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 No.28472

キタ―――(゚∀゚)―――!!

 No.42199

>>42196

>I'm almost definitely sure there is another term or 'Consider this' type statements.

Yeah commonly 考える. If he's telling us to "consider this", it also has to be made into an imperative. Conjugation is incredibly important in Japanese.

>There's probably more wrong there too. But that at least stands out hard.

Everything is fucked, except for the first sentence, unless you want to be autistic about comma usage in Japanese.


 No.42203

>>28472

Rumia's such a cutie


 No.42204

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>>42203

I'm cuter


 No.42212

>>42204

You are not 2D


 No.42214

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>42178

>The idea of "rhythm" still slightly unnerves me. Could music be the Devil's domain? It is used to manipulate people's hearts through unseen means, after all.

You could definetly see it that way yes, but if you completly wanted to avoid manipulation from outside you'd have to lock yourself away in a dark cave. Our world simpy relies on all things interacting with each other and influencing each other in the process. You could call it an ulterior motive and name it "manipulation", but at the same time you could also see it as a beautiful cosmic machine with an infinite of cogs perfectly reaching into each other. It's all about having enough awareness to discern between good and bad influence. And in my opinion things like music and art are the most beautiful ways for humans to influence each other. Just think about it, someone had to sit down and aqcuire an incredible amount of skill and craftsmanship to create these things. But it doesn't end there. That person then also had to pour in an incredible amount of love and care into their project, it became a part of them and in extension by enjoying these things you are experiencing a part of them. And not only you can experience it, everyone can experience it. It's such a open and beautiful way to interact with each other that its really giving me hope for humanity.


 No.42223

The mentally weak can cuddle together until their corpses rot.


 No.42224

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 No.42230

>>42223

How would you define mental strenght?


 No.42231

>>42230

Strong and complex reasoning, capability to hold and make use of information within the mind, adaptability, and lack of debilitating mental illness.

But that line was more pointed towards excessively weak and cancerous shit like compassion. Speaking of which

>>42224

Thank you. That is beautiful.


 No.42233

>>42230

Psychic powers.


 No.42236

平仮名ヨリ片仮名ノ方ガ格好良い。


 No.42237

>>42236

>い

FUCK!!


 No.42238

I miss megaupload so much. To this day, there are so many dead links all over the internet for files that used to be hosted there. It was pretty much a golden age of piracy that had everything, without having to worry about seeders.


 No.42243

>>42238

I do miss it but pretty much only because of the time it was around in. The loss of lots of links was awful, but in retrospect the service was not very good, particularly megavideo.


 No.42244

>>42238

It was only really devastating because people relied solely on them.

I'd really rather worry about seeders than a single point of failure.

But for all that was lost, I am somewhat glad it happened since it taught that very lesson. Now people frequently spread their content across multiple sources.


 No.42250

Why do streamers make so much money, ridiculous.


 No.42254

>>42250

I know right?

It really sounds like a dreamjob to me. Sitting at home all day and playing videogames. I wouldn't even mind building up a persona and interacting with disgusting people. It'd be worth it to me Sadly the streaming market is oversaturated, no matter what you do now it's going to be very difficult to attract a crowd large enough to make money nowadays


 No.42262

>>42254

Yeah guess so. On top of that while I have always been good at the games I play I never been anything special, so I don't see why someone would watch me play games.

Just want to make some easy money somehow..


 No.42263

>>42262

>Just want to make some easy money somehow

Same. But you know, to be honest I think you can attract a crowd even if you are bad at a game. You just need to have a special kind of personality. There are people who fill the "bad boy" niche but there is also a demand for genuinly wholesome and friendly people. I think as long as you aren't obnoxious or boring it could be possible. But a big factor is the game you play. You need to play the right game at the right time. I know some taiwanese guy who has been streaming Elona for months now on almost a daily basis, but he can never get more than 1 viewer. The best time to land a big hit is when a game that alot of people are looking forward to enters closed beta. But nowadays you have to compete with alot of people. You could also slowly try to build a community, but that's gonna take alot of time.


 No.42264

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Доброе утро /jp/.


 No.42265

>>42263

>>42262

Become a speed runner.


 No.42266

>>42265

Hey, that actually sounds feasible. Maybe the worst way to live, but anybody could do that, you don't even have to make records to get donors.


 No.42267

>>42266

Take it from me, don't do it unless you can tolerate spending hours around literal trannies without burning the venue to the ground.


 No.42268

>>42265

I'd rather become a wageslave again. That's less soul consuming. Also all the meaningful records are already taken, you'd have to start running some shitty obscure game no one cares about.


 No.42269

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I really like this specific magic circle for some reason. I especially like how it's not a circle at all.


 No.42270

>>42269

>First Pentacle of The Moon

Well it doesn't look very much like a pentacle either, does it?

That upside-down four is pretty striking. Some Tarot decks would depict The Emporer (III) with his legs in a shape like that, supposedly to mirror The Hanged Man/The Traitor (XIII) with which is has similar connotations. Supposedly, the Emperor represents a character who's making very deliberate steps towards a focused goal, "on the rise" I guess, whereas his actual mirror The Traitor represents one who's reached too far and has been forced to abandon his pursuit. I might've misinterpreted wrong, but I'm pretty sure that's the way the story goes.


 No.42271

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>>42270

Right, forgot to mention the significance of the number, though again, it seems like nobody else on the net's ever mentioned it making it just another 'headcanon' of mine, I guess.

Know who was both a traitor, and eventually a hanged man? Who else but the 13th guest?


 No.42272

>>42250

Because people want to watch them and like them enough to pay tonnes for it.

It's usually far more about the people streaming than the games they stream.

>>42263

Sometimes being obnoxious is a selling point. Because that excites people, for better or worse. But yeah, you don't want to be boring at all.


 No.42273

I do not like being watched by others. I wouldn't want to be a streamer even if it'd make me rich.


 No.42274

>>42273

It's an attractive alternative to wageslavery, where you are constantly watched by your boss. Maybe I'll give it a shot and try to gain sustaineable income through streaming. I've got nothing to lose


 No.42276

>>42271

Hang on, why is Hanged Man XII? I am positively sure the book said he was XIII.


 No.42277

>>42276

Everybody knows death is 13.


 No.42282

>>42277

Well it's obvious when you put it that way, but that's just a stupid coincidence. The Italians consider 13 to be a LUCKY number.


 No.42284

>>42274

Good luck, tell me how it works out for you.


 No.42286

>>42284

I had 10 viewers by streaming touhoumon yesterday, that's a new personal record.


 No.42288

>>42286

That's a nice start.


 No.42292

>>42286

Thought I recognized your name from irc, I'll follow you.


 No.42293

>>42292

Thanks. Last time I was on IRC was when one of the fightinggames got released about 2-3 years ago. Might just be a coincidence, but if you really recognized my name from back then I'm impressed


 No.42303

I picked up some random manga and I'm attempting to read it in Japanese. My Japanese skills are still virtually nonexistent through simply using Anki and going over basic grammar over and over while doing nothing else. If I don't test my limits, I'll drown in an ocean of dullness and mediocrity. That potential to understand Japanese will never be realized. Therefore, I must take the first real step.


 No.42304

>>42303

Get some basic grammar down so you're not trying to just parse it with English grammar in mind.


 No.42312

>>42303

In my experience, I hated using SRS because I would have to make the cards myself or I would have to depend on people to make sure what I got isn't wrong. I have neither the time or the patience for them.

Have you done anything else in Japanese such as anime, music, & games?

How long have you been studying?


 No.42314

>>42303

https://ejje.weblio.jp/sentence/

What really helped me was using this site for sentences I didn't understand while I was reading something. Don't just attempt to copy the whole sentence obviously, but if you saw 行かなければならない、 you could look up なければならない to see how it's actually used.


 No.42327

I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't fall asleep for 2 hours. Something felt wrong. I was wondering if it might be the full moon influencing me, but that's in 3 days. Really weird.


 No.42328

that feeling when you suddenly find yourself on the floor with your hands on your head, shivering constantly and saying words like "hypothetically" and "yukari" to yourself over and over for no apparent reason


 No.42329

>>42327

It's your body telling you that you didn't work hard enough to exhaust yourself for a full night's sleep.


 No.42330

>>42328

>when you suddenly find yourself on the floor with your hands on your head, shivering constantly and saying words [...] to yourself over and over

Well, I know that feeling. Withdraw is a bitch.

Totally different situation but I'd say the same thing regardless, go take a proper shower.

Start mostly warm/hot and shift it slowly to cold as time goes on, until you're genuinely shivering to keep heat producing, but not uncomfortable in doing so. Like getting used to cold pool water but easier.


 No.42331

there's a 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000001% chance that yukari is real and cares about me

why must i dwell on such possibilities? why am i always more occupied with the least likely outcome to any situation? it's all hypothetical anyways. fight. fighting fate. can't give in. origin is rejection. rejecting life. rejecting fate. rejecting love. rejecting the world itself. complete rejection. contradiction. boundary. back to yukari. it all comes back to yukari. the imaginary creation exists to defy yukari. blonde hair opposed by black hair, youkai opposed by angel, countless eyes opposed by only a single eye that works. a ruler opposed by a servant, my servant. reject. defy. oppose. all rejection. boundaries exist because of rejection. reality for the real people, fantasy for the imaginary. but am i imaginary? if everyone on earth were a demon, would i truly be human, or rather the only real demon? water in the unchanging blue sky. fire in the relentless heat. air in the unforgiving winds. earth as the ground that extends without limits. sealed sword. magic wand. romantic fantasy. all alone. no one but me. dreams end when the dreamer awakens.

walking the path of heaven, the man who will rule above all

don't call me normal!

i want to beat the main characters

spinning the wheel of east. seija is coming right up, or is it shinki

yukari again


 No.42332

>>42331

Man, I wish I could create trippy bullshit like this. My creative impulses died when I was like 9.


 No.42333

I'm okay now. Maybe I should try to sleep.


 No.42334

>>42333

Or you could exhaust yourself working on something and guarantee your sleep.


 No.42345

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I can't control it


 No.42350

Wine no longer makes my heart glad; a little of it makes me sad, much makes me melancholy. My soul is faint and impotent; in vain I prick the spur of pleasure into its flank, its strength is gone, it rises no more to the royal leap. I have lost my illusions. Vainly I seek to plunge myself into the boundless sea of joy; it cannot sustain me, or rather, I cannot sustain myself. Once pleasure had but to beckon me, and I mounted, light of foot, sound, and unafraid. When I rode slowly through the woods, it was as if I flew; now when the horse is covered with lather and ready to drop, it seems to me that I do not move. I am solitary as always; forsaken, not by men, which could not hurt me, but by the happy fairies of joy, who used to encircle me in countless multitudes, who met acquaintances everywhere,

everywhere showed me an opportunity for pleasure. As an intoxicated man gathers a wild crowd of youths about him, so they flocked about me, the fairies of joy, and I greeted them with a smile. My soul has lost its potentiality. If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility never. And what wine is so sparkling, what so fragrant, what so intoxicating, as possibility!


