but is it so? When will the day come that I can abandon the rat race, and devote myself to beautiful art? I can't say...


 No.43235

We might need a holy war to rid ourselves of vargposters.


 No.43238

If your powerlevel is high, you attract high-level enemies.


 No.43241

>>43234

meant to reply to

>>43229

also

>tfw no /jp/ friends


 No.43242

>>43238

What skills will I have at my disposal by that point?


 No.43244

>>43238

When do I know that I will have leveled up?


 No.43255

>>43241

Who are you quoting?


 No.43257

>>43244

If you hit an enemy's head in and a passing mariachi band is so impressed by it that they do a little musical cue, that's a good indication.


 No.43262

I only have to check /jp/ roughly once every two years in order to not miss anything that gets posted.


 No.43264

File: 5810bbd87480120⋯.jpg (805.47 KB, 1638x2259, 182:251, 1445926860566.jpg)

This site and this board are really dying huh. So many things yet to be discussed and shared in my short and sad life that will never be.


 No.43267

>>43264

I'm still alive. I'm just thinking of what I should post.

Fighting the sin of pride means that I desire to show off less, though.


 No.43268

>>43264

I don't see it that way. Slow doesn't mean dead. What things would you like to discuss? I'm always here to listen.


 No.43269

Imagine you had the power to bring about the desired outcome of any situation. That power would surely have disastrous side-effects.

However, what if you learned to control that power? All it would take is knowledge on how to minimize unnecessary loss and how to direct the unavoidable side-effects to things which aren't important. The power would be weakened overall, but blind power is no better than having no power at all.


 No.43270

The slower this board is the better. Keeps the terrible posters away.


 No.43271

>>43269

I think they call that "the law of attraction"


 No.43272

I have no identity, I can only wear the skin of others. A man is fated to study languages and steal the culture of his earthly brothers.


 No.43273

>>43269

If there's disastrous side effects, then the "power to bring about the desired outcome of any situation" is clearly not whole or powerful enough.


 No.43274

>>43273

“Our side wins the war”

[catastrophic casualties, change of regime, regret at decimation of enemy instead of unification]


 No.43276

>>43274

If "desired" accounts for a lack of foresight, then I guess it works. I'll just let you off with a warning this time.


 No.43277

I saw a cave. Within the cave there was a body of water with countless humans submerged within it. None could move, yet they didn't drown either. Those who came in contact with that water were robbed of their true selves. In the middle of the cave there was a small area that was elevated above the rest, making it serve as some kind of island. On it was a strange creature, which is apparently what watches over those who are submerged in the water. The creature took note of me and attempted to read my heart to alter itself to match a form that my heart would feel okay with, possibly as some sort of automatic defense measure. It assumed the form of a cute nee-san, but it was too late. I could see right through it. But I had no ill-intentions, I just didn't want to be in those cursed waters any longer. The creature having changed its "self" reminded me of my own true self. I walked on the water like a messiah would and made my way to a far-off exit. It was blocked by a large boulder. I didn't even need to touch it, all it took was just a little bit of mental force to make it be completely under my control. I left the cave and sealed the exit behind me, as it didn't seem like the creature was fond of the outdoors.

Then I woke up


 No.43287

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>>43267

>>43268

Dying not dead, (un)fortunately. I've wondered if that pride is narcissistic and that you're a good person if you suppress it but wouldn't that neuter you, is the left hand path really that evil? It's silly but I balance between imageboards and the world, missing the other if I had to choose one. If my post in the thread was the last no one would bother reading the thread, the point of making a post is for it to be read so why post it anyway, if everything is for attention does that make someone vain, maybe that's why some monks and priests took vows of silence. I hate loneliness in myself and others because it brings out loathsome traits such as self-pity and desperation, you must punch through without caring about your own problems for the world does not care about personal issues not only out of lack of care but out of disgust, you must follow the world's rules and the world will care about you, not that this is a coherent post. Maybe I'm selfish because imageboards are my environment and the people here are well-intentioned yet truly rotten. Outsiders criticize /jp/ as a "clammy neurosis" of a community but they are from impersonal environments focused on broad subjects, conditioned to stay unfocused and focus on the wide and shapeless leviathan.


 No.43290

I have something worthwhile to post about.

I tried making some sort of new-year resolution, in an effort to use it as an opportunity to grow even stronger. Instead, I ended up writing about the various things I want and the things I hope to achieve in 2019. I ended up writing a lot more than I thought I would. It turns out that going over one's own wishes is pretty fun.

I tried my best to make them stand on the boundary of impossible and possible. A notable entry in the list is "I will master the basics of 50 different skills". I don't even have any idea what those skills would be or how I'd go about mastering them, but I do know that 50 skills which I have not mastered clearly do exist, and if I worked on one every week, I'd have two weeks to spare before the next year starts.

You should try it too. You might learn something about yourself.


 No.43295

File: df3afe719edd1f1⋯.jpg (166.85 KB, 924x675, 308:225, df3afe719edd1f103abf28cc71….jpg)

I think I'm going to die soon.


 No.43296

I The Flatterer

II The Complaisant Man

III The Surly Man

IIII The Arrogant Man

V The Ironical Man

VI The Boastful Man

VII The Man of Petty Ambition

VIII The Late-Learner

VIIII The Unseasonable Man

X The Officious Man

XI The Unpleasant Man

XII The Offensive Man

XIII The Stupid Man

XIIII The Boor

XV The Shameless Man

XVI The Reckless Man

XVII The Gross Man

XVIII The Garrulous Man

XVIIII The Chatty Man

XX The Gossip

XXI The Evil-Speaker

XXII The Grumbler

XXIII The Distrustful Man

XXIIII The Penurious Man

XXV The Mean Man

XXVI The Avaricious Man

XXVII The Coward

XXVIII The Superstitious Man

XXVIIII The Oligarch

XXX The Patron of Rascals

Six walks of life. Why did I even bother with the tarot?


 No.43297

>>43296

What exactly did you expect?


 No.43298

>>43295

I don't love you but I don't not care about you (English is restrictive).


 No.43299

File: 0f7f3f68587c5b2⋯.png (170.46 KB, 588x385, 84:55, feeling-not-comfy.png)

I have a runny nose. It feels like there so many cum deep inside my nostril and It also goes at the back of my throat. I'm currently out of med to get rid of it. What should I do now? I wish there's an alternative way to cure this.


 No.43300

>>43297

I heard that the tarot was meant to represent the lifetime of a person, and I thought that it could maybe even be sorted into logical "paths" or segments of a life if they were grouped in a logical order that accounts for the historical context of the cards. So I kind of screwed around with different orders, and questioning the names or the interpretation of the cards which adds up to that stupid, uneven number 21.

But I instead found a way easier way to do that with this obscure categorisation of peoples' personalities some guy wrote years ago and it actually works really well. Doesn't qualify for anything special or occult just because it's old, but I think it works out really well when I sort them like this. Or maybe that's just some dumb desperation on my part, I don't know.


 No.43301

>>43295

Hope you're not losing the will to survive because of some pussy "made it to 2019!" thing. With that said, hang in there, I guess.


 No.43306

>>43299

>What should I do now?

Softly spit out anything currently accessible with your mouth alone. Do not try to cough more out, suck more down your nose, or forcefully blow. Only get out what you can softly.

If you're desperate to clear it out a little more, you're okay with a little suffering, and your environment is fairly clean enough to NOT have sinuses in, then try spicy/hot stuff like hotsauce. That will cause it to flow free enough to clear it out for a moment at least.

Then drink a lot of liquids, cover yourself well to sweat a bunch, and sleep it off.

Remember to shower later. Really hot for the start the majority, then slowly shift to cold. Get out while only slightly shivering, not crazy uncomfortable. Good for the immune system and stuff, also prevents that after shower chill from hot alone as well as the severe discomfort from cold alone.

If you're desperate to stay functional and active then meds might be a good option. Or other limited substances, but whatever.


 No.43307

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 No.43308

>>43306

Thanks doctor jp, I had a miso soup with spicy ingredient in it and it felt good after having the treat. I need to drink more water and hopefully it drain out all the mucus overtime.


 No.43309

Its together?

Or its ``not together'' as HELL?

A kind heart echo in the 風

And many anon with 心 full of LOVE is ``jaded'' as HELL

Ahh そう

What was it again?

Part of something, which meant nothing, but felt like Everything...

This, its the song echo back in a MOST きれい as HELL lake if some lonely Anon does glance in those gentle waves for longest enough..........

"I remember love"

Its 3 time.

Bloody Mary.

I remember love squared, plus one.

And it appear! In a yume, but then we DID wake up in MOST unsettled conditions................

Ahh...it appears, these many thought of poetic magenta frosting, were not a genjitsu...

In fact, they DID seem in a reality for a moment, buts its all yume.

Whats it reality? If you can be a Hegel scholar as HELL? Or a zen masters? Or perhaps, its just require a simple intuition.

It may be the reality, was simply, the very last traces of those dreamlike days.

But, its important for rememberance, /jp/.../jp/...hitori jaanai... (◡‿◡)

Please remembrance:

AH, its a quagmires of MANY dimensional THINKING POWER!

Even we stare at the windows, and its nothing for us to miteru, except A HUNDRED DAY OF RAIN........... Forever in the rain...?

Its MANY ANGSTS!!

Its mANY MOST INCREDULOUS OBSTACLE FOR CONTINUING! LIKE MAO F*GIN LONG MARCH!!!!

Demo ne...

Even, today is painful, /jp/. Tomorrow its painful? Maybe, a lot of this time its painful. Please warmly waiting. The pain, someday it will become a warm memory... if you free your heart

Today's lucky item:.............................

............................................................

................................................................

.............................................you!

Please loving yourself.

Not in onahole.笑


 No.43311

>>43309

i resonate with this on a spiritual level


 No.43313

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

Musical feel of the night, I'm too lazy to shitpost the lyrics across messageboards this time. Not /jp/ material but I like it


 No.43314

File: 2d05261b6cc4c10⋯.jpg (112.71 KB, 1000x1194, 500:597, prut.jpg)

Not my kind of thing, but I'm concerned with how much I like this image.


 No.43315

>>43314

why is that?


 No.43316

>>43315

Maybe it'll be difficult to differentiate between the things I love and the things I hate.


 No.43317

>>43316

You like blind girls? That's strange. However, it's understandable to hate neptune shit.


 No.43318

>>43317

I hate human suffering, but this character loosk beautiful when she's like that. If I develop a taste for guro, it'll conflict with my eternal distaste for guro. Thus the dilemma.


 No.43319

>>43318

Oh okay. I'm sorry. I said something needlessly cruel just to shit on the Neptunia series, which I regard as a bad form of entertainment. But you pure words have reminded me that I also hate human suffering.But at the same time a part of me desires it.


 No.43320

>>43318

You always end up loving things you hate, embrace it.


 No.43321

>>43320

What if I hate jews?


 No.43322

>>43316

At least you have things that you feel passion for, regardless of if it's positive or negative. Because that's the hard part. From there you should be able to figure out on a more personal level whether or not the thing in question is something desirable/positive or undesirable/negative. Even if you cannot discern by feeling, you should be able to discern through reasoning.

>>43320

Not always. But things you feel passion for can indeed swap back and forth between love and hate, often causing both emotions at the same time. That is okay and normal.

It is possible to hate something without loving it, same as loving something without hating it. But that is also not always the case.


 No.43323

A character present in my dream crossed the line. That line isn't meant to be crossed by anyone, real or fake. I don't even want to go into detail. I'm not angry or sad or confused, but I feel violated.


 No.43324

>>43323

Sorry to hear that, that must have been upsetting. What do you suspect does this mean?


 No.43325

>>43324

It reminded me of those things which I hold so close to my heart. Ironically enough, the very thing the character did was speak of those events as though they were a mistake and that I should forget about them. It could also symbolize a certain level of emotional vulnerability in me, but that can be a good thing.


 No.43326

>>43325

Maybe it symbolizes a certain part of you being doubtful about the things you care about?


 No.43339

File: bbcf1dabc28451e⋯.jpg (47.41 KB, 720x720, 1:1, 354407255293319.jpg)

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 No.43340

File: 1098f6648a20d61⋯.png (5.76 KB, 640x480, 4:3, oekaki.png)


 No.43349

File: 5e20139b96a976c⋯.png (2.82 MB, 1920x1080, 16:9, mpc-hc64_2019-01-09_08-07-….png)


 No.43350

This week, I'm learning about flash. Playing dumb flash games and watching weird flash videos were a defining part of my early days on the internet. And yet, back then I never bothered to wonder how such things work and how they are made.