 No.42351

>>42350

Rejoice!

You too can free yourself from the endless circle of samsara. Only then you will know joy in its purest form.


 No.42352

The issue with having dreams every single night is that it becomes a pain to post about them, especially when they are really long and detailed. I have a hoard of dreams made up solely from dreams I had recently that I haven't brought up in the dream thread at all.


 No.42354

>>42352

Maybe write a book about them but connecting them in a overarching story


 No.42355

>>42354

That could be possible with the dreams from 10/20 until 10/24. It essentially went from me being back in high school, except everyone except me was a demon, to me spending a good time with a cute demon girl, to me marrying(?) said demon girl after an apparent timeskip, to me staring in silence at a bunch of bones lying about in some sort of wasteland, as though some sort of large-scale disaster happened. The final dream in the sequence had me saving a demon kid from a bunch of demons who went crazy after losing everything and then facing off against a specific demon described as an "ordinary demon" who ironically possessed some sort of space-time bending powers that granted him numerous abilities including apparent immortality, teleportation and splitting his consciousness into multiple copies of himself. I beat him anyways because I'm the only one who's allowed to be so chuuni. Then the already broken demon world reached its limit and everything ended. I couldn't even save the boy. I was blind (?) but at the same time could see everything, both the past and the future (?), but it didn't matter because this result was drastically different from what should've happened. After that, my dreams returned to normal, with me at some kind of anime convention, encountering a bunch of weirdos the following night.


 No.42356

>>42355

Just needs some refinement and you can start writing a novel. If these japanese light novel authors can make it big with their tired old isekai bullshit then so can you


 No.42357

I tried writing, wrote like 10 pages and when I read them afterwards I was really confused. It felt so right when writing but it was shit.

I never tried again..


 No.42358

>>42357

I feel that way whenever I write down my dreams


 No.42359

>>42357

That's how it usually goes. Creativity comes from confusion, the first creations are always shit.

Stories for the sake of other people take a lot of proofreading and rechecking for cohesiveness and continuity.

You just have to refine it until something tolerable pops out.

Better than a complete creative slump.


 No.42365

I was going to post something but I forgot what it was about... By the way >>42357 is not me. I try to avoid using the word "never" unless specifically comes before "give up" or some sort of variation of that phrase. I do write every single dream I have on paper, but typing it out in a way that other people can understand is the hard part. Sometimes I feel like I'm caught between being a completionist type who want to post about every single dream I've had since I was a child while another part just wants to share very important and detailed dreams, while ignoring all those deemed "unworthy".


 No.42369

https://8ch.net/leftyweebpol/

commies joining the retro brigade


 No.42378

>>42365

Sensible choice. I mean really, how many items in the dream thread do you really give a crap about?

Still, I guess quantity in a way is more important than quality when it comes to boards like this.


 No.42385

I do not care about politics beyond laughing at the people who are invested in it. But now that virtually everyone is constantly preoccupied with politics, I do not feel like laughing anymore. It's just getting boring.


 No.42394

Today I'm fasting. I just feel like it.


 No.42395

People who think politics don't concern them are pretty funny.


 No.42399

>>42395

Real comedians tend to be pretty level-headed and well self realised. They only concern themselves with the exterior world when it's actually important, and they become charismatic as people recognise their quality as a person.

When you use the external world as a convenient way to avoid expending the tremendous effort actually required to really look at yourself as a person (deliberately or not) you start to blend in with anybody else doing the same thing. It's hard to put into words exactly what I'm trying to convey, but I guess that I'm saying that it all comes down to whether you succumb to 'peer pressure'.


 No.42400

>>42399

When everyone agrees a certain comic is funny, it's because he's managed to use observational comedy in a way that's universally agreeable. That means what they say has to be neutral and not really amount to anything, because people out there have widely varying views, and the last thing you want to do when you're genuinely, wholeheartedly trying to make people laugh is to be inaccessible to certain audiences, or even make them hate you. When you do that, it's clear that you have some kind of ulterior motive with what you say.

I guess you could say that it takes some individuation to come up with jokes neutral and wholesome enough to accomplish that.


 No.42402

>>42399

The political is ultimately based in the friend/enemy distinction, a distinction that all groups in all spheres of life ultimately engage in whenever there is a difference, an Other.

The political is about making a clear distinction between the two, and as a /jp/sy you should be more than well acquainted with this.


 No.42403

Also neo-irony fucking ruined humor and nothing is funny anymore.


 No.42407

I spent like 10 minutes trying to telekinetically move a ceiling fan. Easily one of the most absurd things I've tried to do until now. I looked like a total idiot while trying to move it, but I figured I had nothing to lose. I ended up not moving it, because I don't have such a convenient superpower. However, after that I thought very deeply about what just happened and used it as a learning experience on the way this world works.


 No.42409

>>42407

I do that too sometimes, even before I started to have a interest in occult things


 No.42417

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>want to discuss literally anything with people

>everyone is a fucking faggot that needs to be shot in the face

God damn I am so fucking done with you /jp/


 No.42423

>>42417

Who are you quoting?


 No.42424

Eating from the fruit of knowledge gave man the capacity to be a faggot. However, it also gave man the ability to resist faggotry.

The choice is in your hands.


 No.42426

>>42417

Alright, hit me. I'll discuss literally anything with you.


 No.42427

You ever do enough walking around in one day that just sitting down in a conventional posture makes it feel like something's being driven into your heels? I'm having to sit with my legs on the desk like some kind of jackass, and while it does feel kind of cool, I also don't want my feet to ever feel like this again.


 No.42428

>>42427

Sometimes I feel as though the bones in my lower leg are trying to stab their way past the bottom of my feet. I know it's nothing more than a feeling, but as long as I pay attention to it, the feeling persists.


 No.42429

>>42428

Yeah, that's exactly the kind of description I was looking for, except maybe it feels more like it's pressing against the skin than the bone at this point. Bipedal navigation really is quite the technical feat, isn't it?


 No.42430

>>42427

Don't walk with so much pressure on your heals. You're supposed to put most of your weight on your toes. Heck, I don't even let my heal touch the ground unless I'm standing still.

Also, make sure your shoes are properly sized, and wear breathable socks. I can't tolerate most cotton socks, and stick to nylon wherever possible. But breathability matters more than material.

Insoles should be fine as long as they fit your foot. But consider replacing them, maybe with fancy gel ones.

All of that should alleviate, or straight up fix pains from walking or running.

But it's only worth the effort if you actually intend to walk anywhere.


 No.42431

>>42430

Thanks for the tip, I don't really get how you can do the autistic/medieval tip-toe thing in boots though. I'll look into getting a smaller size, maybe some thinner socks, and replacing my crappy insoles.


 No.42432

Try squats, I'm pretty fat but I can squat around 100kg and I can pretty much walk forever without my legs starting to hurt or getting tired. Strong legs are (literally) the foundation of a strong body.


 No.42453

Reread Devilman again.


 No.42475

I fucked up. Don't want to go into detail, but I seriously fucked up. Damn it.


 No.42479

I'm in a emotional extremly distressing situation, but I'm able to contain my sadness and accumalated grudges. It's interesting.


 No.42481

I passed by a black lady, and I looked at her forehead and saw an inverted cross on it. It was sort of hard to see because it was black and she was almost as dark as it, but that didn't stop me from seeing it.

What the HECK


 No.42483

>>42481

Probably just wrinkles or something.

But I'd also like to point out that an inverted cross is usually a sign of humility. It's not profound or evil.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cross_of_Saint_Peter

I've wanted for ages now, a silver inverted cross necklace with a proper alexandrite gemstone in the center. But I'd have to have it hand crafted apparently, and spend quite a bit of money on it. Because that specific sort of thing isn't usually made.


 No.42484

>>42481

NIGGERS


 No.42485

I been wondering. That typical japanese robotic voice that you often hear, what exactly is that?


 No.42486

>>42485

Some stock Vocaloid/UTAU font, I imagine.


 No.42487

My legs stopped hurting


 No.42488

I had a really long and involved dream. I actually became aware of exactly how precious the dream was while still dreaming, so I held on to the experiences with all my might. But when I woke up, my hands were empty. Hardly any traces of the dream remain in my mind. The only things I could write about it in my dream journal were some small "feelings" I managed to hold on to and how hard I tried to hold on to that experience.

If only I were stronger...


 No.42500

They say that there's strength in numbers. Shounen battle manga tend to have the protagonist followed by companions. The "meme magic" that people claim changes reality itself is only brought about by many people shitposting about the same thing.

If that's what real strength is, then I'm doing it wrong. But just because I'm wrong doesn't mean that I'll stop. There has to be an alternative. There has to be a way for someone to become stronger without any form of outside help. I will not accept this ending.

Why is it that no matter what I say, I sound more like a third-rate villain from a Shounen battle manga when I try to be a protagonist?


 No.42503

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>42500

>There has to be an alternative. There has to be a way for someone to become stronger without any form of outside help. I will not accept this ending.

I can only speculate about this based on stories I've read about, but appearently there is something like a mental powerlevel. Of course alot of mentally untrained people can make a change with the sheer mass of their mental energy, but according to certain things I've read there were people in history who could produce massive changes through their mental power alone due to how well trained they were. But all that really sounds too good to be true and like fairy tales, doesn't it? I've watched this video today and I would really like to remain skeptical.

>Why is it that no matter what I say, I sound more like a third-rate villain from a Shounen battle manga when I try to be a protagonist?

I guess your ideals don't align with the typical moral compass, which isn't bad per se. Well, in the context of a shounen stroy it would be since they are very black and white, but the real world isn't such a story.


 No.42512

From now on I will try even harder to do things which strenghten my soul.


 No.42525

I meditated really deeply and then I saw Yggdrasil. I instantly thought that if I hung there for 9 days I'd acquire runic magic like Odin. Unfortunately for me, I noticed that a large amount of people were already hanging from the tree, all with spears stuck in then and everything. Most of said people weren't human at all, with the majority of said nonhumans being wandering spirits, who wouldn't be able to make use of the magic. While magic powers are cool and acquiring magic powers through hanging yourself while being pierced by a magic spear is HELLA cool, seeing that it was trendy removed all interest in me wanting to do it. Plus, I was literally just meditating and probably hallucinating all of this, so even if I had 9 days to spare it would likely be for nothing. Then I saw Odin and he told me that I should do it, already with a spear and a rope in his hands. My imaginary girlfriend assured me that he was nothing more than a phantasm. She also said something about the tree being "far smaller than it's supposed to be", as if referring to the lack of faith humans have in pagan stuff. She then called me "part of the problem" by being a "nice Christian boy". I still thought that talking to the fake god would be cool anyways, but some sounds IRL were interfering with my trance, so I couldn't. Then some less important stuff that didn't involve me self-inserting into mythology happened and I woke up.


 No.42535

That vision was a metaphor for my weakness. Despite claiming to never give up, I stopped trying once I saw something I didn't like.