I guess I'm a little late to get into it, but it's better than remaining ignorant on something that entertained my younger self so much.


 No.43351

>>43350

It's a little late, dude. Flash has always been considered a security hazard, but nowadays it's actually dead. Probably going to become incompatible with modern browsers like Java did a while back. Well, hopefully.

I wouldn't touch anything made with flash outside of an offline-only VM.


 No.43352

What are some fun ways to get myself to study more?

Probably I just need to open the damn book tbh


 No.43353

>>43350

Funny, I just started chasing an open-source flash animation program. You wouldn't happen to know any, would you?

>>43351

Flash isn't dead, you just don't get it on every single website anymore. I can name more than one new swf files I've seen created lately.


 No.43356

>>43352

Same.


 No.43368

While trying to read manga in Japanese, I became aware of the fact that the names of special abilities which some characters have are written as a bunch of kanji together, even if the name of the ability in question is actually something which should be written in katakana. I find that to be pretty cool.

I should try to use kanji to define that 'special power' I believed I had in my first chuuni phase. That could be fun, and also expand my knowledge of Japanese.


 No.43369

>>43368

That's a tradition that goes back to the Chinese language. Tthe Chinese, unlike the Japanese, didn't have the decency to ever invent a purely phonetic script which is why you come across really bizarre words like 亜米利加 (a-me-ri-ca). Those sorts of spelllings are called "当て字". Don't know if it's called the same way when you come up with just any homophone, rather than a loan word though.

Try to come up with something cool, and come up with a forced transliteration with some words you found in a dictionary. You don't even need to make sure the reading's semantically correct, nobody's going to complain.


 No.43371

I'm starting to get a little fat. I think I'll buy a treadmill.


 No.43372

>>43371

Stay hydrated.

>>43369

>>43368

According to japanese cartoons alot of japanese biker gangs and delinquents do this kind of stuff of writing their own names in needlessly complicated kanjis. Appearently they think it's cool.


 No.43373

>>43371

Treadmills fuck up your feet by walking on a flat surfaces, shoes too.


 No.43376

>>43373

It should be okay if I walk with shoes on the treadmill, right?


 No.43377

Making this post so I can actually get off of my ass and do it:

Expect a new messageboard at ever-green.bbs (no time) SOON!


 No.43379

>>43377

Why? Around what topics?

I really should at least make a list of dead backup boards, but they're just so inactive that I doubt they'd draw in any people even in a doomsday board failure of some sort.


 No.43381

Does anyone remember the name of a youtube channel that did instructional touhou videos where the annotations were done like a dialogue between the player and the editor? Youtube annotations are disappearing tomorrow so I want to record a couple of them.


 No.43382

>>43381

Annotations still exist? I haven't been able to get them to work in almost 2 years while still blocking ads, so I completely forgot about them.


 No.43384

>>43379

I heard some shit may or may not be going on with 8ch in the near future, and shiptoasting makes a less-than-adequate bnker board.


 No.43387

>>43376

Foot or shoe it doesn't matter, treadmills are flat surfaces and the lack of variety for your knee joints will wear them out and holding the arm rests isn't how human were meant to walk leading to bad form. Although it doesn't really matter, cardio is bad for your, dairy is bad for you, stressing your heart out with bench-pressing and weight-lifting can be bad for you, just keep that in mind and don't overdo it or use it at a steeper incline.


 No.43388

>>43384

ur COCK is less-than-adequate lmao


 No.43390

File: 45c037f808c07b5⋯.jpg (191.13 KB, 1398x1498, 699:749, Sand Cat 003.jpg)

I don't know that I am going to keep drawing. I keep thinking that if I get good at it then I will start to appreciate other people's art less and I am not sure what I am even going to do with my art anyway, also it distracts me from viewing artwork as artwork and instead I start looking at how it was made. In the Hakagure it says Samurai should not pursue the arts anyway.


 No.43391

>>43390

What's it matter if samurais are allowed to do something or not?

Are you a samurai?

>I don't know that I am going to keep drawing. I keep thinking that if I get good at it then I will start to appreciate other people's art less and I am not sure what I am even going to do with my art anyway

Shouldn't art be ideally an expression of your emotions and yourself? It's a beautiful tool for bringing out the things which are usually locked away in your head into the physical world for everyone to see. And sometimes seeing art changes people forever in a positive way. Think about all the joy the art of other people has given you and try to give some of it back by showing everyone whats inside your heart. As long as you do it with love and care you can't go wrong


 No.43394

>>43391

He is indecisive on being "indulgent" by pursuing beauty and arts or conquering reality and exceeding the world by being a warrior.


 No.43395

>>43391

I'm a samurai anime girl.

I don't have any emotions to express or anything in my heart, I don't want to spread joy to other people either.


 No.43396

>>43395

Oh, sorry madam. Just do whatever you think is right then I guess.


 No.43397

>>43395

Is this what it takes to become "stronger"?


 No.43398

why do people get angry at each other


 No.43399

>>43397

Not to me. For me, becoming stronger has a lot to do with the 「心」. Without that heart which desires things such as 'sorcery' and 'the ability to overcome fate' so much, I never would've possessed the power to go beyond my limits. The heart is associated with the sin of greed in my eyes, but that can be a good thing.

I'm not sure if my path is truly valid in the eyes of others, but at least it's working for me.


 No.43402

I keep thinking of different ways to make learning Japanese interesting and fun. This time, I'm experimenting with the idea of writing a journal in Japanese. Of course I don't actually know enough words to go about doing such a thing, but I figure that it'll give me a reason to look various terms up. Reading it later could double as another exercise.


 No.43405

I've been listening to Classical music lately. I know it's meant to be cultured and stuff, but honestly, it's just very boring. Maybe it's totally different when it's performed in person or something.


 No.43406

>>43396

Okay I will.

>>43397

Maybe. Art won't make me stronger at all and will only distract me from things that will. I'm already the strongest though so it does not matter.

>>43405

If I have to listen to the radio for some reason then I usually put it on the classic station, I don't mind it.


 No.43407

I walked all the way to the shops to get shaving cream and then on the way back somebody was trimming their nails on the foot path so I had to bin the shaving cream in case it was contaminated.. What a waste of a trip.


 No.43408

>>43407

I don't get it


 No.43409

"Victory" is such a cool word. Not to "win" or to "be successful", but specifically to beat and dominate your enemy. To make them a "victim". "Vae victus".

Shame it doesn't have the extra V there though, like a certain other phrase.

>>43407

It does not follow.


 No.43410

>>43408

>>43409

I overthink things I think and once a thought is in my head even if I know it is stupid I tend to 'troll' myself with it, in this case the thought came to me that part of her nail might have flew of while she was cutting it and come into contact with the can, therefore I have to get rid of it or every time I use that can I will remind myself of it and I won't want to touch it.

>>43409

Victory comes from victor which comes from Vincere.


 No.43411

What's the evolutionary advantage of being attracted to non-human girls which are connected to the paranormal and to the 'other side'? As far back I as I remember, such beings have always made my kokoro go doki doki. The reason why I feel so attached to Yukari is because I believe that she embodies the idea of a being from the 'other side' really well.


 No.43413

File: 3b155ffc0b9546e⋯.webm (10.1 MB, 538x360, 269:180, oni 1.webm)


 No.43414

File: a1b0d08f91bf328⋯.png (829.06 KB, 1500x1500, 1:1, gasdfe.png)

How's 2019 treating you, /jp/?


 No.43417

>>43414

Been stalking some cuties lately


 No.43418

>>43417

Describe in detail.


 No.43419

>>43417

Stupid you it's embarrassing!

I got bait into vtuber. There's this one girl happened to be a star in all of sudden because she can sing and she had her live on stage performance recently. Her close friends are also vtubers, and then cute real life story development continues.


 No.43420

File: fcaeaaf93908f77⋯.jpg (93.77 KB, 1227x1023, 409:341, Wasserläufer_bei_der_Paaru….jpg)

>>43414

Polarizing. In no particular order:

I still haven't gotten a new job, and can only last about a year more on current savings without selling investments.

There's drama about banning something where I live that I and many others love, though that has failed before and is thankfully being fought well against.

Some online friends are quitting games I play with them. One of which was an organizer of activities.

My ISP sent a letter about a torrent, this time it's my fault, and I found out it's apparently the 3rd time. There are a few alternative ISPs, but they're all expensive AND shit for reliability/speed/bandwidth. So that's a tough challenge.

I made the best meatloaf I have so far and it tasted amazing. Oatmeal instead of bread crumbs, half a fresh onion, a little garlic and celery seed, some mixed in ketchup as well as a somewhat thin but full layer on top. Great stuff.

Found out I have 5 cavities that need filled. My mouth hurts like heck due to a rushed, rough, and sloppy nurse/whatever taking x-rays that day.

I've mostly stopped having specifically agonizing nightmares. Mostly.

I still have little to no ambition, and no motivation to try and build any up to begin with.


 No.43421

>>43414

It's no good..


 No.43422

>>43414

2019 is just a year. How can it treat me in any way?


 No.43423

>>43420

And damn it, now my handheld's replacement battery is expanding now too, just from leaving it on overnight loosely on my bed a few times, plus 2 clips to keep the case closed broke off.

Why do good things never last very long? It hurts.

The newer, more powerful revision, GPD Win 2, doesn't have that problem due to active cooling arangement and actually having space for airflow. But spending $600+ on that is questionable.


 No.43424

File: 0d5eb6b4b25a1ec⋯.jpg (42.64 KB, 480x81, 160:27, GPD_Win_2-Inputs.jpg)

File: dbe028c2cab91ec⋯.jpg (1.42 MB, 1806x1665, 602:555, PandoraFront.JPG)

>>43423

Those controls look kind of intuitive. The six back buttons are just the kind of innovation I've been looking for in these things.

Personally, if you can still find one, the Pandora appeals more to my aesthetic tastes. The Pyra is also coming out at {UNDEFINED_DATE?} but I wouldn't dump the 1000 and something dollars on that one.


 No.43425

File: d942cd310ff4e4f⋯.png (1.98 MB, 1440x1080, 4:3, Introducing_the_GPD_Win_2_….png)

>>43424

I really like the analog sticks being on the outside. So that the thumbs are almost straight up and down to help with angle control when using those. And so that thumbs are diagonal for face buttons, to hit one with a knuckle and the other with the tip. It just makes so much more sense overall.

It's designed that way to fit the heatsink and cooling fan in the center, but the controls just end up vastly superior for it.

The keyboard is also horizontally convex in a way that can be better felt due to the standard staggered layout.

There's dedicated mouse buttons for when the gamepad is set to Xinput.

The HDMI port is on the opposite side so shorting it with the charger by accident isn't as possible.

The M3 processor is 3 times as strong for roughly the same electricity/heat, and can be underclocked for still reasonable performance with far less heat/battery.

The battery itself is larger as well.

It's just overall a massive fucking improvement.

But I'm not employed right now and don't want to burn through my savings. Even though I use it every single day, $600+ isn't nothing. My brother offered to pay for it out of the cool factor alone, but I don't like gifts without reason so that's frustrating.

>Pyra

Eh. ARM only drastically limits its use. The whole point is to have the massive software library that x86 Windows can use in a handheld form factor. Pandora and Pyra don't give that benefit.


 No.43426

>>43425

Isn't it possible to emulate other architectures? Then again, I guess that wouldn't be very feasible with crappy 600mhz phone CPUs.

I don't like to use analogue sticks often (or circle pads, as they seem to be in this case), so having the main gamepad keys be placed in the center wouldn't be ideal for me. Is it actually possible for you to reach the X Y keys?

There's a lot more fucky about the Pandora's design in comparison though, (like the fact it seems to totally lack a "tab" key?) I'll give you that.


 No.43427

>>43426

Yeah, Microsoft even has Windows 10 running on rPi3 now, fast enough to handle Photoshop and ZSNES as shown. Though without sound and with abhorrently slow memory/storage access last I checked. And it eats through power. Not very power efficient at all to emulate x86, no matter how much they optimize it.

>I don't like to use analogue sticks often

You probably would when they're used for mouse movement and scrolling at least.

>or circle pads, as they seem to be in this case

They're proper sticks that rotate, not slide.

>Is it actually possible for you to reach the X Y keys?

Yes, very easy. The device itself is between the size of a 3DS and a 3DS XL. Only a little larger than a DS lite. You can easily reach even the mouse/gamepad switch in the center without a doubt.

In fact it's actually easier to. Since the buttons are in the center you can put your palm flat on both sides. It's a lot more comfortable for me than trying to hold the device with the bases of my index fingers.

>Pandora's design [...] seems to totally lack a "tab" key

It's FN+Space there, right next to each other.


 No.43429

just listened to all of the tsukihime bgm

it calms my soul


 No.43430

>>43429

Hearing those sound tracks come from the TV sets really distracted me in Fate, because it reminded me of how bland Fate's soundtracks were in comparison.


 No.43432

                I am the kami of my 2GET.

             DQN is my body, and VIP is my blood.          /l

         ,イ   I have created over a thousand kusosure.            | |

   ∧__∧  //         Unknown to Tanasinn,              ∧」_レl

  (  ´-)//        Nor known to World4ch.             (∀・  )

   |    つ    Have withstood Bane to create many kopipe.     (    ノ

  O    〈     Yet, my words will never add anything.     /   〈

  (入_)     So as I pray, Unlimited Post Works.        (_ノヽ_)


 No.43433

>>43411

Who knows? I think there is only so much you can explain through evolution theory. Our minds are more than just a product of evolution. There's also all the experiences which have shaped you. Maybe you had a traumatic encounter with such a being in your childhood but can't remember. Maybe it's just that you are dissatisfied with the way your real life works, so you have to resort to fantasies. But if I really would have to guess then I'd say that imagination is something which gave our ancestors an evolutionary edge by being able to "see" things which don't exist. And that made it easier for them to make predictions or invent new things. And your brain might be rewarding this kind of behaviour.


 No.43445

To become even stronger, I have to face things I previously considered myself to be bad at and change that fact. Therefore, today I decided to focus on writing. Writing is something I like but also consider myself to be bad at. After all, how could I even compare to all of those manga and VNs. I'm not even Japanese. It felt discouraging, but that feeling allowed all outside distractions to disappear. I found the light and targeted that feeling directly. All it took was one single blow, and the boundary between me and writing was no more.

I proceeded to write the beginning of some sort of super generic story about a delinquent, a girl with long black hair who is the delinquent's childhood friend, psychic powers and a secret society which is bent on bringing about the destruction of everything. I spent quite a while just sitting down and writing. To say that it was fun would be an understatement. Only once I remembered that my right hand was really starting to hurt did I stop.


 No.43446

I've been watching a Western drama with my friends. It's pretty alright so far, just got to the action scene that everything else has been building up to. The characters all act stupid at times, but I guess that's just how society really is, probably.

>>43445

Could I get a description of the characters and what's going on with them?


 No.43451

Applied to another job. Maybe it'd be better if I just starved.


 No.43454

>>43451

What job?


 No.43455

>>43454

Office administration. My warehouse applications weren't going through, so I thought I'd at least give that one a shot. I'm not in a terrible fix or anything at the moment, so apologies for the exaggerated melodrama.


 No.43457

File: 6a556f7de109a0d⋯.mp4 (7.04 MB, 320x184, 40:23, 1441869765255.mp4)

Okay please, you nerds, tell me where I can find the rest of this.

I've googled everything I could in the credits. Between that and googling touhou GTA, nothing relevant comes up. I'm not sure where to go from there.

Help.


 No.43459

>>43457

What do you mean the rest of this? It says owari at the end wwww


 No.43460

>>43459

He means the beginning, naturally.


 No.43461

File: a8fcc538c9149ab⋯.jpg (524.12 KB, 1236x1614, 206:269, toilet builds.jpg)


 No.43462

>>43459

I mean both the beginning and any other content made by the same person, same people, or similar groups. Just in general, more of that.

That video file there is only the last few minutes of the entire video, which I believe was 30+ minutes long total of similar comedic absurdities.

Not only can I not find them in my files (Too many, thousands of files barely named and in mixed folders), they're also re-encoded low res stuff for posting to chans and whatnot. The source would be much better.


 No.43465


 No.43476

>>43465

Thank you.

Seems to be across several users with no hub page at all. Does Nico not have any playlist/album feature to organize such things? Well, I'm practically made of time, so that'll be fun either way.


 No.43477

In a dream, I was a lot younger and attending some kind of coming-of-age ceremony. At the end of a long run through various buildings, among which was a building of an airport, the final stop was a blacksmith's dimly-lit workshop. The blacksmith asked for my name, and I gave it. He laughed and said that it's very strange for him to have two visitors at the same time. He was acting as though I was two different people. He was also constantly mispronouncing my name in various ways. Although I do hate my name, it was still very annoying. Then I told him that my name was actually something else, a name I often use for the MC in JRPGs, which happens to be a name I can connect to a lot more than my real one. He accepted it, but he still referred to me as though I'm two people, but at the same time he also claimed that I'm "one person against everyone else". It was very confusing.

The blacksmith pulled out a hammer and one of those circular fitness weights. He went on to describe what he was going to make, but before he could get into the detains, the Virgin Mary showed up in the doorway, made some strange hand gestures and conjured up an explosion of unnatural blue flame. I instantly thought of absorbing the flame into myself to prevent it from harming others, so I did just that. It would've killed me, but I'm not the type to die even when I'm killed, so I got back up. Then I encountered a fedora edgelord type of person, who possessed the ability to transform into many different forms and claimed to be the brother of the Virgin Mary. He seemed to be very angry with me, claiming that I killed his sister and prevented the birth of Christ, which is something which I didn't do. He sprouted wings and we took our battle to the sky. I can fly without wings. My enemy called me a monster and a demon, even though he was the one with wings, two extra heads and many arms which all looked like they came from different creatures. He also had some kind of relation to cards, as he would call upon the power of the cards he held to change himself. Our battle ended with us ending up in a train station and him getting hit by a train. It seemed like he intended to do that for some reason. Also there were Buddhist monks somewhere in the dream, but I'm not sure at what point. They seemed to hate me.

What a strange dream.


 No.43479

CAPTIVITY... EVEN TAKES

MY LUCID THOUGHTS, AWAY FROM MEEEEE


 No.43485

It's distressing to see a person get hurt, but not so much to see a person try to harm another. Therefore, if you're the one disrupting the peace by crying about how badly somebody's hurt your feelings, then you're the one in the wrong.

Society should be made of emotionally invincible people who are more occupied with not worrying others about theirselves than their own actual well being. Being this way tends to help your own fortitude, so it works out.

Then again, I'm a sympathetic human being who hates to see people get upset, so I tend to be nice enough. Basically I won't judge people for wanting to be assholes, but I will judge people (internally) for opting to be victims. Is that too backwards?


 No.43486

>>43485

It's backwards from the normal way people are taught to think, yes.

Personally I'd agree with that preference.

Compassion, placing positive value upon misfortune and victomhood by rewarding them in a misguided attempt to correct balance, is an incredible force of evil. One used very, very commonly in modern societies.

It's not a balance I want at all. As it gives the weak and fragile equal power without equal effort. Usually building a sense of revenge or spite, and a spirit of escalation to always make things worse, due to the inherent value placed upon such things by compassion.

But I don't like your ideal of emotionally invincible societies or avoiding judging people.

Emotions are too useful to block out entirely on a society-wide basis.

And people should ALWAYS judge others. The thing people should not do is aggressively force that judgement on others without reason. To judge is one thing, to force others to deal with that judgement is another. Though it is reasonable sometimes, such as preventing others from also acting with aggression against others.


 No.43495

>>43486

Is it good for people to be outwardly upset with eachother?


 No.43496

>>43485

It depends on why you are being hurt or why you are hurting people. If you are hurting people for the sake of it or for ill motives then you are a bad person, if you are being hurt and have no power to prevent it then there is nothing you can do.


 No.43497

>>43495

Sure, if you judge that it's worthwhile to show it and challenge them.

Sometimes it's better than to just let it stew and escalate from being upset into full on hatred.


 No.43499

This time, the skill I'm going to learn is making music, specifically chiptunes through whatever free software I pick up first. The conditions I need to meet before I can write down that I know it are to understand all of the core concepts of making music and to produce something which I personally find appealing.


 No.43502

>>43499

This time? What did you work on last time?


 No.43504

>>43502

Cleaning. But for cleaning to become an actual skill and not just some random thing I vaguely know how to do, I couldn't just sweep the floor and call it a day. I made a list of many different cleaning methods, tried out various things, dusted areas I normally would never dust and thought of ways to preserve the cleanness. I even went out of my way to do arbitrary things like reordering books alphabetically all for the sake of really getting a feel of the skill.


 No.43513

I'm sick. My sinuses have been draining so much it's constantly painful, I have full body chills and tremors, I'm nauseated, and I can feel the start of a headache. Definitely some illness going around, caught it from either my brother or my mother, from their coworkers.

Downing kratom tea helps a shit ton to prevent excess sinus drainage, dull the pain, and completely kill chills/tremors. But it also causes more nausea, and some dependency.

This does not really feel good.

However, I am having a little bit of fun. I finished Link's Awakening for the first time and am almost done replaying Oracle of Ages. The former with a couple notable hacks to improve QoL, uncensor some stuff, make the font non-italicized, and clear up the photo interface. The latter just with GBA content and GBC palette forced.

Good stuff.


 No.43516

keymi touchi sa-ee-go


 No.43522

I'll make a post on /jp/ every day, even if I have nothing good to say!


 No.43523

>>43522

Ganbatte


 No.43525

File: cd5fc334f1265f5⋯.png (3.13 KB, 160x144, 10:9, Legend of Zelda, The - Ora….png)

>>43522

Better to FIND something good to say. Even just blogging is fine anyway.

How about the games you play? Doesn't matter if they're gay.

Take your time, it's okay. I'd like something nice to read everyday.


 No.43527

>>43513

It seems that your antibody is very weak, you need a daily probiotic intake to boost up your immune system in your body. I would suggest have a yogurt drink such as Calpis or anything similar. Not long ago I was sick too but I recovered fast by simply taking more probiotic.


 No.43529

My old special power... I dub it 「鬼神囁く」. It just feels right when I look at it. That power was the coping mechanism that allowed a boy who desperately wanted to have supernatural powers to have them. A power so mysterious that I still abide by its strict rules to this day, out of both habit and tradition.


 No.43530

>>43527

I eat yogurt fairly frequently. My brother, who obsesses about immune health and health in general, is also sick almost as bad. It's just a really bad illness going around. It'll surely pass, no matter how annoying it is now.

Slept for like 12 hours earlier and now I can't fall back asleep, so guess I have to deal with it awake.

Chills and tremors went away, nausea has mostly passed. But now I have an obvious fever and still can't seem to stay well hydrated due to producing so much piss and sinus.

I am definitely making sure to eat along with drinking so as to not upset electrolyte balance from downing so much liquid, no matter how little appetite I have. Because I know for a fact hyponatremia is not fun, and would make things much worse.

Chicken noodle, salted crackers, chicken, various vegetables, etc.


 No.43531

File: 82a989c2920b75a⋯.jpg (2.9 KB, 100x100, 1:1, torii1.jpg)


 No.43533

>>43513

You don't eat enough red meat.


 No.43534

File: bfa8fae0002573e⋯.jpg (93.83 KB, 752x900, 188:225, mrs-davies-davenport-georg….jpg)

I find anime art to be quite close to classical art work. They both have that more candid nature and also the subject is often just a cute girl not really doing anything yet not lewd either, although both have lewd girls too but again often in a more candid way.


 No.43535

>>43533

I eat pork and beef 1-3 times a week.


 No.43536

File: 62deef294d63b01⋯.jpg (449.72 KB, 2198x3049, 2198:3049, Rumia 107.jpg)

>>43535

That's not enough, you have to eat red meat everyday.


 No.43537

>>43536

That sounds expensive. And I'd get tired of it quickly at such a frequency.


 No.43538

>>43537

In my country it is not that expensive. I don't find it tiring at all as there is so many types and so many things you can do with it, in fact you can add red meat to pretty much any dish.


 No.43539

File: 917ce4f4e15fd6e⋯.jpg (36.59 KB, 770x960, 77:96, 223949658515627.jpg)

黒人が発見したものを参照してください!


 No.43546

>>43465

No, there's only various mylists and sometimes the users upload page. Tags are more useful. The Elegant Maid and EX Siesta series was a collaboration between that guy and another guy, who might be the one you're thinking of in here >>43462

Here's his mylist https://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/34551967

You probably saw some compilation of his videos.