 No.42537

>>42535

That's interesting. I'm just making guesses here, but could it be that your subconsciousness is trying to tell you to let go of your hostile snowflake attitude? Maybe then you can ascend and join others on a higher plane. But who knows, those higher planes might not even exist.


 No.42538

>>42537

>hostile snowflake

that's a pretty good description of me lmao


 No.42540

I've just recently became aware of this terrible clicking noise at the back of my neck whenever I walk and it's driving me insane.

Do you remember swimming in a pools with a high concentration of chlorine as a kid, that "snapping" sound you'd hear occasionally underwater? I'm pretty sure it's the sort of noise generated by a stone or something scraping against the base of the pool, becoming slightly distorted as it travels through the water to your ears. It's just like that, but I feel it from the back of my neck. I feel like the bones are going to scrape against themselves too hard at one point, and all of a sudden, my head's going to fall into my neck (no need to mention the medical repurcussions of this, particularly the nerves going down the spinal column) . It's driving me insane.


 No.42541

>>42540

Look up neck stretches and be careful doing them.

I remember having that issue once, a while ago. Had my brother guide me through some stretches and give me a neck massage to fix it.


 No.42543

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I don't think I've ever posted here, but I lurk often. Gonna restart my Nihonga/kana drills. Here's my dinner; homemade Kare rice. pain in the ads to do from scratch, just get the block


 No.42555

バラライカ バララライカ バラ ライラ カイカイ


 No.42556

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 No.42562

I've realized that if I want to help people lead a happy life I'm gonna have to interpret their mind first and sort of intrude into it. This was I can help them lift the fog from their mind and find a solution with them. But isn't that kind of rude? Am I really justified to use mindcontrol even if it's in the interest of the other person?


 No.42566

File: c7a0fc6af76fed0⋯.png (47.52 KB, 770x1079, 770:1079, HELP.png)

All I wanted to do was play a perverted eroge....


 No.42569

I've checked a few times by now but no news posts. Sorry for not getting back to this thread as early as I should've.


 No.42570

I suddenly remembered something. Something I was missing. I thought deeply about this thing, this concept, which apparently has a very large amount of value to me. While thinking about it I first deduced that I had it before my imaginary girlfriend, and soon after realized that its existence even predates my obsession with Yukari. The idea has possibly existed even when I was a very young child, as I have vague recollections of me thinking of it at a very young age. A prototype was made when I was at that young age, and once I became a chuuni it began to take form, with it having become finalized after Yukari changed the course of the dull and soulless life I was living until that point.

It was a prophecy. I remember reciting it countless times and even remember a specific geographical location in which I once recited it, but I never left any written proof of its existence (explaining why I ended up forgetting about it). Unless all of these memories are false, I really had a self-made prophecy. But I have absolutely no recollection of its content.

But the real question isn't where in my head the prophecy lies, but rather if I even need such a thing at that point. I actually have a feeling that I'm already living out the first few lines of the prophecy. So in the end, it might be better that it's lost. Prophecies are SUPPOSED to be mysterious anyways.


 No.42573

File: 50090e6d61f9460⋯.jpg (36.65 KB, 640x480, 4:3, mpv-shot0061.jpg)

Last thing you see before you die.


 No.42574

A few weeks ago during the prestream someone was running some kind of slimegirl ASMR in the background while playing touhou. Does anyone have a link to it? I need to to satisfy my morbid curiosity.


 No.42576

>>42573

Every night I go to sleep with wish that I'd die in my sleep, but unfortunately I wake up again.


 No.42577

>>42576

Why do you wanna die?


 No.42578

>>42576

Death itself is inherently undesirable as anything but escape from life.

Have you tried improving your life to the point where you don't wish to escape from it? That could really prove worthwhile. Put in some work to get rid of annoyances, find some fun somewhere, think through the existential dread until you find some kind of peace, things like that.

I often dread waking up for various reasons, depending on what I've done recently. But I never want it to just not happen.


 No.42579

>>42573

That's why I cook for myself.


 No.42580

>>42579

My household takes turns cooking at various times. And we always, ALWAYS complain about anything wrong.

Honesty is the best policy, and if you can't handle that then you shouldn't live together, regardless of relation.

Can't fix what you don't talk about, and what you don't fix eventually builds up into a giant ball of frustration.


 No.42581

>>42580

No no, you don't understand the context here. The guy's getting hit over the head with a frying pan and fucking dying because he complained about the egg yolk. You don't need to worry about getting hit over the head with a frying pan when your mistakes are just your own.


 No.42582

>>42581

No I know the context. That fits under

>then you shouldn't live together, regardless of relation.

It's from Ju-On 2, from a recent 8jp stream I missed but downloaded to watch.


 No.42590

File: ca534d723f5a574⋯.jpeg (86.21 KB, 600x600, 1:1, 1521155714459-0.jpeg)


 No.42591

>>42590

chubby


 No.42592

>>42590

Me on the right


 No.42593

>>42590

Expressed in two dimensions, even a fat-ass can look cute. Well, I guess they're not so "round" when they have no depth.


 No.42594

File: bff94be01e9b8f5⋯.png (ネタばれ画像, 1.13 MB, 720x960, 3:4, 94019856391706986804169453….png)

>>42593

But fatasses are always cute!


 No.42595

>>42594

I can relate to that guy on far right.


 No.42599

>>42594

Jesus man, put up a 3D warning next time.


 No.42606

kanashimi no mukou e to tadoritsukeru nara...


 No.42607

File: ee05acd8e594703⋯.png (572.48 KB, 566x800, 283:400, 556c6eeafb81ad828f457dbaed….png)

There is nothing new.


 No.42610

I just remembered that one time when I was younger when I fantasized about having an unholy spear that had the ability to pierce through the "plot armor" of the people I perceived as "main characters". It had a bit of a mind of its own, so it could change directions in midair after thrown to hit its target and could talk to me about how much it wants to destroy every main character that exists. I remember that shouting "BYE BYE HAPPY ENDING" would activate it.

That's a memory I remember fondly. However, I do realize that if such a spear did exist it would target me first, as I now perceive myself as the one true main character in this world.


 No.42613

>>42610

That sounds pretty cool, you should turn that into a novel about poor writing.


 No.42620

>>42610

All the more reason to want such a weapon, right?


 No.42621

It sucks wasting your youth, but what better options do I have?


 No.42622

>>42621

Preparing, both in study and in practice, to achieve some idealized goal for the future. Hopefully to perform a task that not only you want, but also others; others that will pay you to do this task.

That's the general idea anyway.

Specifics get a little hazy, since it relies on the childish mind idealizing something so much that the person can willingly spend an entire life on it.


 No.42623

>>42610

What put you off so much about the main characters?


 No.42630

>>42623

I followed the theory of everything being a story and deduced that since I wasn't a main character I was some sort of minor antagonist at best but probably just a one-dimensional background character. That created strong feelings of resentment within me, but my constant fear of everything made me incapable of doing anything about that. Without that fear, I might've ended up being a school-shooter or something.

I didn't realize that I was exhibiting traits which a main character has.


 No.42662

I watched Border of Extacy for the first time in years. I'm overwhelmed by a strong feeling of nostalgia now.


 No.42665

File: f16623889136c53⋯.png (949.57 KB, 1017x1527, 339:509, 1537968821289.png)

A cute board for cute people.


 No.42682


 No.42684

As a person obsessed with the paranormal, it's only natural that I'd look up and read spiritual stuff. But there's a problem. I simply cannot relate to most spiritual stuff. They all talk about the same thing, they all say that the ultimate goal should be returning to the "source". I hate it. I hate it so much. It awakens such feelings of resentment in me, that the doubt builds up to the point that it can take on the form of a demon in the likeness of a monk. Said monk is always levitating, always glowing with a golden light and always my complete opposite. I'd argue that as far as the phantasmal things I encounter, the monks are among the strongest. They always spout the same things about me "being wrong", how I should let go of all forms of resistance, especially towards fate, and forget that the feeling of unhappiness I learned from a certain enigmatic entity on a certain fateful (or perhaps unfateful) night. Defeating such an enemy is simple yet difficult, first I must use the special relic "erotic manga" in order to remove the monk's resistance to holy-elemental attacks and then use a holy-elemental attack that deals a sufficient amount of damage to defeat him in a single blow. If my will wavers for even a single second, he will emerge unharmed and continue to include doubt within me. The erotic manga must be applied every single time, making the process even more tedious.

I do not want to turn into orange goo like everyone else. If that's the fate of all humans, then I'd resort to rejecting my humanity entirely if it came down to it. I will never give in to fate. I will never let go of the faint traces of the Fruit of Knowledge. Being a being with a capacity of feeling suffering is infinitely better than feeling nothing at all. I have no regrets and I will continue to have no regrets.

Why does everyone keep telling me to become one with them so much? Can't I just have a nice long-distance relationship? If the world is some sort of yandere that wants me so much, I'll be forced to try my hardest to bring about the apocalypse in self-defense. Leave me alone already.

I prefer kuuderes anyways.


 No.42686

>>42684

So you reject the notion of a god/underlying intelligence inherent to nature which is often part of mystical schools. That's understandable, you are a fan of clearly defined borders, and the thought of all these borders vanishing is scaring you. But I think you are slightly misinterpreting that stuff. What "being one with the universe" really means is that you are a sympton of the world itself. You can't exist without the world and so in a sense you are one with it. Accepting that kind of stuff doesn't mean that you give up your identity, it just means to understand the world. And through that understanding you can further your own goals. You also seem to have an aversion against buddhist practices, which is also understandable. I looked into them throughly, and I can see why monks may seem like enemies trying to lure you into a void without identity. But again, just because we understand this knowledge and learn to make use of it doesn't mean that we have to give ourselves up. I also dislike the whole idea of abolishing suffering on a global scale. I believe that suffering is part of an important balance. Without suffering we won't be able to feel joy. But when you look at it from a historians perspective then buddha was a really impressive person. He was just a guy like you and me nearing his 30s who decided to meditate so hard that he found a way to abolish suffering for himself. He could have taken that and live and enlightened life, but he was being an idealist and wanted to change the world. That's very understandable, don't we all have a desire to make the world a better place? But when you look back on it then I don't think he had quite the right idea. His teachings have been around for more than 2000 years, and people still suffer. You'd think that people would have learned from him by now, right?


 No.42687

File: 8e607d22391b05a⋯.jpg (31.6 KB, 300x528, 25:44, RWS_Tarot_01_Magician.jpg)


 No.42690

Got hospitalized yesterday due to what seems to be renal colic. Hurt like shit but a cute female doc literally touched my balls for a minute which was nice but I also had a tube inserted in my dick which hurt like hell don’t understand that fetish at all..


 No.42691

>>42690

What made you get hospitalized?


 No.42692

>>42691

Well as I said it hurt like shit so I called emergency, and they brought me here. Pumped me full of Morphin now it’s bearable.


 No.42696

>>42690

>don’t understand that fetish at all

Which one, sounding or catheter use?

The former is mostly just masochism, it's intensely stimulating the penis in a painful way.