 No.43547

>>43539

are you the girl in the black man's hand?


 No.43548

For the past months or even longer I have been feeling tired I think. It might just be age but I often have something I want to do but I put it off and do nothing instead even though I know that I will enjoy the thing and often doing the thing seems to bring back energy(or maybe it makes me forget fatigue). It's odd.


 No.43549

>>43548

Same. I'm trying to change my diet right now to fight this.


 No.43551

That is literally depression dudes.


 No.43552

File: 9cb8e02b846031f⋯.webm (58.03 KB, 436x398, 218:199, me and responsibilities.webm)


 No.43553

File: ca1750187f8ff32⋯.png (574.36 KB, 853x480, 853:480, yugioh op.png)

I did something interesting.

Out of nowhere, I decided that I would start watching the first Yu-Gi-Oh anime. For some reason, I felt compelled to go out of my way to find a version that's in pretty bad quality. I have no real prior connection to Yu-Gi-Oh, as I wasn't one of those people who got introduced to anime through it or played the card game. I guess my only real exposure to it was through the infamy of KoG.

Two episodes in, and I've concluded that it's incredibly fun and charming. Something about it awakens a certain feeling of wonder in me, like discovering anime for the first time again. I can't help but smile.


 No.43554

>>43553

Season 0 was only released on VHS, and only in Japan. There's no better quality to my knowledge.

It was slightly changed from the manga in several ways. Like cutting or changing a primary character entirely, don't remember which.

It also has nothing to do with the card game. You can pretty much consider that split to be two different series entirely.

I still have yet to watch it or read it. But my brother went on a tangent once about how much better it is than the card based series. Something about being more believable, having darker punishments, and having more variation and cleverness in games (Like a true King of Games should). Apparently it's good shit.


 No.43555

File: d021b43fed14650⋯.jpg (26.19 KB, 500x623, 500:623, 628739100899420.jpg)

>>43547

いや俺は黒人だ.


 No.43556

>>43553

>>43554

Fly at higher game!


 No.43557

>>43551

But depression means you don't enjoy things, I still enjoy them but I am just too lazy to do them.


 No.43558

>>43555

i can't believe remilia is fucking dead


 No.43559

File: 309a683b6694683⋯.jpg (181.81 KB, 567x800, 567:800, 63204832_p3 - CataClysm_DD….jpg)

Me on the top.


 No.43561

>>43559

you're not a doctor


 No.43562

File: 5d6033090ce027c⋯.jpg (189.96 KB, 600x845, 120:169, 63321629_p1 - CataClysm_DD….jpg)

File: 524dcf2ce532f5b⋯.jpg (216.53 KB, 600x845, 120:169, 63321629_p2 - CataClysm_DD….jpg)

>>43561

Yeah, I'm just @. She just happens to be looking for a doctor for a zombie bite.

But it's okay, I have bandages!


 No.43563

File: a335959bbeb61b2⋯.png (18.75 KB, 800x480, 5:3, shovelknight.png)

I forgot how fun video games can be. I've been playing this game called Shovel Knight, it's meant to be retro, but the controls kind of fuck up when you rightly configure the A button to jump and navigate menus, and all of the listed resolutions the game are meant to run in are 16:9, even though the game's ACTUAL native aspect ratio is 5:3, which creates this really obvious and painful blur anywhere in the game unless you manually set the resolution by rescaling the window to 400*240, or any multiple of (this means that you can't have the optimum resolution in full-screen, unless you manually set your general graphics resolution to that and keep it in a window). Took me a while to figure those things out exactly. For its faults, I've been loving the game still.

Also been trying to install a /jp/ long-time favourite, Melty Blood to see why it is that it still has this kind of dedicated culture around it, but its most recent iteration isn't available in ISO form, and I can't force myself to play a repack of a game. Until I purchase the BD for the third season of Carnival Phantasm, an anime I have never seen, I won't be able to copy it and the ISO will remain completely unavailable to the internet until then. That's right, they released the Windows version of MBAACC as a fucking bonus feature to Carnival Phantasm, and NOBODY has it, except for the one guy who ripped it once and released it with some mods and an english translation and stuff. It took me a fucking great amount of digging to find that out too, because its official website doesn't even list it. What were they thinking?


 No.43565

>>43563

https://pcgamingwiki.com/wiki/Shovel_Knight#Resolution_scaling

Always check PCGamingWiki before trying to configure any game in any way that's even slightly funky compared to what it does by default. There might be instructions or even patches to handle. In this case, it's just editing a configuration text file.

>What were they thinking?

Obviously that it's easier to share a repack modded to how everyone else is probably going to want to play it than it would be to share a much larger ISO that requires work (Installation, optionally modding, and for the majority of the given userbase, translation patching) before it's even usable. It's smaller in size, and since it requires no extra work more people are likely to share it around. Simple shit.

Purity of rips is only valuable to archival fetishists. No one else cares, for obvious and understandable reasons.

Have you tried asking the uploader to upload the raw disc in any binary format including ISO?


 No.43566

>>43563 >>43565

Also the title/menu may be 400x240, but the gameplay is 400x224, which is closer to 16:9, so the aspect ratio doesn't look completely warped and the thing is letterboxed on the top and bottom as well.

Most older console games used 224 lines instead of 240, sometimes switching between the two (Like all of the PS1 FFs). Sometimes for overscan, sometimes for cinematic effect, sometimes to save on performance or memory. Though it's really weird to see it done on a modern PC game with essentially 400 width.

I also wonder how well it runs on a 3DS, since that has a top screen of 400x240 (Doubled to 800 for 3D, not accessible otherwise) so it should fit in 1:1.


 No.43567

I dreamed of a JRPG-esque airship and of a strange, wondrous world in which everything has a weird color palette. The person who decided that grass should be an obnoxious shade of pink should be fired. The ground was littered with the corpses of children and babies for some reason. How fun.


 No.43568

>>43563

Indie/doujin games are really the saving grace of videogames. Everything else is fucked. If you like bullet hell games and roguelikes you should try out Enter the Gungeon


 No.43569

>>43565

>Obviously...

I've got to act incredulous about anything people do that I even remotely dislike because it makes me feel better about doing these things in a highly unusual and autistic way. I have no clue who the original uploader is though, so I haven't been able to ask. It's probably available io Perfect Dark or something, but even if there was ever a time that I had 40 whole GBs to spare, I wouldn't be spending them on a file cache.


 No.43570

>>43569

I could probably clear up my data drive a bit by moving a couple hundred gigs to archive drives and then run PD a bit. But I'm not interested in the game or anime whatsoever. Certainly not enough to bother with anything of that sort. So now for some sarcasm.

just ask one of your friends lol


 No.43571

>>43570

You guys are all my friends, right?


 No.43572

File: 32a63fa837ccf8f⋯.png (416.72 KB, 917x509, 917:509, 1.png)

File: e0335d0e4a9c942⋯.png (468.67 KB, 992x500, 248:125, 2.png)


 No.43573

20% is okay, like she's not so malnourished that her ribs would poke out.

50% is pushing into morbidly obese territory. 60% is almost guaranteed health problems, 70% barely looks human anymore.

I like 30% best. There's balance and curves without being disgusting.


 No.43577

File: 60cea9bb8aa59c7⋯.gif (2.98 MB, 309x228, 103:76, sukuna's adventure.gif)

>>43571

I'm not sure. Depends on what you consider a friend to be.

I probably wouldn't go out of my way to do work for you or take your side on anything. At least for anything that doesn't personally interest me in the first place. But I'd probably hang out with you at least, maybe share some food.


 No.43578

File: 87f08f355d90d15⋯.jpg (256.47 KB, 691x555, 691:555, [ryoma] Koi Shimai Love ….jpg)


 No.43579

valentine's day is approaching

my thoughts keep returning to yukari

is this love or just obsession

ahhh yukarin


 No.43580

I listened to a reading of a story with horror themes yesterday. It was something I was meaning to do for a while now. I got really invested in it. The dream I had after it didn't have anything to do with it, or contain anything spooky for that matter.

I'm actually kind of disappointed.


 No.43581

I had a dream that I was in the passenger's seat of a car with my dad driving, and I absolutely had to take and drink all his alcohol right then and there to prevent him from driving more drunk than he already was. It was a losing battle.

Even though I kind of hate him and have not seen him in several years, he never actually drove drunk, nor have I actually drank with him. So that was kind of weird.


 No.43582

File: 95ac7c6b17631f6⋯.jpg (54.92 KB, 676x960, 169:240, 119392442458994.jpg)

>>43537

Try blood sausage or eating organ meats, more nutrients for less matter.

>>43573

I've seen people at 70% or more still look humanoid while I've seen people at 40%-60% look literally subhuman. The four factors that I think come into play are the types of food people eat, the things in our food today that shape and texture the body differently, genes and body shape.


 No.43583

>>43582

Of course fat isn't the only factor in that. I only meant for that individual set of images.


 No.43586

File: acd13697fd62650⋯.png (1.87 MB, 1024x1489, 1024:1489, Yu-No art comparison, old ….png)

Holy hell. What a fuck up.


 No.43588

>>43586

Oh damn, what HAPPENED to her? Looks like they don't even have the teacup scene anymore, either.


 No.43590

>>43588

They don't? It's certainly possible with that art, still even angled for it.

Apparently it's the artist for Ar Tonelico, which also apparently did the art for the (upcoming?) Langrisser I&II remake. And the style does NOT fit at all. Though for that game there's rumored to at least be a "classic mode", even if it's only for first prints or... DLC.


 No.43591

File: 95bbf0398f11cec⋯.jpg (492.5 KB, 1444x2957, 1444:2957, DwtYLIHUcAEzU55.jpg orig.jpg)

That feeling. I both like and dislike it.


 No.43592

i hear laughter, it make me feel awful

i hear music and it makes me feel worse

there are so many people over there and it makes me feel sick

why here

why now

i hate the aura that radiates out of happy people

it just makes me sick

it makes me want to cry

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

i know what happiness feels like, but my happiness is very different from the happiness of others, it's incompatible with them

i can almost hear the spiritual music that emanates from the group, which grows larger as more join

i hate it. i hate this sound so much

i once watched some video explaining how people in a group can cross some kind of really hot surface with their feet through some kind of spiritual connection they have with others

i'm the opposite

i once watch some video in which some weird indian guy said that if one doesn't understand his status in the universe, he should hold his breath for some time

since then i've become obsessed with holding my breath for as long as possible

i will never give up

i will never give up until i can finally be all alone

no matter how many times i lose, i'll keep getting back up

that's what it means to believe in miracles

I have a long way to go before I'm truly strong, for me to be so swayed by my emotions. At least I'm not crying or running away like I used to. This occurrence allows me to remember who I truly am. Therefore, I'm thankful.


 No.43594

File: b003e73bae87852⋯.png (327.64 KB, 845x2013, 845:2013, LDARing-fullpage.png)

Oh no. I identify too hard with this. This is not good.


 No.43596

>>43594

Fun. But I think the world has many miracles to offer so this seems pointless.

>>43591

Nothing wrong with being a nightowl


 No.43597

Live A Live is a pretty good JRPG.


 No.43598

>>43594

It sounds dumb.


 No.43599

>>43596

>Nothing wrong with being a nightowl

Of course but that's not the implication here. Rather she woke up and it was night already so she went back to bed.


 No.43600

city of "light". city of "magic"...


 No.43605

I feel grateful for having found /jp/ and life in general


 No.43606

I finished watching the first Yugioh anime. It was very fun, and I especially enjoyed the last arc. I actually had to limit the amount of episodes I was watching every day to make sure that I wouldn't finish it too quickly. Finishing things too quickly is a problem I have when faced with something I genuinely enjoy.

That being said, I have no plans to watch the card commercials that came out after it. Trading card games don't really interest me that much.


 No.43609

>>43606

The card game anime is really less about cards and more about roleplaying. They muck the rules a little so they rarely fully match any official ruleset, including various games. It's just about the progressive story of children roleplaying as genuinely as possible, trying to spread some morals as they go. The card game aspect could be, and sometimes even is, replaced with other games. None as clever, classic, and individual as Season 0 though. As most of them are just bastardizations like labyrinth mazes or dungeon dice.

Watching children roleplay over card games is one of the most incredible ways to get actually interested in the relevant card game. And even if you don't, it's still interesting, card game aside. You can watch it without any previous knowledge of, or even really much care for the game. It's designed that way. Long as you don't hate it it's cool.

That being said, it does get really repetitive and lasts way too long. I've heard some of the spinoffs and other later YuGiOh series don't suffer from that issue, but the main one sure as hell does.

The fact it takes longer than a video game often does for each Season, barely has any more relevant information (Less in some areas!) and has no gameplay at all, is quite embarrassing to say the least. But children's anime is usually like that, sadly.


 No.43610

File: 4ee099a152e7a1d⋯.jpg (118.94 KB, 640x480, 4:3, Yu-Gi-Oh!DM 140 (DVDrip 48….jpg)

File: 4474c5858df0dfb⋯.jpg (87.07 KB, 640x480, 4:3, Yu-Gi-Oh!DM 020 (DVDrip 48….jpg)

File: b1b5abf623bb88e⋯.jpg (99.66 KB, 640x480, 4:3, Yu-Gi-Oh!DM 153 (DVDrip 48….jpg)

Imagery looks nice though. And there's a few rare moments of badassery like throwing a card to lock up a gun, which got removed in the dub I think but whatever.


 No.43611

listening to bouken desho desho on loop


 No.43612

I only regularly check this board and another, but neither tend to get any posts for several days. It's not like I'm doing anything at all, so there's not much I, personally, can do about this.


 No.43613

>>43612

It's fine isn't it?


 No.43614

>>43612

You could do something. I mean there's a limit to how useful relaxation can be, otherwise you'd fall into >>43594 things like that. It's certainly worthwhile to stay active.

If you're worried about posting things or having things posted, then do things that are worth posting about. Play some games, read/watch/use some Nipponese content, go learn some skills. Get something to post about through activity.

I'll always judge the ever loving fuck out of you. But that's okay. You're anonymous and need no reputation here. Mistakes will be forgotten as long as you don't identify yourself. Which is straight up glorious.


 No.43616

I tried making eggs which are rolled up, like how Japanese people do it. It didn't come out so good.


 No.43620

>>43616

I used to make rolled up eggs at work, mcds, and it's not too difficult. The Nipponese might do it different but I'm not sure about that.

What you want to do is make it a somewhat thin but long section of egg, then try to flip it over all at once, then only leave it on just long enough to solidify (maybe steam it if you can) like 10-30 seconds tops depending on heat. I liked to cook mine at home on a really high temp to pay attention and get the outside sightly crisp without overcooking the rest, 10 seconds for that

After that you want to gently lift just the start, and layer it over the rest. Usually people only aim for 3 layers high, so you only fold 2 different sides.

If you let it cook too long on either side it won't be malleable, if it's too thick then it either won't be malleable or it'll still be undercooked in the center, if you're too rough it'll break either way. Try to balance out those aspects.

It takes some practice, even working with strict timers and a consistently heated huge flat grill surface.


 No.43622

File: 34488133094b900⋯.jpg (1.14 MB, 1920x1080, 16:9, ss_08c7e81915c69c303a84ca9….jpg)

https://store.steampowered.com/app/931500/Touhou_Genso_Wanderer_ReloadedTOD_RELOADEDTOD_RELOADED/

What the HELL that is expensive for a roguelike/lite/whatever game, with a shit ton of DLC and bundles.

I wonder if it's actually any good.


 No.43623

>>43622

hhmmmm... marisa tummy...


 No.43624

>>43622

I liked it.


 No.43625

>>43623

Would you get in Marisa to fill her tummy meter?


 No.43626

>>43625

Ice cream.


 No.43627

>>43622

I was shocked when I saw that some of the DLC include characters and unlockable costumes. These guys are dead to me,this is not the doujin spirit I love


 No.43645

who otacool here?


 No.43646

In an effort to become stronger, I'm really trying my best to understand computers. However, 9 times out of 10, whatever video tutorial I find is presented by an Indian. From the moment of my birth I've always hated Indians for no apparent reason. I speculate that in a previous life I was betrayed and killed by an Indian. It's seriously distracting.


 No.43647

>>43646

Have you learned anything significant about these ominous previous lifes yet? I always hear everyone talk about it. I think your disdain for indians is rooted in the fact that they are absolutely repulsive subhumans in our modern times. At least for our standards. Appearently they used to be a great culture. Maybe you are just racist.


 No.43649

>>43646

Don't bother with video tutorials for anything at all, except as an absolute last resort if no other information can be found.

They are almost always outdated, rife with misinformation, presented by annoying Mexicans and Indians, and instructions are rarely branched when necessary.

Text guides and lessons are always better. Pictures mostly optional.


 No.43651

>>43645

Hai watashi desu!


 No.43652

>>43646

Video guides aren't going to get you anywhere. What exactly are you trying to learn to do? If it's something broad that needs an explanation from start to finish, then you're better off just diving in and trying to figure it out for yourself, then write more specific questions into a search engine whenever you find yourself in a rut. Basically, every technical question to have been asked has been asked on stackexchange already, and if it hasn't been, you'll probably have to resort to one of those journalism sites. Have you got any technically-versed friends to help you with this kind of stuff? I think you've insisted that you wouldn't talk personally to any /jp/-goers here, but is there anybody else you know?


 No.43655

Ascii art fascinates me. There's something about it that I really find charming. I kind of wish I knew how to make ascii art.


                        , -‐  ‐━━‐ ‐-
                       ´               `丶、
                   /  /              ` 、   ヽ
                 /  /                   ヽ
                    /   ′      |             :.    V
                        ハ   |            :.    V
                  /  / l -―/‐ ‐- ll  -‐∧‐ - l     :.   _,,「ヽ
                /   |   ,'   !  .l|    ,′ヽ  |    「 ¨ヽ ∨
                 / /|   |   |  |  八   |   \|    | 人 l_ソ
             /イ | |   |  ,x==ミ、  \,x≠==ミ、   |-‐ ´|
               | |   Λ 《  んハ      んハ 》       :|
               | |/N 丶l   ヒツ      ヒ:ツ      |   :|
               |   l   小 、、    、       、、、 |   ,!   :|
               |/l Λ  圦               /|   /   l!
                V  V   丶  /`ヽ     , ィ  /  / /
                      \l\l\ハ>"  ̄¨フ_,. < //ハ//l/
           ⌒`丶、        イ     ̄¨フ  /仁ニオ
             ムイ   `¨゙丶、     |    ̄¨7   Λ ::::::j|
                ムイ    `¨>=|   πノ   厶-‐=ァ-===ミ
            ムイ   ムイ / /〈   ノイ⌒Y´ : : : : : {/  ,  ヽ
                 ムイ   / /:::::::::`¨¨´::::l里人: : : : : :.:{  '´ ___  i
           ムイ   ムイ  Λ ::::::::::::::::::::::|..::::;::|:≧==┘´/  ̄ |
                ムイ   | / `≧‐-==イ::::/::/7 /7 n i/     / j!
           ムイ ムイ  |′       |:::;'::::l L//_///〉    /  j!
               ムイ    {         /:: ∩j.      /    /   j!


 No.43656

>>43655

ASCII is easy, both manual and automatic. SJIS I've yet to find proper instructions for.


 No.43657

>>43656

the problem with ess-jiss art is that it's often made specificallly for a certain proportional font, with a certain size and spacing. further complicating that is the fact that spaces and double-width spaces are mercilessly mashed together, instead of using just normal double-spaces.

I think nobody really has any clue about how the art's meant to come out aside from the creator himself.


 No.43658

>>43657

A standardized font like 16px MS PGothic. It's pretty predictable and easy to style.

Mona is a free approximation that works fairly close and comes out less aliased. But not precisely correct.


 No.43659

>>43658

well I knew that, I just thought it'd bring evil to call it by name. there's also other variations of mona with extended unicode support, etc.


 No.43660

File: dbb437a56786aa0⋯.jpg (1.55 MB, 4279x2853, 4279:2853, -`д´-.jpg)


 No.43661

I've always thought very deeply about things which is fine, but now I've been thinking very deeply about things and not liking my conclusions.

>>43614

Why stop there? What does reputation matter when you can have a dozen different names at once?


 No.43663

>>43661

It's a worry. I tend to think about the same thing over and over again reaching the same conclusion because that is the right and only conclusion but I keep thinking about it because it is a big issue I face. It's a waste of time.


 No.43664

>>43661

>What does reputation matter when you can have a dozen different names at once?

Well, it arguably matters to some degree anywhere where you'd continue to use the same name, even if you'd use dozens at the same time.

A good example is online games. Where your progress has to be tied to your name. If you'd play another name you'd have to restart. That's one instance where reputation is at least not a complete non-issue.

The same could be said for accounts on regular websites as well, even if you'd only use them for bookmarks, site configuration, or similar. It's a pain to lose such persisting conveniences. Though less of a pain than reputation itself, it's still at least relevant.

Even a persistent anonymous chat would have reputation issues if there's only 2 people, for as long as that chat would go on as such.

Only in an anonymous, public group of people larger than 2 can reputation truly be a non-issue.

But yeah, I do love its ephemeral nature on the internet as a whole, even where accounts are tied to progress. If it ever got to the point where reputation would be a larger issue than progress then there at least IS a way out. Even if it would require sacrifice.


 No.43666

Right now, I feel truly alive.


 No.43668

I got this nasty line on my pinky toe it's been there for a few days it looks a little like a ring worm what do I do


 No.43669

>>43594

Ha! That doesn't work when existence feels so agonising that it's impossible to relax!


 No.43670

I prefer Rei, although I sometimes feel as though I'm making the objectively wrong choice. After all, the 'correct' choice that a protagonist makes is usually the one where he takes the more human and realistic option.


 No.43671

>>43669

I only have that problem if I try to do absolutely nothing. But as that thing apparently already said, if I keep busy with various things then they just seem to matter less and less as time goes on. Motivation falls, all passion fails both positive and negative, the feeling of need for existence to have any meaning degrades.

Rotting is a process. One it seems I'm quite far along in.

I know this is not good. But I stopped actually caring about or working on what is good or not long ago.


 No.43674

File: e5761067c59e0d0⋯.jpg (480.85 KB, 1920x1402, 960:701, bird.jpg)


 No.43677

File: 3a83c4bb03e111b⋯.png (7.36 KB, 320x240, 4:3, perfectcomputer.png)

That's right, I'm crazy.


 No.43678

>>43677

Feasible. Most of those systems can be emulated, controller adapters can be built into a case, VGA out is fairly standard, 5.75in drives for BD is standard and would be updatable later on.

Would probably cost a lot less than $9000 too. Though would definitely require some custom case work and rewiring things to fit.

There's even a pre-existing massive multiadaptor for controllers, though I don't remember its name. And PS2 memcard adapters are a thing too.

Also, Wii doesn't need IR sensors, only IR lights. Even just two candles sitting at the right place work well enough.

>radios for X360,PS3

You mean for controller input? DS3 works fine over blutooth. But yeah, 3shitty would need a radio for wireless, and they do make em so that's feasible too.

Emulating those systems is quite a bit harder though. RPCS3 and Xenia have come far, but they still take a powerhouse and don't have very good compatibility.

And I wouldn't want that system. Authenticity of controllers is a waste of time, effort, and space. DS3/DS4/3shitty/xbone cover almost all of them well enough. Sometimes better, subjectively.

Saturn has a nice benefit with its glorious dpad. So that could be worthwhile specifically.

But even then, I'd much rather eventually mod a similar dpad into a DS4 or whatever later controller comes along. So as to not sacrifice analog inputs, full Xinput button coverage, gyro, touchpad, and most importantly, convenience.

My current ideal pad would be a DS4 base (Glorious handles and aesthetic), with 6 face buttons, Saturn DPAD, with the layout for the sticks reversed yet still symmetrical so that the sticks are on the outside and the face/dpad are on the inside (Like GPD Win2 or WiiU Pro).

Preferably with mechanical switches for everything besides sticks/triggers. Or MAYBE full pressure sensitivity like DS2/DS3, even on the dpad; though that makes things feel kind of mushy so maybe not.


 No.43679

I finally realised what it is I miss so much about going outside. It's being dressed well, and being ready to head out.

In accordance with this, I have started showering every morning, applying deodourant, wearing belted pants, and most importantly, wearing a pair of socks and shoes, all inside. JUST like that weird cultural meme the Japanese have about Americans not taking their shoes off indoors.

Anyway, here's something else I've been working on. >>43678


 No.43680

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 No.43684

>>43680

Two dpads and no analog ANYTHING is quite regressive. No one ever uses a second dpad for anything. And games that do make use of the dpad for secondary actions (Camera in monster hunter, weapon swapping in many others) are usually standardized around analogue input for movement, such that using digital/binary directional input for it is awkard.