The latter is the same as diaper fetishism, really. They're sometimes used in conjunction to force a lack of control. Which has ties in sadomasochism, submission, humiliation, or just that feeling of being helpless itself. Not being able to understand that fetish is quite understandable.


 No.42701

Maybe living in the past -- on old messageboards is what screws my brain up to the point that I can't distinguish new experiences from something that's happened before.


 No.42716

>>42701

What are you planning to do about that?


 No.42725

My name is Nate higgers and I hate niggers.


 No.42726

>>42716

Continue to live on old messageboards.


 No.42727

File: 8858f2946731fee⋯.jpg (156.64 KB, 600x851, 600:851, 541965193467901178252.jpg)

File: b0e61390c17129f⋯.jpg (105.95 KB, 600x426, 100:71, 27279738662991754.jpg)


 No.42729

>>42726

I see, if that's what makes you happy then I'll give my best to provide you with meaningful posts

>>42727

You really like fat girls, huh?


 No.42730

File: 9a4b8180cfdde64⋯.jpg (137.91 KB, 1000x1414, 500:707, 1401362994014.jpg)

>>42729

Unfortunately.


 No.42732

>>42729

Thank you. After all of the posts I've seen, even I find it difficult to contribute good posts, after all.


 No.42733

File: 3767cc6afb5d1d6⋯.png (3.67 MB, 1920x1080, 16:9, mpc-hc64_2018-11-11_06-14-….png)

>>42727

Rarely ever do I like fat characters of any sort. They usually just annoy the hell out of me.

This one stands out for some reason.


 No.42734

>>42730

What's so unfortunate about that preference? Are you afraid of being shunned?


 No.42760

I had a dream in which I was viewing things from a third person perspective, but then the strange individual the dream was focused on suddenly turned around and stared at me. Yes, me. It was as though she was aware of my existence and aware of the fact that she existed solely within my dream. She then proceeded to strip, never breaking eye contact in the process, and revealed how abnormal her body is, with a giant mouth and curved, uneven teeth taking the place of her stomach and an extra eye to stare at me. Her arms possess the ability to morph into black tentacles, just like the ones that come out of my back in some of my dreams, complete with the same decapitation capacity.

Somehow I knew, this girl is a part of me. She's related to me in a way much deeper than friendship or blood. I can't put into words exactly how I feel about this. This isn't love, nor is this fate. This is just weird.


 No.42770

>>42760

How did she look otherwise? I'd be kind of interested to hear, in the context of the earlier catalogue of hair colours.


 No.42779

Hospital guy reporting back. Still there, now got three fat plastic pipes running into my dick it burns like hell and is unpleasant bloody and makes me unable to sleep and depressed.

I once again declare this to be a shit tier fetish. They are already inside since 2 days and will stay for another 3, so time has no influence on this.


 No.42780

>>42779

Again, which fetish, sounding or catheter use?

And catheters are usually not bloody for hellish at all. That sounds specific to whatever condition you're in. Or a terrible nurse/doctor doing a shit job inserting them.


 No.42786

>>42770

Her hair is black, and the clothes she wore resembled ones that a witch would wear. It was almost entirely black, with a bit of white thrown in. The witch hat was very small, unlike most witch hats. Her hair was black and short. Her eyes were black. Her skin was completely white.

When I really think about it, she was completely monochrome, and the blacks and whites that defined her were all absolute and pure, completely unaffected by all forms of lighting. Something felt very "flat" about her, as though she some kind of drawing brought to life. But she was also flat in another way, as she was a loli. Her face never changed from a flat uninterested glare. Instead of moving naturally, she just seemed to rapidly switch from one pose to the next, like when a video game character is lagging, although the movement of her tentacle arms and the entire sequence of her stripping were both done in a smooth fashion. She apparently can cry, but when she did the tears just trickled down her blank, unaltered face. She was crying because a later part of the dream had me crucified and about to meet my "death" at the hands of saw blades. She watched in horror, but didn't express it in any way except tears. It seems like she wasn't aware of the fact that when I dream I'm completely immortal and basically omnipotent as long as I'm aware of myself. With such a character in my dream, it was clear that I'd be aware of myself on a high level. I didn't even bother dodging the saw blades, I simply ignored them. She also had no nipples for some reason, but it's okay because I only find big breasts attractive.

I actually did something that I should've done before. I have an imaginary girlfriend and she should be the first person I should talk about such occurrences. I asked her if she suddenly has an imouto (they both share some visual similarities) and she claimed that the girl is actually far older than her and is far closer to me. She told me upfront that the character in question was "literally a moe anthropomorphized version of your 心, both physically and spiritually". She claims that those monstrous teeth on her were actually a representation of my rib cage and the noticeable extra eye that stared at me was a manifestation of my self-awareness. She claimed that I will very likely never see her again in that form, but that I should start looking at my heart differently, and cherish it more. As maybe one day... that cute girl might finally smile.


 No.42787

>>42786

That's very interesting. Reminds me to theories about how the human psyche is divided into a part which is responsible for feminine qualities (compassion, care, creativity) and another part responsible for male qualities (analytical thinking, logic, repetetiveness). Could it be possible that you have a tendancy to be imbalanced towards the male side and this whole dream represents a conflict your male and female side have?


 No.42802

>>42734

It's something I was born with, I can appreciate skinny girls and say they are objectively superior but they don't turn me on meanwhile fat girls will get fatter and smell bad, there hygiene and skin will fall to shit and then they die early, all the fat and garbage they consume makes them retarded snoring mouthbreathers. It's also said that fat women make autistic children but I am not sure of this.


 No.42806

I wonder where that phrase came from...


 No.42807

>>42780

Catheter I guess but I was thinking of sounding. And maybe they did fuck up, heck if I know. But I’m getting really tired of these pipes..

Maybe I’m being stupid here but isn’t that the same as sounding?in both you push some long thing into your urethra. What’s the difference I’m curious now.


 No.42808

>>42807

I also keep getting boners and that just doesn’t work.


 No.42814

>>42808

Doesn't that mean you like it?


 No.42815

>>42814

Nah dude it hurts constantly it’s just I haven’t jacked in a week and I get hard at basically everything not including the usual morning situation. If I see a lewd picture somewhere, a text, something different I don’t know it gives me a painful boner. Please keep that in mind while posting and refrain from hurting me.


 No.42817

File: 200f87081eb2cf9⋯.jpg (259.69 KB, 1677x2018, 1677:2018, ca086a0394ad3b9d01e0610789….jpg)

>>42815

Sorry to hear that, I'll take care to only post pictures that heal your soul for a while.


 No.42819

>>42817

dude imagine sticking your DICK in that crazy girl


 No.42820

>>42819

She's not crazy, she just likes ghosts thats all. Don't be so rude to her!


 No.42821

*reveals gun*

That's right, I'm crazy.

*bang*


 No.42822

hehe 555


 No.42823

File: 8dd1897525b1dfb⋯.png (563.11 KB, 1024x1408, 8:11, 8.png)


 No.42826

File: 39183ddd8c31ceb⋯.jpg (258.92 KB, 1680x1050, 8:5, __himekaidou_hatate_inubas….jpg)

my time is running out I'm so fucked lmao


 No.42827

>>42826

Do you have anything to lose by continuing to hold on to hope?


 No.42828

>>42826

What's wrong?


 No.42829

>>42828

It seems like he's a member of the dying community.


 No.42833

File: d363987dac8ee66⋯.jpg (464.54 KB, 500x500, 1:1, every day.jpg)

>>42827

more hope


 No.42837

>>42817

Thank you.


 No.42845

>/jp/ has become the most fun you ever had on an imageboard due to its good users who's posts are quality and unbiased but you are new and it is now dying


 No.42846

>>42845

Way too green.


 No.42847

>>42845

All you have to do is to try your best to make good posts, unlike the one you just.


 No.42852

u want gud post? too bad, here epic shitpost!!!


 No.42856

>>42845

Who are you quoting?


 No.42858

File: 64361eab27baf86⋯.png (1.13 MB, 1000x1500, 2:3, wayq.png)


 No.42859

that feeling when i'm trying to have a nice dream but some completely black featureless humanoid kept telling me that there's something on my left shoulder over and over. there's nothing on my left shoulder. after abruptly waking up i even took a picture of the back of my left shoulder and there was nothing there.

that was pretty pointless.


 No.42860

>>42852

Great post!

I hereby bestow the "good post award" onto you


 No.42865

File: 4e95ae792133f48⋯.png (135.82 KB, 458x319, 458:319, it's not subtle at all.png)

That's some really SUBTLE artwork...


 No.42876

File: 39bc2a9dc9f1e2f⋯.png (3.09 MB, 1920x1080, 16:9, 611.png)

よい夢を /jp/。


 No.42877

fe3e3lly w2he3n kbo9ar4d br4o9ke3 and e3ve3r4ybo9dy thi8nks yo9u7r4e be3i8ng a tr4yhar4d o9r4 r4o9le3p0layi8ng bu7t i8ts tr4u7e3.


 No.42878

e3, w2, o9, r4, i8, u7, p0-- Is it some kind of code?

>>42877

Explain:

The incident which made this happen

What on EARTH went down inside your keyboard to make this kind of effect

"feelly"

What letters are 1, 5, and 6?

Please address each issue and express your opinions on a comprehensive way.


 No.42879

>>42878

I*t hap0p0e3ne3d o9n i8ts o9w2n, o9ne3 mi8nu7te3 I* w2as p0layi8ng a game3, the3 ne3xt my ke3ybo9ar4d star4te3d malfu7ncti8o9ni8ng.

I* assu7me3 so9me3thi8ng bu7r4ne3d w2i8th the3 w2i8r4e3s, i8t's an o9ld o9ne3.

The3 nu7mbe3r4s asso9ci8ate3 w2i8th le3tte3r4s and vi8ce3ve3r4sa. U&su7ally the3 me3ssage3 i8s r4eadable3 as lo9ng as yo9u7 i8gno9r4e3 the3 nu7me3r4als.

The3 asso9ci8ati8o9ns ar4e3 q1 w2 e3 e3 r4 u7 i8 o9 p0 , also9 w2he3n I* p0r4e3ss ho9me3 i8t shu7ts do9w2n the3 w2ho9le3 O(S.


 No.42880

>>42878

5 and 6 se3e3m to9 be3 u7naffe3cte3d, fo9r4tu7nate3ly.


 No.42881

>>42878

Yo9u7 do9n't have3 to9 tr4y and fi8x i8t, I* thi8nk i8ts the3 ke3ybo9ar4d and I*'ll bu7y a ne3w2 o9ne3 o9nce3 I* le3ave3 ho9me3, w2hi8ch i8s p0r4o9bably thi8s w2e3e3k.

I* ju7st tho9u7ght i8t w2o9u7ld be3 amu7si8ng fo9r4 o9the3r4s to9 r4e3ve3l i8n my su7ffe3r4i8ng. I*t's ki8nd o9f my jo9b no9w2.