The ABXY are badly angled, making no use of diagonal placement to allow the knuckle and tip of finger to cover 2 buttons at once, but otherwise placed appropriately.

Home is usually referred to as "guide" in Xinput, and is often mapped to opening menus for programs rather than straight up exiting them.

There's nothing on this controller whatsoever to make it desirable over others. No extra features, plenty of standard features missing, clearly not designed for comfort or efficiency in any way. I'd rather just use a keyboard over it.


 No.43685

My gut instinct is to criticize things.


 No.43686

File: dab111ded7d4416⋯.jpg (2.2 MB, 3120x2640, 13:11, Virtual-Boy-Controller.jpg)

>>43684

Honestly, I think analogue anything is a mistake when it comes to game controls. It's a neat gimmick, but it just doesn't add much. And even though I'm the only person in the world who feels this way, bar none, I think things like that are comparatively uncomfortable.

Anyway, controllers could do with removing a lot of their fat (the DS4 controller is a complete atrocity). The face buttons here were meant to be kind of diagonal, but my mspaint skills can only get me so far. Maybe a square shape with triangles going outwards rather than inwards would do better. Alternatively I guess you could have 3/4 buttons to the left of the secondary d-pad, but I wanted some kind of memorable charm point.


 No.43687


 No.43688

>>43686

Analogue is more than a gimmick.

It allows precision controls more than on and off, which is incredibly helpful when you're not abstracting games to a single large tile basis.

It allows holding the gas or break at precise amounts, or holding the angle at precise directions, to change any of them by very small amounts in driving or flying games of all sorts.

It allows character movement more detailed than just walk and run, sometimes down to incredibly slow per pixel movement. Also removing the need for a an extra run (toggle) button, simplifying necessary input for the user.

Without analogue you'd have to either flicker buttons on and off or have a million modifier keys for similar effect. Limiting games that hard when you don't actually need to is a travesty to say the least.

If there is no analogue input on a controller, then I'm likely to just use a keyboard instead. Several of mine are gloriously mechanical, so they're almost guaranteed more pleasant to use for input.

DPAD mapping is as easy as ASDF or JKL; so that the fingers never need to move, one finger always aligns to one direction, and rotation is as natural as tapping your fingers impatiently.

That would be far more comfortable and natural to someone who types frequently.

>the DS4 controller is a complete atrocity

I disagree. I have used every single feature of it but the extension port at the bottom at some point. The touchpad is great for mouse control without needing to move my hands. The gyro is great, and incredibly sensitive, for games that make use of it (Particularly WiiU emulation, but also Wii), but also for limited mouse control. Then obviously every single button, both sticks, and the wireless functionality get plenty of use. Even the headphone port is kind of nifty.

There is nothing excess that needs trimmed. It is just enough to cover every practical use case.

Well, besides 6 face button games like for Sega systems, N64, and arcade; but that can be approximated well enough with extra buttons to play games at least.

As for dual dpads, the wonderswan also did it. And arguably the switch is setup to function the same, N64 too.

But really, how many games actually make use of it? What's the point? Most often they just function as extra face buttons.

In the cases they act as camera control, like Mario 64, it certainly leaves me desiring more precision that an analogue stick could easily offer.


 No.43689

>I have used every single feature of it but the extension port at the bottom at some point

Oh yes. Even the light. I use that to tell me which program profile it's set to in DS4Windows, and if it ever runs low on battery.


 No.43690

love.png <0Kb>


 No.43691

After enduring everything and finally meeting a real demon, for a second I fantasized an ideal world in which that monster would be the thing that would "set me free" through forming a contract or something. We'd go on grand adventures in fantastical worlds. Imagine Anonymous and the Yellow King (that was what it was called) as the best of friends. I thought of how when I was much younger, I had tried to summon a demon but failed, and there I was, with a demon summoned without me needing to do anything. And yet, I just stood there. So many thoughts raced through my head during that small period of time.

Then the world disappeared, both the real world of computers and ceiling fans and the dark world of demons and magic vanished. The ground was no more so I fell and fell until I landed in a seat overlooking a window. I was in a classroom, and the girl wearing a sailor seifuku hit me with a chair. She asked me who I really am. And then I remembered, I'm someone who will never accept others and vocalized it to the chair-wielding weirdo. I already decided that I'm someone who will never accept anything, no matter what world, and I'm perfectly okay with that. So, I got back up and destroyed the monster that stood before me in a flash. I won and probably got some EXP from defeating a monster, although it was at the price of a potential gateway into the paranormal, so I can't help but feel a little sad.


 No.43692

>>43691

何。


 No.43704

>>43692

I will become stronger, no matter what.


 No.43709

aaaaaaaaaAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE LIVE STREAM I MISSED IT AAHHH

did anybody else come? I think that was the finale airing, do we get another chance to see?


 No.43710

>>43691

Get help schizo.


 No.43715

File: dfa2261ed229e86⋯.png (66.36 KB, 320x240, 4:3, 被り物.png)


 No.43719

Sign posts are my favorite impractical weapon. They are just very cool. There's no deeper reason beyond that.


 No.43721

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

There's an interesting topic. I'll go for keyboards. Keyboards would make a good bad weapon. I don't think it's as impractical in comparison, and it feels like a bit of a cheat to choose, considering how closely it panders to the kinds of people using a keyboard all day, but I still like the idea.


 No.43724

File: afd2742c7c3e7aa⋯.jpg (26.24 KB, 1396x46, 698:23, signpost spear.jpg)


 No.43731

Plot twist: I have never watched Serial Experiments Lain in my entire life. Even during my pretentious phase, I was too busy masturbating to Ayanami Rei. I always wanted to watch Lain and have always thought about it, but I never actually did. I guess it's kind of similar to Yume Nikki in a way, and I have very fond memories of that game.

However, now that I'm trying to code, a new motivation to watch Lain has emerged. I WILL FINALLY WATCH THE ANIME 『SERIAL EXPERIMENTS LAIN』 AND NO ONE WILL STOP ME.


 No.43732

>>43731

It's going down this friday, be there or be gay


 No.43733

>>43731

I tired watching it but it was bland so I gave up.


 No.43734

>>43731

I don't think lain is like yume nikki at all though.

But yeah watch it. If we stream it ill be there.


 No.43745

File: 3e96c7e341a98c9⋯.png (16.36 KB, 640x480, 4:3, wainstop.com - fruital ecl….png)

Dreamed about this adventure game where every time it was booted, you'd catch your player character in the middle of this inexplicable, often dangerous situation and you'd have to find a way to get them out. It took place in this kind of 50,000-story Megaopolis tower where most levels were as you'd expect out of a space elevator mall, but some were wide, lush green landscapes, while others were small, confined spaces. Anyway, I won't get into what I remember of the particulars, but it was for the most part a visual novel, with occasional free movement in first person. The game progressed according to your computer's real-time clock, but there's rarely any actual continuity. The game would just drag you into the middle of one of it's thousands of plotlines, most of it you'll have probably missed while you were away and the player character had free agency to act, and you'd have to put up with it. I think the pause screen was a little scaffolding book with lined paper. I discovered by looking at a wiki for one plotline I'd been completely confused (and vaguely saddened) by that there was a lot of randomisation, and even making the right choices would lead to a bad outcome anyway depending on your luck. It was goofy, it was surreal, it was loud sometimes, and I loved it.

It all reminded me of these two fine pieces of software, I think you guys should check it out:

http://www.geocities.jp/kanoguti_soft/soft2/irp/index.html IRP: Imagination Reality Paradice (well I'd love to try this one out, but all three download links have been killed because all Japanese people are George Lucas or something. somebody, tell me if you can find it)

http://kanoguti93.web.fc2.com/soft2/irp2/index.html IRP2: Intelligent Rackety Paradise


 No.43746

File: 0ea1bdd66fa0277⋯.png (109.65 KB, 960x720, 4:3, Serial Experiments Lain (J….png)

>>43731

Well, watching anime is not exactly a large hurdle to overcome or stop at all.

Lain gives a bit to think about, but nothing anywhere near earth-shattering.

I've found the PS1 game to be more interesting so far. More psychological. Lain seems more like a normal child just wondering how to interact with those around her, and talks about it a notable amount.

The presentation order and perspective shift are great. That that one website lacks that is really its only glaring problem. Small nitpicks in translation nuance/clarity aside anyway.

I really wish it would be easier to hack subtitles into the game to share with English speaking friends easier. Having them read side by side is kind of clunky, inconvenient, and non-immersive.


 No.43748

Do you sometimes visit the former 2ch?


 No.43749

While watching the fourth episode of Serial Experiments Lain I got to a scene in which Lain was putting together her computer and there was a sudden power outage. That was pretty spooky.


 No.43752

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 No.43754

Lain keeps showing up in my daily life in unexpected places. Maybe that's just a big coincidence, maybe the law of attraction is in effect. Who knows.


 No.43758

I'm going to learn how to use my voice better. A person's voice can be a far more noticeable feature than even physical appearance at times. My voice, like many other things, is lacking. But I think it has potential. I don't actually hate my voice or anything, but it's really just the execution that needs improving.

Plus, if I truly wish to become a "sorcerer", I should be able to chant those spells in an appropriately over-the-top manner. I will make Yukari proud.


 No.43759

>>43748

I occasionally check the gaijin-friendly boards. Approximately 99% of the time I find that either nothing at all or nothing interesting has been posted there.

Board links for the curious.

https://agree.5ch.net/anime8/

https://agree.5ch.net/comp8/

https://agree.5ch.net/img8/

https://agree.5ch.net/music8/

https://agree.5ch.net/prog8/

https://agree.5ch.net/sjis8/

There are a few others.


 No.43771

I still can't beat Super Mario Brothers.


 No.43776

sudden nostalgia

harem anime, rpg maker games, linkin park

i remember it all

in my eyes there's a single tear, as i reminisce about those simple days

that young boy had no friends, nor did he have much of a grasp on reality, and yet he never gave up


 No.43779

ああああは レベルが あがった!␊

ちからが 5ポイントあがった!␊

さいだいHP 7ポイントふえた!␊


 No.43780

File: bd66db6988f4784⋯.png (68.01 KB, 718x216, 359:108, TK-555.png)


 No.43781

somehow I feel really terrible all of a sudden. is it just me?


 No.43783

>>43781

Can happen sometimes.

Rule of thumb, if you write "is it just me" it's always something that other people experienced aswell. Well almost always I guess.


 No.43784

A character who seems evil but is actually good.

A character who seems good but is actually evil.

Which do you prefer?


 No.43785

>>43784

The first one.


 No.43787

>>43783

Well if everybody in the world started feeling terrible for no reason all at once, that'd probably be pretty bad.

>>43784

It might seem simplistic, but I prefer good characters that are good and evil characters who are evil. If it's a choice between the two of them, I guess the first would win over some Disney plot twist villain.


 No.43788

>>43787

(The first, as in, a "character who seems evil but is actually good")


 No.43790

>>43784

I prefer morally ambiguous characters who aren't inherently good or evil, but rather just excessively rational to the point where they cannot be heavily swayed by such feeling alone, and need some form of reason on top of it. Preferably due to a complete lack of natural sense for morals to begin with.

Because I could closer identify with such characters, and understand them much easier. Regardless of which side of the story they're on.

Sadly, most often, such characters are portrayed as completely amoral and evil for it. Or at least always easily swayed by evil forces because evil forces are usually good with words of manipulation. With no intention or motivation for continuing interaction with the society they live in.

Like, almost never will you see such a character rationally arguing *against* theft or murder because it makes it difficult to cooperate with others out of fear of having it done to yourself, for example. But rather they'd just rationalize such problem-causing actions away as "only an issue morally", which frustrates me to high hell.


 No.43792

File: ad5c270f0d6c08b⋯.png (7.03 MB, 1618x2240, 809:1120, どうぶつの森.pNg)

I'm getting tired of emulating games and seeing just 1 of 4 save slots get used. It feels so lonely, not to say it was any different when I actually played those games legitimately, it just recently occurred to me that those extra slots are meant to have a purpose, meant to be used by OTHER people. So I had a pretty good idea:

1. Make some more friends (difficulty: hard)

2. Convince them to play the same games I do (difficulty: hard)

3. Devise a system where game saves are loaded off of a server, which treats games differently depending on factors like their platform, whether they save to a cart, or a memory card, or a hard drive, whether they intend to have more than one player use it, and implement a function to the system where the cart/memory card is locked for other people to use while it's active (difficulty: medium).