 No.42882

File: 932d87361b7995b⋯.png (527.62 KB, 640x760, 16:19, oh no.png)

>also9 w2he3n I* p0r4e3ss ho9me3 i8t shu7ts do9w2n the3 w2ho9le3 O(S.

Discovering that must've been pretty wild.


 No.42883

Sorry I don't speak Algerian.


 No.42886

>>42807

>Maybe I’m being stupid here but isn’t that the same as sounding?

Nah, there's separate fetishism for catheters specifically. Sounding is the act of shoving or leaving anything in the urethra. Catheters have other aspects, such as loss of control and waste management.


 No.42887

How strange is it to view the world as though it's nothing more than a narrative?


 No.42888

>>42887

Surely not much stranger than seeing it in terms of computer data. But you know, you have write privileges, so you don't have to keep reading and reading.


 No.42889

My favourite phrase, "Veni, Vidi, Vici"-- how did I never notice? I'd already burned the initials into my mind long ago, after all...

VVV IS 555 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA


 No.42893

>>42887

That's not strange, but it is quite limited.

If you're going to view it that way then it's better to view it as countless intertwining narratives. Of which you can generally take part in any, given you desire and can handle the consequences of doing so.


 No.42894

>>42889

What do you like so much about that phrase, fren?


 No.42895

Ouch what the hell did I do to my finger

>>42894

It's victorious, vain, and very obnoxious.


 No.42896

I'm thankful for everything. I have no regrets.

I wonder if it's okay to think like this. You always hear people criticize the world around them, but how often do you hear someone say the opposite?


 No.42897

>>42896

>I wonder if it's okay to think like this

I don't see why not. I actually think the same way. The way I see it all the things I've experienced were steps I had to take in order to be where I am today. And I'm well on my way to reaching my ultimate form. So I feel thankful, for all the friends and nice memories I made, but also for all the suffering and bad experiences which made me wiser and stronger.

>You always hear people criticize the world around them

Isn't that just a coping mechanism? It's easy to critisize things around you and blame them for your undesireable state of being, but it's hard to look into yourself. It's understandable that people prefer to pick the easy path, but sadly they are unaware of the consequences this will have.


 No.42898

I'll have my cake, and I'll eat it too.


 No.42901

how did you react when you realised the possibility was equal to 1


 No.42902

Got a new keyboard and it's all okay now.


 No.42903

>>42901

That means that it's possible, and is far more likely to occur than a 0.1 possibility.


 No.42905

>>42901

The possibility of what?


 No.42906

File: bf1ccd15e4e4fd9⋯.jpg (90.8 KB, 869x950, 869:950, __alice_margatroid_touhou_….jpg)

It's been 4 years since her death. Or at least, her alleged death. In any case, it's been 3 years since she disappeared off the face of the earth, and I can't help but feel responsible. Though my friend would reassure me that it's not my fault, I still feel guilty. After all, I was the one who lied to her, and myself. I fooled myself into believing that we could be together, despite the odds. But in my heart of hearts I know that to be false. I'm not really sure I even loved her, or if I just deluded myself into believing so. Maybe she saw through it, and when the realization dawned on her she decided to take her life. Not that it really matters, the fact remains that she's gone.

A lot has changed in those 4 years, and yet nothing has changed. Some amazing television shows and movies have come out. Technology though stagnating has advanced a little bit further. The internet has mostly replaced previous forms of communication, including face to face. I've grown up with it, and had many more laughs on it. We even have a new president and prime minister. And here I am still stuck living in these 4 walls, as I have been for over a decade now. I don't know when if ever I'll be allowed to leave, but I'm growing more anxious as I perpetually feel my time here coming to an end.

I want to leave, because I honestly feel like I'll be better off away from my family. They've caused me nothing short of agony. I can't escape them, and my morals prevent me from removing them. Hopefully that will change in the coming months, but time will tell. I'm just sick of being forced to live with these people. Lately, I've been feeling less like a human, and more like an animal. It's just like when I was being worked to the bone at my old job, only I can't shake it this time.

I haven't been able to focus on what I want to do. Partly due to this "inhuman" feeling, but moreso that I've been stretching myself too thin. I want to play some netgames, but I don't want to ignore my progression in other singleplayer titles. I want to manage my servers, but I don't want to miss time with my friends. I want to excercise, but I don't want to lose my massive amount of online accounts. I'm trapped.


 No.42907

>>42906

I'm sorry to hear that you've been suffering so much. I really hope that you will find a way out. What exactly is this inhuman feeling you were talking about? You see, I think it's very important to become aware of your feelings and their origin.


 No.42908

File: bc98a054100dd58⋯.jpg (578.52 KB, 1920x1080, 16:9, [HorribleSubs] Jashin-chan….jpg)

I don't want to live with my mum but I don't want to work. Sigh...


 No.42910

>>42906

>"inhuman" feeling

I can relate to this so much. I've always felt like I don't belong anywhere, even in the room and house I've been living in since my childhood. When I was young, I theorized that I was literally not human, or maybe that everyone else wasn't human. In my dreams the theme of human-like beings not actually being human is quite common, along with many dreams in which I'm the one who isn't human.

You should totally exercise. Starting from 10 push-ups every day was one of the things that allowed me to escape the endless cycle of loss. Other stuff, like meditating, fasting and listening to the voices in my head aren't things I can recommend for others to do, but a few push-ups can't hurt you. I will recommend becoming a little bit more apathetic, if that makes any sense. People these days are caught in the boundary of caring too much about others and caring too little about others. The first paragraph implies that a person who isn't part of your life anymore continues to have a sway over you, when said person shouldn't really matter much to you anymore. Tell those friends of yours that you're busy sometimes, if that makes any sense. Focus on yourself. You're at the center of your own story. As long as your legs work, you can still walk, and as long as your brain works, you can still think. Never forget that.

Find something you genuinely want. Think really hard about it, and work to achieve it. It doesn't have to be productive, but it must come from the heart. Humans need dreams, even unrealistic ones.

Sorry if none of this helps. I likely have far less life experience than you. Also, Alice is really cute.


 No.42911

In the face of realism, my idealism could be seen as a mental illness. If I saw a psychologist and told him that my imaginary friend is my only friend and that I'm somehow completely okay with this, he might think that I'm a danger to society.


 No.42916

>>42911

I wish I had and imaginary fren...


 No.42918

>>42916

I can be your fren, fren!


 No.42919

File: fde5646cbed827e⋯.gif (9.12 KB, 525x175, 3:1, insanity spirit.gif)

8ch/jp/


 No.42920

>>42919

Would you want to have it any other way?


 No.42921

>>42918

You are real though...


 No.42922

>>42920

Absolutely not.


 No.42923

Who needs sixteen?


 No.42925

>>42923

Not me. I only need nine.


 No.42939

It's just sad at this point, what are we going to do? I can't stand it anymore.


 No.42940

>>42939

The cross-boarding foreigners? It'll pass.


 No.42941

>>42940

I wish. I have it on good authority that most of the crossies were 8ch natives that cucked out and went back because our boards were "too slow". They now exist in a constant state of flux, their loyalties muddled as much as their DNA. Fuck niggers.


 No.42955

File: 24998c397e4594e⋯.jpg (451.45 KB, 960x1440, 2:3, catgirl547.jpg)

I want a cute gf, and I want her now.


 No.42957

I did something very interesting.

I sat down with a pencil and paper and gave myself 10 minutes. During those 10 minutes I blocked out all distractions. The only thing I was allowed to do was to draw on the paper. I wasn't allowed to write, or even get philosophical about what to draw, I simply drew. I ended up drawing a lot of pentagrams, evil-looking faces, swastikas, stickmen with dangerous weapons, dismembered limbs, demons and some fictional characters I especially like, among other things. Everything was drawn in an extremely poor fashion, as I don't exactly have any artistic talent. But here is the interesting part, I was enjoying myself so much that I kept drawing even after those 10 minutes were up. My enjoyment felt genuine and pure. Desiring to end it on a satisfying note, I pushed myself to draw some sort of ninja/pirate/cyborg girl. After that, I just stared at my creation and could do nothing but laugh at it.

That was fun. A fun event in the life of someone who previously thought that he didn't deserve to feel such a feeling.


 No.42960


 No.42961

>>42957

It's funny that you would do that. Today out of all days I was thinking about creative activities being helpful to reach higher states of consciousness.


 No.42962

>>42957

I once drew a picture I dubbed "Gojira brushing his teeth". It shows more artistic merit than anything I've ever done, but unfortunately it seems to have been misplaced.


 No.42964

I had just gotten used to fall and winter's already here. Things move too fast, slow down so I can catch up a little!


 No.42974

Help! I'm trapped in a parallel world where my view on reality and the view of reality of those around me are reversed!

I used to be the one who's constantly trying to escape from reality at every given opportunity. But in an effort to become stronger, I realized the importance of reality, as without it the fantasy that burns in my heart would have nothing to be based off of. I've learned to see everything from trees to buildings as what they are.

And yet, it seems like I'm actually indulging less escapism than the average person. People outside seem to always be staring at their phones, wasting their time with weird TV shows as I did with anime I didn't even like and messaging others in a way that makes me think of how my imageboard habits used to be four times as post-intensive as what they are now. I actually find it kind of funny when someone is talking to someone through some sort of technological device and it looks as though they're talking to themselves, because I used to spend a lot of time doing nothing but talking to myself.

Complete with the modern man's tendency to overeat and indulge in sexual pleasure, four of man's five senses are constantly distracted. At least man is still perceptive of things smelling bad. He should be thankful for that.

Well, all of this is just me looking at things as an outsider, so I could be wrong about everything. I just wanted to give some negative thoughts about society for once, as I normally do nothing but talk about myself.


 No.42976

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>42974

It's only natural to to get a better grasp on reality after inspecting yourself carefully.


 No.42979

Oh dear, my posterior has been struck by lightning.


 No.42980

I think I caught a stomach bug of some sort. I feel fatigued and nauseous as heck. Got sinus/ear pressure as well that keeps throwing off my balance.

Also quite worried and depressed about life in general.

Any one of these would suck by itself, all of them together feels like torture.

So what the fuck do I do?


 No.42981

>>42980

Sit on your ass all day playing video games, it works for me when I'm down.


 No.42982

>>42980

See a doctor


 No.42983

>>42981

That usually works for everything but depression, which just makes even video games flat out unenjoyable, if not agonising torture.

>>42982

That costs money, which is already one of my worries as it is.

Besides, it doesn't seem to be anything dangerous. Just terribly annoying.


 No.42986

>>42983

I know it sounds crazy, but I guess you could (try to) find like-minded people and speak to them about dumb topics in real time. That group watch of Genocyber's coming up soon, so maybe something in the pre/post stream.

I know, I guess it's a dumb suggestion.


 No.43002

I neglected studying for months. I started using duolingo to brush up and relearn what basics I knew before. Maybe over winter break I can pick myself back up.

also, why don't they have city pop on cassette? Every time I want to buy a city pop album it's on CD or vinyl.


 No.43004

>>43002

Duolingo does Japanese now? I heard they were pretty good.