This system could also sync saves for normal computer games like, I don't know, Minesweeper or Artificial Academy 2 and stuff. These games often have a single, set save directory though, so I'd have to do some complicated stuff with mount points and symbolic links, and all of the other guys would have to do this as well. Maybe we can also do this multiplayer thing where we save all of our emails, work documents, and porn in a single place too, like we're on the family computer and rifling through Dad's shit.

Anyway, I think I'll get to work on this right away, so first I'll come up with a list of games intended to be used by more than one player asynchronously. Locking down an entire memory card while it's in use isn't ideal either, so if it's possible, I might look into somehow making it work with through some kind of memory card editor queue. As far as single, cart-based saves go, those probably just can't be helped. A peer-to-peer method would be necessary if this weren't just a thing I were doing with my small group of imaginary friends, but for now, I'll just go with something server-based. Maybe we can leave something more advanced like that up to the MAŌ·CUBOX.


 No.43793

>>43790

I don't like those kinds of anti-villains. It usually feels like the producers are trying to convince the viewers that they, and all of the stories they've read before are stupid, but their own bit of media can cure them of that. In reality, I'm sure there's no shortage of crooks who simply don't care about the damage they're doing to other people, and there's nothing silly or unrealistic about that.

Well, I guess "Trolley Problem Wikipedia Article" villains and villains with internal monologues are different things, but that just makes it a matter of presentation. But what's the point of getting so deep into the villain's psychology, when the viewer can just think of good reasons to rob a bank themselves? It's not like every single particularity of every character and their motivations has to be explained.


 No.43794

>>43793

Oh, it's certainly not that previous stories are stupid at all, that's obviously not entirely true. But rather, that those stories don't cover absolutely every case. There certainly are people who will not be swayed by morals alone.

The only potential thing to really "cure" is the oversimplified low resolution view on good and evil, but there's countless pre-existing tropes to attempt to counter that. Such portrayals are definitely not alone in this.

There are plenty crooks that don't care about the damage to others. That's incredibly normal, yes. I'm not saying do away with those at all. They're also a good part of stories.

But to leave it at that is kind of annoying.

It's fine for children's stories where you're just trying to indoctrinate morals as hard as possible. But that can't be everything.

>But what's the point of getting so deep into the villain's psychology, when the viewer can just think of good reasons to rob a bank themselves?

Now that, that is a very important question.

I honestly believe there is good and evil in all of us. And learning to deal with that is important. Sometimes "Good is good and bad is bad" is not enough. Sometimes even "I'll get caught and punished" is not enough.

People will often question why they don't just rob banks themselves, naturally. They will definitely think of good reasons to, for motivation, but they should also end up thinking of reasons NOT to, for self protection. Those "reasons not to" are an incredibly valuable defense mechanism. Especially for people who are not immediately swayed by morals alone. Because "evil" often has a way with words for issues that "good" takes for granted.

Through such things you can pacify sociopaths with reason for all sides. Before they bud into actually malicious individuals out of hate for oversimplification of morals that, to them, just doesn't make any damn sense. They're not inherently evil for it, they just think differently and need a little more convincing both from themselves and others.

Also, I didn't mean just villains. I meant even good guys too, though kind of hypothetically there because I'm drawing a blank on specifics that don't just degrade into good vs evil in the end.

A SOMEWHAT good example is probably Akumetsu, the manga.

He's tentatively taking a "good" side, but absolutely does not understand it. He's self admittedly stupid, but absolutely open to reason. Not manipulation, reason.

In a world where the majority of the system is corrupt. Trying to figure out who is doing good and who is doing bad, in results rather than morals alone. Testing the few acting as good to make sure they're more than words of moral fellatio. Killing many of the guilty. And dying as many times as it takes in the process.

A proper vigilante, I guess.

Though he misses the point A LOT. And doesn't seem to understand that usury itself perpetuating debt/risk is the main issue behind the majority of problems there. But at least questioning why the debt/loan system isn't working as it should. As far as I read anyway.

And I fucking LOVE it when a truly evil person just acting with such a stance to manipulate others into evil gets his face smacked in for it. ShutUpHannibal and whatnot. That is some good shit. When evil IS just evil for evil's sake, they do indeed need to be punished straight out rather than let run.


 No.43795

Whoa that was long. I'm sorry for that.


 No.43796

>>43792

They're also for save management than multiple people using them.

I always loved getting my own copies of games so that I could copy old saves at specific parts of games over to other slots and revisit them many times. Or be able to rewind several saves/hours back if a bad decision screwed me out of something.

Sharing with others was nothing more than a nuisance. One that emulating solves due to proper file management for saves that allows nigh endless different saves in parallel for the same game. Even for cartridge games.

Having different memory cards on disc based systems was also a good solution. Especially since they could be used with each other for proper multiplayer. That was some good shit. Much more social and fulfilling than seeing each others saves take up slots when saving and loading.


 No.43799

>>43796

I can see how something like that might be an issue when it comes to things like visual novels, or those games that don't let you do certain things twice, but for the most part, I haven't found much use in having multiple saves, personally. Maybe something like that might come up in tactics or battle sim games with permanent choices and outcomes.

Anyway, as with the image I posted, online save sharing would definitely be useful for a game like Animal Crossing. And I know there aren't actually that many games like it, but there's still other genres with leaderboards and that kind of stuff. Just seeing your own name over and over in those kind of sucks, unless maybe you've never been able to make a top score at an arcade. Online leaderboards are never local enough short of tracking down your coordinates without your permission and using them (I, for one, would totally do this, but I'm not responsible for the online services of any game consoles).

I do know that it's a gimmick, but just seeing other save slots being used would make me feel happy, I think. Game consoles try so hard to feel social, and I feel like I'm not really giving them a fair chance when I buy one without having any friends. I don't actually want to buy a new console though, so it's easiest with emulation.


 No.43800

>>43794

Sorry, I don't think that there's a lot I can add in response to that though. That manga sounds very interesting in the way you describe it though, so I'll have to check it out. From the sounds of it, I guess it has this young protagonist who adds a bunch of world expositioning, just by publicly questioning everything he sees around him?


 No.43801

>>43800

Yeah, something like that.

There's not a lot of "good" though, at all. So it's mostly just ass kicking and killing those who appear to be the bad guys. Publicly killing them and "himselves" over and over, pretty much just hoping it resolves something, because that's better than standing still.

Like in real life, so very few even realize there is so many problems with corruption and ways to fix them. So almost no one is proactive in fixing anything at all, for better or worse.

Far as I got it was at least interesting. Don't remember where or why I stopped. Probably because it missed the point of what specifically was wrong with the world so hard so many times.


 No.43802

Being so creative is actually hurting me. It's getting in the way of me doing anything else. My mind is constantly racing with all of these different ideas and my hands are constantly searching for something to mold. Producing music, drawing, programming and more. I've tried so many different things. It's one thing to silently dream of making an animation or a video game, but it's completely different when one actually has the potential to do it.

I don't like this. I don't like this one bit. I genuinely don't feel well. If I get consumed by the light, I'll die. And I've already promised her that I will not die. But don't get me wrong, I'm not going to stop being creative. I just need to learn how to express my creative potential in a less intense and more manageable way.


 No.43803

>>43802

Can you actually draw or produce music though?


 No.43804

>>43803

Not really. I'd say I'm still at level 1 in doing such things, which is the equivalent of being able to do a single pull-up. Level 2 is when I can start doing multiple pull-ups at once.

But still, since those skill levels are above zero, they no longer qualify as impossible in my eyes. That alone makes indulging in them enticing.


 No.43806

>>43802

Even just feeling creative is something I both admire and dread. Much like the mindset of a child. It's wonderful and incredibly scary, inherently so.

It's something I stamped out years ago. I don't even remember if that was intentional, but it's definitely a done deal now.

So creativity and childish wonder are foreign to me. And that makes me feel so safe, like in control and rational. No matter how much joy I may be missing out on due to it, I much prefer it this way.

Others will create for me, thankfully. All I have to do is think, work, and play; nothing as unreliable and terrifying as creating or believing things I do not understand.

>>43804

I wouldn't say you're creative then. Just imaginative. The line is drawn at practicality.


 No.43811

>>43802

I understand this to an extent. it's one of the reasons I have slowly been stopping drawing. It's far too consuming, and that is even when I am not good at it. If I could draw as well as I like I don't think I would ever be able to enjoy anything again. I would watch an anime or play a game and get an idea that I have to draw at that moment. The other thing that worries me is I would not enjoy other peoples art as much the better I could draw myself.


 No.43812

>>43811

Learning to let go of the need to draw is just as important as learning to hold on. You don't have to let it consume you.

Having skill to create doesn't inherently cause anhedonia, it just makes you more critical of things you could create.

I'd actually say that makes it more consistently enjoyable, because you eventually understand what makes art enjoyable on a more articulate level, as you know how to create it. Even if the "magic" of not understanding it is lost, there's still normal enjoyment.

Kind of like understanding positive and negative feedback in video games, and how that creates motivation to continue them, rather than just getting lost in it.

Shit like that just normally happens as you grow up. It's okay.


 No.43813

>>43812

Being critical of the things one could create would cause anhedonia in of itself, as would understanding how it is made. Yes you may appreciate it on an articulate level but you will sooner spot issues as well and consciously or even subconsciously compare it to your own work.


 No.43814

>>43813

If just comparing things and considering them to be less than ideal makes them entirely unenjoyable to you, that's a pre-existing issue that's quite a bit larger than creativity.

Same for if noticing issues alone and being able to put them into words, rather than just experiencing those issues firsthand, makes something inherently less enjoyable.

That part in particular makes it easier for me to enjoy things because I can separate off what is unenjoyable, put it into words, and accept that it's there. Rather than letting what small negative emotion it causes take over the entire concept of something as a whole. Like I can say I DO like something, but "do not like that particular part".


 No.43815

My imaginary girlfriend just exposed me. She pointed at me and told me exactly what my primary character flaw is, one which I unconsciously pretend doesn't exist.


 No.43816

>>43814

That's how it works with everybody, if you don't notice an issue in something it won't lessen your view of it, if you do it will. Sure you may be able to still accept it and find enjoyment with it, but your view has still been affected, particularly if you can both notice these issues and know you can make something better without them.


 No.43817

>>43816

Even if I don't specifically notice something I would experience it. It would lessen my view of it, I just would not be able to explain why.

For example, I used to not be able to enjoy shounen manga/anime at all because something vague just irritated me that much. But now that I can pick off what I do not like about it and accept them as things I don't like, rather than attributing them to the genre as a whole, that is no longer an issue.

Regardless, something being relatively sub-par is not a valid reason for considering something to be absolutely unenjoyable. That's certainly fallacious.

Things will always be relatively better or worse than others. Comparing them to your personal ability to create makes no reasonable difference. They're still valid entertainment on their own even if yours is somehow better or worse.

Comparing and contrasting things is a natural thing to do. Throwing away absolutely everything but the best of the best of the best just because everything else is relatively worse is absurd.

Getting depressed over that is probably only something that happens because you worry it will depress you.


 No.43818

>>43817

That's still noticing it just not understanding what it is you are noticing.

As I said, you can still enjoy it just not as much as you would if you had not noticed an issue with it.

> Comparing them to your personal ability to create makes no reasonable difference.

it makes a lot of difference.

>Getting depressed over that is probably only something that happens because you worry it will depress you.

Maybe, I overthink thinks sometimes.


 No.43820

File: 78fa504260f5413⋯.jpg (426.25 KB, 1200x1200, 1:1, DweT9kyU0AYozP2.jpg)

Happy Satori day!


 No.43821

File: c2de2bddc8eae0f⋯.jpg (2.12 MB, 1650x1727, 150:157, ea7dc7a410a95d67d8bd6e9322….jpg)


 No.43822

How do I achieve Satori?


 No.43823

What's the deal with all these videos about 'facts'. I see titles such as 'top 10 facts about...', 'facts you probably didn't know about...' and so forth. Could it be that people are naturally attracted to facts?


 No.43824

>>43823

Everybody wants to know it all, or at least be a know-it-all.


 No.43825

>>43823

Click bait.


 No.43826

>>43823

What >>43825 said. These kinds of titles have been found to naturally draw people in. Use of numbers and use of "you" are typical of these kinds of things.


 No.43827

How long has it been since YOU last checked your email?