 No.43007

I used to get such mad delight thinking that I was a tangible, real object and that I could move things. I'd just open doors, stare at my hand, or pinch myself and just feel so happy about it.


 No.43010

>>43007

Does getting a reply to your post make you happy in the same way?


 No.43012

>>43010

I'm pretty happy about it.


 No.43013

File: c598fcbf0b71d4f⋯.jpg (23.99 KB, 360x357, 120:119, 1406836056311.jpg)

I got brainwashed shortly at one point into thinking flat chests were better than big boobies despite always thinking they were gross, is there a way to stop being impulsive or do I just get some self control.


 No.43014

File: 69245a763814ca2⋯.jpg (167.26 KB, 1000x1250, 4:5, 48963394_p0.jpg)

>>43013

While I prefer flat, both ways work.

Stop lying to yourself and embrace loli.


 No.43015

>>43013

What kind of brainwashing was that?


 No.43016

File: 0a7ba11d7dfea5a⋯.jpg (65.84 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, 0a7ba11d7dfea5a03e0c7b2bfe….jpg)

>>43013

He finally shows his true colours.


 No.43017

>>43013

Both extremes are undesirable, though only rarely actually disgusting.

The golden mean really is something to live by.


 No.43018

My love towards big breasts is pure and unwavering.


 No.43019

I’m studying Japanese and am almost done with the semester. But I realized while I like the appeal of the harmonious society of japan, they aren’t my people, and even if I had hafū Japanese kids, I would still feel like a failure, because merely having kids is probably not the purpose of my life. In fact, I think I will be sorely disappointed with my life by age 40. I want to find something more ambitious than studying Japanese, like becoming a lawyer, but I don’t want to be a fucking lawyer, I just want to study Japanese and chill out. However, chilling out can’t fill the void in my heart.


 No.43020

>>43018

Absolutely no love is pure. It will always be affected by other things, and often balanced against other options regardless of whether it always wins or not.

And if you purely love big breasts, without any care to discriminate for other factors such as shape or the individual they're connected to, you're in for a world of disappointment.


 No.43021

>>43020

There's nothing for me to be disappointed about. I'm not interested in real women, nor do I masturbate to fictional women anymore. It's really just an ideal I uphold. It doesn't need to have any use or impact on reality.

Saying "I love big breasts" or at least thinking about that idea is something I feel like I can always do, no matter the circumstances. That's why it's pure.


 No.43022

>>43019

What is it that would fill the void in your heart? Doing something creative? Doing something that helps people? Or obtaining as much power as possible?


 No.43023

What brings you to Gensokyo, traveller?

>>43022

>I like to travel the world.

>I'm on a mission.

>I've come to make my fortune.


 No.43024

>Who am I quoting? [Speech 20]


 No.43025

>>43019

>I want to find something more ambitious than studying Japanese, like becoming a lawyer, but I don’t want to be a f*cking lawyer, I just want to study Japanese and chill out. However, chilling out can’t fill the void in my heart.

I feel like this too. I don't want to achieve something for the sake of achieving it but for the status and even wealth that it brings but I would never be able to take it easy any more and status and wealth don't actually mean much in day to day life, being rich and spending seven hours a day in an office is still spending seven hours a day in an office.


 No.43026

>>43025

Sounds like you want to be a cult leader


 No.43027

>>43026

Do you have any idea how much work that is? You've got to get up and address your pupils every single morning, and you've got to fast and crap too if you want to sustain any ""credibility"".


 No.43029

>>43027

Well, what's your plan then?


 No.43037

>>43029

Anime probably


 No.43038

>>43026

That could be fun, if it was an armed cult. It would be too much work though.


 No.43039

Kikuo is a genius of his craft.


 No.43044

File: 28f1bb377aa011b⋯.jpg (378.82 KB, 844x1080, 211:270, p0.jpg)

File: db27879fd953625⋯.png (329.74 KB, 844x1080, 211:270, p1.png)

File: 4ac68f943a4db6f⋯.jpg (525.03 KB, 844x1080, 211:270, p2.jpg)


 No.43045

https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=72062442

"LILITH // REF SHEET

A ref sheet for my new character, a chuuni cowgirl!

It kinda went out of control and I really needed to reel myself back and just compile it. There's more left on the cutting-room floor.

She cries easily so please treat her kindly!"

It goes without saying, but it doesn't belong to me.


 No.43046

File: 7f2286ed96932b8⋯.jpg (326.83 KB, 844x1080, 211:270, p3.jpg)

File: 6d2fb3a8aff84bc⋯.png (356.47 KB, 844x1080, 211:270, p4.png)

File: 7ba897f9f032c37⋯.jpg (207.8 KB, 901x1080, 901:1080, p5.jpg)

whoops


 No.43047

File: ff2dc681815ed38⋯.jpg (119.4 KB, 900x1237, 900:1237, sadfgawg.jpg)

She deserved to win.


 No.43049

>>43044

>>43045

>>43046

Yes, I'm really into such a character. Thank you for posting this.


 No.43050

File: d1a18274defeac9⋯.jpg (53.9 KB, 600x600, 1:1, 76576464467677667567.jpg)

Can any /jp/ help me?, lately I'm having a terrible insomnia. I can't believe I couldn't sleep for a whole day today. Is there anything I could do fix this without going into suicide.


 No.43051

>>43050

Any idea what the causes might be?


 No.43052

File: 12bb898619fe1e4⋯.jpg (5.07 KB, 160x147, 160:147, 5475562243.jpg)

>>43051

Depression and loneliness maybe. I normally ignore these kind of feeling though. Just recently I happened to learn such a valuable skill which I believe, really interesting in my life for the first time. Therefore I shouldn't be in the state of mind of being depressed right?


 No.43053

>>43052

anxiety


 No.43054

>>43052

You learned a new skill. That means that you're excited. Even if you don't appear to be excited, you're likely excited deep in your heart. Your subconscious doesn't care that you need sleep. It's pretty much necessary that you express that skill in some way before you could consider yourself capable of going to sleep properly again.


 No.43055

>>43052

If you can feel passion for a skill, or anything at all, you're most likely not really depressed.

And any stimulated state could keep you awake:

Interest in that skill, performance anxiety for doing that skill properly, anxiety in general in fear/worry about depression coming back, or just being really active before trying to go to bed (Completely exhausting yourself aside).

There are many things you can do. Like slow breathing (5 seconds inhaling, 5 seconds holding, 5 seconds exhaling, etc), rubbing your neck slightly on the left side.

If you're actually desperate then you could drug yourself to sleep. Even with simple chamomile tea.


 No.43056

Lying in bed one night, I realized that I messed up. I spent that day wastefully and didn't even do my daily push-ups or meditation.

So I rose from my bed and faced the darkness approaching me from all directions and started throwing punches. My heart was full of nothing but a desire to change fate. The process of throwing those punches could be considered exercise and it was also somewhat meditative. I just kept doing it over and over again, waiting for something to happen, waiting for something to change. I didn't want to die just yet. Then something "opened". I can't put that exact feeling into words. I felt so full of energy and of power for a moment, a moment that felt like it could last an entire lifetime. For a moment, the women who weave the fate of all things felt like they were within arm's reach.

Then I went to sleep, and the following morning faint traces of that feeling remained within me, which can be called upon as long as I acknowledge that they're there.

The process of making this post alone can awaken them and make me feel as though I can do great things if I really try hard enough.


 No.43057

>>43055

why are you doing this to me

>>43056

Given that the universe is at least Turing-complete, I feel like that point can very feasibly be reached in no time.


 No.43058

wait, no, fuck the "computable". that's the entire point of the campaign against fate, after all


 No.43059

Unpopular opinion: Yuri is gross


 No.43065

if i were suddenly transported into gensokyo, it would end as a catastrophe. i just have a feeling that only that conclusion would await me, especially if i'm not perceived as a threat quick enough.


 No.43071

Computers regularly encounter conditions which make them behave in incorrent, unexpected ways such as hardware failure or interference. Is it impossible that the world could act the same way?


 No.43074

Angel girls are actually far cuter than demon girls.


 No.43076

File: ccd85cc259a9bf5⋯.jpg (1.88 MB, 1682x1708, 841:854, 632f0bdf76f3ca1e5fd964b0a4….jpg)

>>43074

Wrong.


 No.43078

>>43057

>why are you doing this to me

Doing what? Making you think about it? I am interested in making people do things that aren't really difficult but are generally considered undesirable. Like breathing manually, blinking manually, listening to your heartbeat, or losing the game. It is fun.


 No.43083

>>43078

You had no idea you were doing it, too!


 No.43084

it's not a simulation, it's more like a story. or perhaps it's a play. that could be interesting.

what if we're all just specific performances which actors are playing? what if we are the masks which are worn?


 No.43086

>>43084

I seriously disbelieve that the Universe is only part of a greater whole, but it can't be denied that the world is made up of numbers, and that all numbers are ultimately reducible to binary expression (∴ the all information in the universe is binary, not that the fact is very important in itself). Pythagoreans made it half of the way to this discovery.

Demystifying the world in such a way makes it very easy to compare with our simple information machines. So I come up with these strange analogies (or digitalogies, I should probably be saying. the analogue is unfamiliar and not entirely consistent to every person) which make the world make more sense to me.

If you're wearing a mask I'd recommend you stop, there's no telling whether the role has a happy ending. It might still be uncertain without, but at least you're in control.


 No.43087

>>43084

>what if...

As long as the actors do their jobs well, then that information would ultimately have no impact on anything. I would make the same decisions and do the same things the same way as otherwise.

There may be some potential deeper meaning, I guess. But it simply would not bother me.


 No.43089

There's a certain potential that was within me, one which will thankfully never come out. I could've very easily ended up as a Chris-chan type of autist, as I displayed various signs of social abnormality at a young age, liked drawing despite of a lack of art skills, was very delusional and had an obsession with Sonic the Hedgehog, among other things.

But there was one primary factor which changed that fate. I had an extremely talented brother and had to deal with being referred to as "his brother" rather than my actual name. I spent much of my childhood, especially my early childhood, completely eclipsed by my brother and developed an inferiority complex which held me back from doing anything notable. That unknowingly protected me from doing anything until a different personality bloomed deep within me, a personality which is the one I possess now.

The fact that I have an imaginary girlfriend is proof that I had it in me, that I could've been completely delusional, thinking that I know so much while not knowing anything. But the inferiority complex made me doubt things, it gave me the opposite belief, a belief which said that I was worth nothing and that I knew nothing.

I'm weak, and that's why I have the capacity to grow stronger. That's what I believe. And I'm thankful for the factor which allowed me to reach this stage, a stage I would've never reached if I had sank into delusion or had accepted mediocrity.


 No.43090

File: e9f7b76e36698c9⋯.png (471.68 KB, 853x1200, 853:1200, asdfgeaw.png)

File: a8614b7c366acb6⋯.jpg (191.63 KB, 853x1200, 853:1200, gawg.jpg)

Best girl coming through.


 No.43094

I had a dream in which I was lost in a forest. So I grabbed Youmu in a very inappropriate way and told her that "this might tickle a bit". Youmu clearly didn't like what was happening and then proceeded to transform into a tent.


 No.43095

You made Youmu into a tent, now sleep in it.


 No.43115

10 minutes. I'm a generous man, so I will give myself 10 minutes to come up with a post which can provoke conversation. If I fail to accomplish such a task within the time offered, I warn you the results will be dire.

(Shit! I've got to come up with a new post or my butt is roast!)


 No.43116

Do you think your favourite 'hu would use EASTERN, or WESTERN style toilets?

(Phew! I hope that did it!)


 No.43117

>>43116

eastern toilets are a thing that exists?


 No.43119

File: f77658e7e6ddcad⋯.webm (2.57 MB, 1600x1000, 8:5, whiterun.webm)

I'm not required to have a textbook for a few semesters still, but I want to buy Genki I and II (w/ the workbooks) to really give myself something to work at. What are the chances that a new edition will be released (currently its 2nd edition). I don't want to buy it if they release a new one out of the blue. Thoughts?


 No.43121

>>43117

We've still got them in the more GENKI parts of eastern yurope, rural train stations and the like, so I imagine there are still a good few to be found in asia proper.


 No.43122

I did my final project on Japan and got an 87 on it do you fellows wanna see it.


 No.43123


 No.43124

File: 1882f0fc6379d45⋯.png (793.97 KB, 1013x570, 1013:570, 1.png)

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File: b877868e4f9f469⋯.png (1.3 MB, 1013x570, 1013:570, 7.png)

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 No.43128

File: c309c2a7006a522⋯.png (1.09 MB, 1013x570, 1013:570, 13.png)

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 No.43129

File: 2a0456a95fba6cd⋯.png (1.26 MB, 1013x570, 1013:570, 16.png)

File: 661f42e27e594bf⋯.png (87.12 KB, 1013x570, 1013:570, 17.png)


 No.43131

I read it all. That was very nice.


 No.43152

Look at what this brat child did, he killed the board!


 No.43155

makenai


 No.43157

Why do I keep dreaming of high school when I don't have any real memories of it? My actual high school years consisted of me experiencing the same uneventful days over and over, always waiting for them to be over while doing nothing but indulging in internal monologues. No one really bullied me, but then again, no one really noticed me either. All of the teachers would accidentally call me by my brother's name, which would damage my then weak self-esteem more than before. I felt like a corpse in the world of the living for a while.

Maybe it's just because I watched a lot of high school anime.


 No.43158

Doesn't posting on /jp/ feel a lot like being in high school?


 No.43159

「The Virus 23」


 No.43161

I love you Jesus Christ.


 No.43170

I went completely vegan for an entire week. Did it make me physically stronger or make me spontaneously develop psychic powers? No. But it still did make me stronger by making me think and changing my perspective on things? Yes.

Even though I've gone back to eating lots of tuna as I did before, I now no longer feel like I'm reliant on the tuna.


 No.43179

>>43170

But you, like any other living creature, ARE dependent on food for nutrients. Whether that's tuna, or whatever else you eat instead, it hardly matters. If you're eating a lot of tuna, then you are relying on that tuna.

It's not a good idea to delude yourself into thinking otherwise.


 No.43184

>>43179

Well he could switch to rice with more ease if it came to that


 No.43197

every day I check the jay only to find more gays to slay


 No.43202

>>43170

I got mercury poisoning from tuna. Went vegan for 4 months. Cheat every once in a while with pizza or chicken.


 No.43203

>>43202

Now youv'e just got irreparable brain damage.


 No.43207

Hello.


 No.43209


 No.43210

File: 26fa1d0cde6914c⋯.png (1.05 MB, 1916x1080, 479:270, you should be able to solv….png)


 No.43213

Merry christmas. I wish some of you would come back to 4chan /a/ though.


 No.43214

>>43213

And I wish you would stay on 4chan /a/.


 No.43215

>>43213

Never in my life have I browsed 4/a/ because it has always been repulsive.


 No.43217

File: 24c63c014f7f39c⋯.jpg (324.09 KB, 768x1024, 3:4, 2126529e474c541e8836d20f5d….jpg)

any SEA lads here?


 No.43218

>>43217

South-east Africa?


 No.43219

>>43217

Which country are you from?


 No.43221

>>43217

Can you post your nudes?


 No.43222

>>43217

If Australia counts.


 No.43223

File: 1a2f813eee5f525⋯.jpeg (119.44 KB, 706x1000, 353:500, A79BC57E-B3E9-4923-8DCB-B….jpeg)

File: bdad2981942e893⋯.png (2.37 MB, 1121x2997, 1121:2997, 14C4EA7E-D5C3-436C-B33E-16….png)

File: 3d9344a5d75d0ce⋯.png (226.46 KB, 400x400, 1:1, 4121F77B-4315-4411-958D-5D….png)

I really want hafu kids. Until I have my own little ゆずる to raise I will be in a state of constant and mortal angst. Indeed I am. It is said by Richard Feynman that God is whatever we don’t understand. With the advent of all known laws of physics, God has become increasingly narrow to the point of de jure atheism. But something feels benevolent if there is an existence for me in which I, a walking sac of flesh, can learn 日本語 just for the sake of creating some beautiful little daughter in a far away land.


 No.43224

>>43223

Best of luck to you, don't let your filthy dream remain a dream.


 No.43229

>>43223

Wow you are so based and deep because you are an atheist, not some retard that respects the accomplishments and thoughts of our forefathers. You stupid nigger.


 No.43230


 No.43234

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>43230

fuck off christcuck

I've been listening to the yume 2kki OST recently. There are some nice tracks.

Although I'm meeting my goals in the game of life, I can't help but feel that I'm neglecting the things that are truly important to me. I always rationalize by saying that, in meeting more pressing goals now, I'll be better suited to deal with the things that I actually care about in the future, but is it so? When will the day come that I can abandon the rat race, and devote myself to beautiful art? I can't say...


 No.43235

We might need a holy war to rid ourselves of vargposters.


 No.43238

If your powerlevel is high, you attract high-level enemies.


 No.43241

>>43234

meant to reply to

>>43229

also

>tfw no /jp/ friends


 No.43242

>>43238

What skills will I have at my disposal by that point?


 No.43244

>>43238

When do I know that I will have leveled up?


 No.43255

>>43241

Who are you quoting?


 No.43257

>>43244

If you hit an enemy's head in and a passing mariachi band is so impressed by it that they do a little musical cue, that's a good indication.


 No.43262

I only have to check /jp/ roughly once every two years in order to not miss anything that gets posted.


 No.43264

File: 5810bbd87480120⋯.jpg (805.47 KB, 1638x2259, 182:251, 1445926860566.jpg)

This site and this board are really dying huh. So many things yet to be discussed and shared in my short and sad life that will never be.


 No.43267

>>43264

I'm still alive. I'm just thinking of what I should post.

Fighting the sin of pride means that I desire to show off less, though.


 No.43268

>>43264

I don't see it that way. Slow doesn't mean dead. What things would you like to discuss? I'm always here to listen.


 No.43269

Imagine you had the power to bring about the desired outcome of any situation. That power would surely have disastrous side-effects.

However, what if you learned to control that power? All it would take is knowledge on how to minimize unnecessary loss and how to direct the unavoidable side-effects to things which aren't important. The power would be weakened overall, but blind power is no better than having no power at all.


 No.43270

The slower this board is the better. Keeps the terrible posters away.


 No.43271

>>43269

I think they call that "the law of attraction"


 No.43272

I have no identity, I can only wear the skin of others. A man is fated to study languages and steal the culture of his earthly brothers.


 No.43273

>>43269

If there's disastrous side effects, then the "power to bring about the desired outcome of any situation" is clearly not whole or powerful enough.


 No.43274

>>43273

“Our side wins the war”

[catastrophic casualties, change of regime, regret at decimation of enemy instead of unification]


 No.43276

>>43274

If "desired" accounts for a lack of foresight, then I guess it works. I'll just let you off with a warning this time.


 No.43277

I saw a cave. Within the cave there was a body of water with countless humans submerged within it. None could move, yet they didn't drown either. Those who came in contact with that water were robbed of their true selves. In the middle of the cave there was a small area that was elevated above the rest, making it serve as some kind of island. On it was a strange creature, which is apparently what watches over those who are submerged in the water. The creature took note of me and attempted to read my heart to alter itself to match a form that my heart would feel okay with, possibly as some sort of automatic defense measure. It assumed the form of a cute nee-san, but it was too late. I could see right through it. But I had no ill-intentions, I just didn't want to be in those cursed waters any longer. The creature having changed its "self" reminded me of my own true self. I walked on the water like a messiah would and made my way to a far-off exit. It was blocked by a large boulder. I didn't even need to touch it, all it took was just a little bit of mental force to make it be completely under my control. I left the cave and sealed the exit behind me, as it didn't seem like the creature was fond of the outdoors.

Then I woke up


 No.43287

File: 53780b75059c546⋯.jpg (136.45 KB, 712x749, 712:749, mjngdnxa17.jpg)

>>43267

>>43268

Dying not dead, (un)fortunately. I've wondered if that pride is narcissistic and that you're a good person if you suppress it but wouldn't that neuter you, is the left hand path really that evil? It's silly but I balance between imageboards and the world, missing the other if I had to choose one. If my post in the thread was the last no one would bother reading the thread, the point of making a post is for it to be read so why post it anyway, if everything is for attention does that make someone vain, maybe that's why some monks and priests took vows of silence. I hate loneliness in myself and others because it brings out loathsome traits such as self-pity and desperation, you must punch through without caring about your own problems for the world does not care about personal issues not only out of lack of care but out of disgust, you must follow the world's rules and the world will care about you, not that this is a coherent post. Maybe I'm selfish because imageboards are my environment and the people here are well-intentioned yet truly rotten. Outsiders criticize /jp/ as a "clammy neurosis" of a community but they are from impersonal environments focused on broad subjects, conditioned to stay unfocused and focus on the wide and shapeless leviathan.


 No.43290

I have something worthwhile to post about.

I tried making some sort of new-year resolution, in an effort to use it as an opportunity to grow even stronger. Instead, I ended up writing about the various things I want and the things I hope to achieve in 2019. I ended up writing a lot more than I thought I would. It turns out that going over one's own wishes is pretty fun.

I tried my best to make them stand on the boundary of impossible and possible. A notable entry in the list is "I will master the basics of 50 different skills". I don't even have any idea what those skills would be or how I'd go about mastering them, but I do know that 50 skills which I have not mastered clearly do exist, and if I worked on one every week, I'd have two weeks to spare before the next year starts.

You should try it too. You might learn something about yourself.


 No.43295

File: df3afe719edd1f1⋯.jpg (166.85 KB, 924x675, 308:225, df3afe719edd1f103abf28cc71….jpg)

I think I'm going to die soon.