 No.43828

File: be0941dfbaff58f⋯.jpg (98.52 KB, 750x1000, 3:4, sdfasfd.jpg)

I love Hanekawa and want to marry her.


 No.43832

>>43827

You have to add some kind of mystery aspect to it. This is not enough..


 No.43833

>>43832

Alright, let me try this one:

"Guys... I checked my email..."


 No.43834

>>43833

>"Guys... I checked my email... You'll never believe the 3 facts it said"


 No.43835

>>43834

I really want to click this one


 No.43840

i refuse to connect without a proxy.


 No.43841

^ this isn't about the internet


 No.43842

>>43840

>>43841

Is it sex?


 No.43844

If I never check my emails bad news can't reach me!


 No.43846

File: b700933fcf43d72⋯.jpg (304.47 KB, 620x876, 155:219, 51521755_p40 - らくがきまとめ.jpg)

Are you hungry, my dudes? How about some egg over rice?


 No.43847

>>43846

I miss the cooking thread we had.. but I guess it's hard to keep it going


 No.43851

XHTML wasn't given a proper chance. I've been doing some screwing around with it right now, and it's perfectly capable of serving current needs, and unlike HTML5, it doesn't have a bunch of arbitrary restrictions all over the place.


 No.43852

In a dream, I was walking in a large city with my busty female companions. Then some loli police officer blocked my path and told us that using up so much oxygen is against the law. I calmly explained to her that all of my female companions aren't alive, but are rather undead, Jiangshi to be specific, and are under my control. I also said that I was the one who killed them in the first place. She then let us pass.

I'm not sure what's weirder, using up a lot of oxygen being outlawed or the police officer not caring that I was a literal murderer.


 No.43858

File: e92a1dd6466eb2b⋯.jpg (807.75 KB, 1402x2000, 701:1000, (Reitaisai 8) [Omchiken] T….jpg)

File: 48c13a045d7c1ba⋯.jpg (586.77 KB, 1402x2000, 701:1000, (Reitaisai 8) [Omchiken] T….jpg)

Nice.


 No.43860

I'm doing things too quickly. I don't like it. I actually prefer to do things slowly, but the satisfaction of learning something new is tempting. I'm far more of a blue Oni than a red one, so I enjoy myself more when I take in things slowly and appreciate all of the little details. If I keep rushing, I will miss out on so many of those details that I find so interesting.

Yes, learning 50 new skills is an ambitious goal to achieve in a year and I'm not planning on giving up on it, but if I blaze through everything, it'll hardly be as though I did anything. Also, a big thing is that learning new skills is getting in the way of working on old ones, which is especially annoying because even my Japanese learning is being affected. That's not good at all, because on my resolution I wrote down learning Japanese as one of the first things. Learning Japanese is genuinely really important to me.


 No.43862

New 8ch incident, might go down for a bit. Reminder about the bunker sites, 4taba.net/all and maybe nanashi@bbs.shiptoasting.com.


 No.43863

>>43858

I love alpacas and I love the Komeiji family. Yesterday I was dreaming that I was traveling to japan to live on an alpaca farm. There I met cute little baby alpacas. I was so excited by that dream that I couldn't go back to sleep.


 No.43864

I feel like I've been having interesting dreams lately, but I can't really remember any of them. SOrry if it's my obligation to share here.


 No.43867

File: 6914c42cc5a49fb⋯.png (68.23 KB, 192x416, 6:13, Th12.5HatateHimekaidou.png)

I was writing, but my browser crashed. Therefore I won't write the original message, because clearly the gods forbid it.

Instead, I'll make a different kind of post:

I had a dream in which a certain type of bird (pictured) slept on my shoulder. I don't particularly like this sort, but it was still quite nice. One thing that bothered me was that her pointy hat thing kind of dug into my torso at first, but I was able to reposition her head and make it more comfortable.

As I was waking up, I had the thought that if a girl were sleeping in the bus next to you or something, you could position her however you want, and upon waking, convince her that she did this herself. You'd say that you couldn't help keeping her like this since you were worried you might wake her up. Only a 6/10 chance of her clawing your face afterwards.


 No.43868

I woke up saying "YUKARI". I thought such dramatic things only happen in anime.


 No.43869

File: 8c5f455322c27a3⋯.jpg (234.25 KB, 960x720, 4:3, Meatloaf.jpg)

>>43847

That reminds me, I forgot to post a picture of glorious meatloaf.

Made with 5/8ths a cup of oatmeal instead of breadcrumbs, 1 egg, 3/4ths an onion, some ketchup mixed in, and a layer of ketchup on top that reduces into a nice paste. Baked at 350F for 45-50 minutes.


 No.43870

File: b8c92f8bc1e660d⋯.jpg (30.93 KB, 950x730, 95:73, 1441763791840-1.jpg)

What up jaypedos

I posted like a year ago bitching about my new normalfag life and a horrible relationship I was in.

Broke up the worst way possible, I sent a .txt after fucking her a couple of days earlier saying how I thought the relationship was hurting the both of us, blocked her ass and forgot about her for a good half a year. Pretty sure she hates my guts now.

Thing is, a couple of months later I met this cute japanese girl who was here for 3 months studying, I showed her around, helped with her homework and had fun with her. A friend of hers told me she had a boyfriend, went for it anyways and cucked a sad jap. The thing was beautiful, we hung out, we sent each other text messages, we went on small trips, I felt like a fucking boss talking japanese, a thing I had only done in forums. Both of knew that the moment she went home we may never see each other again but we still made eternal declarations of love, we talked about destiny and what beautiful future we may have had things were different. She said things I cringed at in VNs but in love as I was it made my heart flutter. Up until that point I had never fallen in love with anything that wasn't 2D. And let me tell you, love is like the fucking measles, you should experience it at a young age, otherwise it will hit you like a train full of corny fluffy cotton candy farted our by a lovely pink unicorn and once you get kicked out it, it will run you over squeezing out whatever you thought were your entrails, leaving, you, a sad and mangled husk.

The last night we thought we would see each other we kept hugging, telling each other we were as close as we could fiscally be but that, even then, it wasn't enough. God, I am tearing up, jp. We kissed and parted ways with a bittersweet smile.

A few days later she got mugged, lost her passport and called me in tears. I immediately acted, calling and asking favors to everyone I knew. Met her a couple of days later, we made the paper work. Turns out she was going to take a trip with her boyfriend and still was in time to take the flight, but she decided to stay a little while more with me, she broke up with the other guy. "It must be fate" we said to each other, best week of my life. "I don't know what could have happened to us if this didn't happen" she said. We shared simple things telling each other we wished we could live together. Finally, the night before she went home she asked me to never forget her. I don't know what came to up to me, I told myself I would never do such a thing, but I asked her to marry me. Not a second of thought came to her brain as she blurted out with a smile that she would. I told her I could maybe go to Japan in winter. She went home with a smile and I to left the airport with a smile thinking I had met the love of my life and that we had a bright but, maybe, difficult future together.


 No.43871

File: aed31aeffcb42ea⋯.gif (2.1 MB, 400x230, 40:23, 1434839955200.gif)

>>43870

A few days later she got mugged, lost her passport and called me in tears. I immediately acted, calling and asking favors to everyone I knew. Met her a couple of days later, we made the paper work. Turns out she was going to take a trip with her boyfriend and still was in time to take the flight, but she decided to stay a little while more with me, she broke up with the other guy. "It must be fate" we said to each other, best week of my life. "I don't know what could have happened to us if this didn't happen" she said. We shared simple things telling each other we wished we could live together. Finally, the night before she went home she asked me to never forget her. I don't know what came to up to me, I told myself I would never do such a thing, but I asked her to marry me. Not a second of thought came to her brain as she blurted out with a smile that she would. I told her I could maybe go to Japan in winter. She went home with a smile and I to left the airport with a smile thinking I had met the love of my life and that we had a bright but, maybe, difficult future together.

I couldn't gather the money to go, she comforted me but even then I felt horrible, that something might go wrong. The first few months we made video calls every week, watched YT videos, messaged each other everyday, sent each other packages and tried to keep the thing together.

Winter came and she started looking for a job, her attitude suddenly changed, she said she was getting second thoughts on the whole marriage thing. I could understand her, looking for a job is hard process in the west, I can not imagine the living hell it must be in Japan. And, I admit it, I had my little tantrum. But finally I understood, it was a decision made in the heat of the moment. Phone calls were getting more sparse, gradually she would take longer to answer to messages. Eventually I blurted out that saying "I love you" to much will might make it lose it's meaning, she agreed and I even had to beg to her to see a little affection. I would torture myself thinking what she could be doing, where did that sweet affection went. But I continued to make the effort wishing her a good day and night everyday. Finally I said I was getting hurt, that it might be better to break up, but we still had feelings for each other and tried to make it work. The thing continued, I sent her a present for valentines, she didn't. Finally, a month ago, she told me that she was too busy thinking of herself and couldn't answer my feelings, but that she still loved me, she even sent me an audio file saying so, I could hear her breaking up from the other side. I asked for her never to forget me, like she did. またいつかね, we said.

We haven't contacted each other ever since.

Cried like I never had, took a couple of days off my duties and hid everything she gave to me. The next day I had the bad luck to go trough the same place we had our first date and I cried in my car, in the middle of traffic. Tried to take my mind off her, started running, I even made a Tinder account for the hell of it. I got a few matches, boosting my self esteem a little bit, but no one wants to meet up.

But I just can't jp, I can't.

I think of her everyday, what I did wrong, what might have happened if I took a loan to go there in winter. That she still loves me but that the broken social system in japan is taking her away, that she might be sacrificing her social life to a faceless corporation. Or, hell, that she met another dude and cucked me the same way we cucked the other guy, that she tried not to hurt me. I felt bad for the girl I dumped so mercilessly, that she might have experienced the same fucking despair, that this is some kind of punishment. I still fantasize of her contacting me, telling me to go out for a trip with me, even though I know that it might never happen.

Take it as you will, easy, I'd like to think. I hope it was at least somewhat entertaining.

I regret nothing, but I wish I wasn't born. /blog


 No.43872

>>43871

Fucked up that last post, oh well.

Add it to the list.


 No.43873

This would make a solid NTR VN actually.


 No.43874

And then Anon woke up.


 No.43875

File: 24e755d0f778409⋯.png (118.3 KB, 333x268, 333:268, 1432976314661.png)

>>43874

Wake me up, anon, wake me the fuck up.


 No.43876

File: 380acec49af0d8e⋯.jpg (8.13 KB, 320x180, 16:9, ZUN.jpg)

Happy birthday ZUN


 No.43877

>>43871

That was pretty entertaining. I have no experiences related to love, so your story made me feel like I'm learning something new. That being said, I have one question. How can you regret nothing if you regret being born?


 No.43878

File: 9be521f9d301e40⋯.jpg (45.98 KB, 771x750, 257:250, 127380804993491.jpg)


 No.43880

>>43877

You can not regret things you don't have control over.

My birth was my parent's choice.


 No.43882

>>43880

You know you could've just pressed "B" to cancel right?


 No.43883

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 No.43884

>>43871

Entertaining story. Reminds me of that longass story posted on /progrider/.


 No.43887

haha, want gf


 No.43888

My left eyelid's been twitching like crazy, so now I know how horrible it is to be somebody with a twitchy eyelid.


 No.43891

I really don't like "Chinese anime/manga". I've seen a few images of such nonsense, and it unnerves me. Something about it just feels fundamentally wrong. Also, for whatever reason, I'm pretty good at telling the difference between Japanese art and Chinese imitations.

I've always been kind of wary of Chinese people, and I'm not a big fan of their food, but at least my irrational racism towards them isn't nearly as severe as my racism towards India. At least China is indirectly responsible for one thing I really like, which is Kanji.


 No.43901

I will become stronger.


 No.43904

>>43901

Me too!

Oh who am I kidding..


 No.43905

I don't like Asuka. Nearly all of her character traits are ones which I'm indifferent to at best and repulsed by at worst. From the moment she was introduced, I knew I hated her. I don't like tsunderes. I don't like twintails. I don't like the color red (when compared to colors like blue or purple). I especially don't like bitches.

On the other hand, when I first watched Eva, I fell in love with Rei at first sight. I still think about her with high-regard to this day, even though that love has long since faded. I would go as far as to classify her as my first crush.

I think this says a lot about me as a person.


 No.43906

BOOBS:

Platonic; rationalist; end in itself; noble

BUTTS:

Empiricist; materialistic; means to an end; base




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