 No.43296

I The Flatterer

II The Complaisant Man

III The Surly Man

IIII The Arrogant Man

V The Ironical Man

VI The Boastful Man

VII The Man of Petty Ambition

VIII The Late-Learner

VIIII The Unseasonable Man

X The Officious Man

XI The Unpleasant Man

XII The Offensive Man

XIII The Stupid Man

XIIII The Boor

XV The Shameless Man

XVI The Reckless Man

XVII The Gross Man

XVIII The Garrulous Man

XVIIII The Chatty Man

XX The Gossip

XXI The Evil-Speaker

XXII The Grumbler

XXIII The Distrustful Man

XXIIII The Penurious Man

XXV The Mean Man

XXVI The Avaricious Man

XXVII The Coward

XXVIII The Superstitious Man

XXVIIII The Oligarch

XXX The Patron of Rascals

Six walks of life. Why did I even bother with the tarot?


 No.43297

>>43296

What exactly did you expect?


 No.43298

>>43295

I don't love you but I don't not care about you (English is restrictive).


 No.43299

File: 0f7f3f68587c5b2⋯.png (170.46 KB, 588x385, 84:55, feeling-not-comfy.png)

I have a runny nose. It feels like there so many cum deep inside my nostril and It also goes at the back of my throat. I'm currently out of med to get rid of it. What should I do now? I wish there's an alternative way to cure this.


 No.43300

>>43297

I heard that the tarot was meant to represent the lifetime of a person, and I thought that it could maybe even be sorted into logical "paths" or segments of a life if they were grouped in a logical order that accounts for the historical context of the cards. So I kind of screwed around with different orders, and questioning the names or the interpretation of the cards which adds up to that stupid, uneven number 21.

But I instead found a way easier way to do that with this obscure categorisation of peoples' personalities some guy wrote years ago and it actually works really well. Doesn't qualify for anything special or occult just because it's old, but I think it works out really well when I sort them like this. Or maybe that's just some dumb desperation on my part, I don't know.


 No.43301

>>43295

Hope you're not losing the will to survive because of some pussy "made it to 2019!" thing. With that said, hang in there, I guess.


 No.43306

>>43299

>What should I do now?

Softly spit out anything currently accessible with your mouth alone. Do not try to cough more out, suck more down your nose, or forcefully blow. Only get out what you can softly.

If you're desperate to clear it out a little more, you're okay with a little suffering, and your environment is fairly clean enough to NOT have sinuses in, then try spicy/hot stuff like hotsauce. That will cause it to flow free enough to clear it out for a moment at least.

Then drink a lot of liquids, cover yourself well to sweat a bunch, and sleep it off.

Remember to shower later. Really hot for the start the majority, then slowly shift to cold. Get out while only slightly shivering, not crazy uncomfortable. Good for the immune system and stuff, also prevents that after shower chill from hot alone as well as the severe discomfort from cold alone.

If you're desperate to stay functional and active then meds might be a good option. Or other limited substances, but whatever.


 No.43307

File: 71f1fe14481c538⋯.jpg (310.3 KB, 1601x750, 1601:750, 06e809c8980918ccc1f265c0bc….jpg)


 No.43308

>>43306

Thanks doctor jp, I had a miso soup with spicy ingredient in it and it felt good after having the treat. I need to drink more water and hopefully it drain out all the mucus overtime.


 No.43309

Its together?

Or its ``not together'' as HELL?

A kind heart echo in the 風

And many anon with 心 full of LOVE is ``jaded'' as HELL

Ahh そう

What was it again?

Part of something, which meant nothing, but felt like Everything...

This, its the song echo back in a MOST きれい as HELL lake if some lonely Anon does glance in those gentle waves for longest enough..........

"I remember love"

Its 3 time.

Bloody Mary.

I remember love squared, plus one.

And it appear! In a yume, but then we DID wake up in MOST unsettled conditions................

Ahh...it appears, these many thought of poetic magenta frosting, were not a genjitsu...

In fact, they DID seem in a reality for a moment, buts its all yume.

Whats it reality? If you can be a Hegel scholar as HELL? Or a zen masters? Or perhaps, its just require a simple intuition.

It may be the reality, was simply, the very last traces of those dreamlike days.

But, its important for rememberance, /jp/.../jp/...hitori jaanai... (◡‿◡)

Please remembrance:

AH, its a quagmires of MANY dimensional THINKING POWER!

Even we stare at the windows, and its nothing for us to miteru, except A HUNDRED DAY OF RAIN........... Forever in the rain...?

Its MANY ANGSTS!!

Its mANY MOST INCREDULOUS OBSTACLE FOR CONTINUING! LIKE MAO F*GIN LONG MARCH!!!!

Demo ne...

Even, today is painful, /jp/. Tomorrow its painful? Maybe, a lot of this time its painful. Please warmly waiting. The pain, someday it will become a warm memory... if you free your heart

Today's lucky item:.............................

............................................................

................................................................

.............................................you!

Please loving yourself.

Not in onahole.笑


 No.43311

>>43309

i resonate with this on a spiritual level


 No.43313

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

Musical feel of the night, I'm too lazy to shitpost the lyrics across messageboards this time. Not /jp/ material but I like it


 No.43314

File: 2d05261b6cc4c10⋯.jpg (112.71 KB, 1000x1194, 500:597, prut.jpg)

Not my kind of thing, but I'm concerned with how much I like this image.


 No.43315

>>43314

why is that?


 No.43316

>>43315

Maybe it'll be difficult to differentiate between the things I love and the things I hate.


 No.43317

>>43316

You like blind girls? That's strange. However, it's understandable to hate neptune shit.


 No.43318

>>43317

I hate human suffering, but this character loosk beautiful when she's like that. If I develop a taste for guro, it'll conflict with my eternal distaste for guro. Thus the dilemma.


 No.43319

>>43318

Oh okay. I'm sorry. I said something needlessly cruel just to shit on the Neptunia series, which I regard as a bad form of entertainment. But you pure words have reminded me that I also hate human suffering.But at the same time a part of me desires it.


 No.43320

>>43318

You always end up loving things you hate, embrace it.


 No.43321

>>43320

What if I hate jews?


 No.43322

>>43316

At least you have things that you feel passion for, regardless of if it's positive or negative. Because that's the hard part. From there you should be able to figure out on a more personal level whether or not the thing in question is something desirable/positive or undesirable/negative. Even if you cannot discern by feeling, you should be able to discern through reasoning.

>>43320

Not always. But things you feel passion for can indeed swap back and forth between love and hate, often causing both emotions at the same time. That is okay and normal.

It is possible to hate something without loving it, same as loving something without hating it. But that is also not always the case.


 No.43323

A character present in my dream crossed the line. That line isn't meant to be crossed by anyone, real or fake. I don't even want to go into detail. I'm not angry or sad or confused, but I feel violated.


 No.43324

>>43323

Sorry to hear that, that must have been upsetting. What do you suspect does this mean?


 No.43325

>>43324

It reminded me of those things which I hold so close to my heart. Ironically enough, the very thing the character did was speak of those events as though they were a mistake and that I should forget about them. It could also symbolize a certain level of emotional vulnerability in me, but that can be a good thing.


 No.43326

>>43325

Maybe it symbolizes a certain part of you being doubtful about the things you care about?


 No.43339

File: bbcf1dabc28451e⋯.jpg (47.41 KB, 720x720, 1:1, 354407255293319.jpg)

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 No.43340

File: 1098f6648a20d61⋯.png (5.76 KB, 640x480, 4:3, oekaki.png)


 No.43349

File: 5e20139b96a976c⋯.png (2.82 MB, 1920x1080, 16:9, mpc-hc64_2019-01-09_08-07-….png)


 No.43350

This week, I'm learning about flash. Playing dumb flash games and watching weird flash videos were a defining part of my early days on the internet. And yet, back then I never bothered to wonder how such things work and how they are made.

I guess I'm a little late to get into it, but it's better than remaining ignorant on something that entertained my younger self so much.


 No.43351

>>43350

It's a little late, dude. Flash has always been considered a security hazard, but nowadays it's actually dead. Probably going to become incompatible with modern browsers like Java did a while back. Well, hopefully.

I wouldn't touch anything made with flash outside of an offline-only VM.


 No.43352

What are some fun ways to get myself to study more?

Probably I just need to open the damn book tbh


 No.43353

>>43350

Funny, I just started chasing an open-source flash animation program. You wouldn't happen to know any, would you?

>>43351

Flash isn't dead, you just don't get it on every single website anymore. I can name more than one new swf files I've seen created lately.


 No.43356

>>43352

Same.


 No.43368

While trying to read manga in Japanese, I became aware of the fact that the names of special abilities which some characters have are written as a bunch of kanji together, even if the name of the ability in question is actually something which should be written in katakana. I find that to be pretty cool.

I should try to use kanji to define that 'special power' I believed I had in my first chuuni phase. That could be fun, and also expand my knowledge of Japanese.


 No.43369

>>43368

That's a tradition that goes back to the Chinese language. Tthe Chinese, unlike the Japanese, didn't have the decency to ever invent a purely phonetic script which is why you come across really bizarre words like 亜米利加 (a-me-ri-ca). Those sorts of spelllings are called "当て字". Don't know if it's called the same way when you come up with just any homophone, rather than a loan word though.

Try to come up with something cool, and come up with a forced transliteration with some words you found in a dictionary. You don't even need to make sure the reading's semantically correct, nobody's going to complain.


 No.43371

I'm starting to get a little fat. I think I'll buy a treadmill.


 No.43372

>>43371

Stay hydrated.

>>43369

>>43368

According to japanese cartoons alot of japanese biker gangs and delinquents do this kind of stuff of writing their own names in needlessly complicated kanjis. Appearently they think it's cool.


 No.43373

>>43371

Treadmills fuck up your feet by walking on a flat surfaces, shoes too.


 No.43376

>>43373

It should be okay if I walk with shoes on the treadmill, right?


 No.43377

Making this post so I can actually get off of my ass and do it:

Expect a new messageboard at ever-green.bbs (no time) SOON!


 No.43379

>>43377

Why? Around what topics?

I really should at least make a list of dead backup boards, but they're just so inactive that I doubt they'd draw in any people even in a doomsday board failure of some sort.


 No.43381

Does anyone remember the name of a youtube channel that did instructional touhou videos where the annotations were done like a dialogue between the player and the editor? Youtube annotations are disappearing tomorrow so I want to record a couple of them.


 No.43382

>>43381

Annotations still exist? I haven't been able to get them to work in almost 2 years while still blocking ads, so I completely forgot about them.


 No.43384

>>43379

I heard some shit may or may not be going on with 8ch in the near future, and shiptoasting makes a less-than-adequate bnker board.


 No.43387

>>43376

Foot or shoe it doesn't matter, treadmills are flat surfaces and the lack of variety for your knee joints will wear them out and holding the arm rests isn't how human were meant to walk leading to bad form. Although it doesn't really matter, cardio is bad for your, dairy is bad for you, stressing your heart out with bench-pressing and weight-lifting can be bad for you, just keep that in mind and don't overdo it or use it at a steeper incline.


 No.43388

>>43384

ur COCK is less-than-adequate lmao




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