/kind/ - Random Acts of Kindness

Lost my virginity in second grade to a girl who my friend also lost his v card too at around the same age/time

>>24267

Normalfriends should get off imageboards and enjoy their active social/sex/work lives rather than coming here to complain about confessions of adult virginity.

I guess this works as a confession too. I get annoyed when I see people shitting on others for expressing their despair or describing their current situation. I get it, you feel superior because you haven't ended up as a KHV, a NEET, a hikki, or whatever, good for you, but anonymous imageboards attract large numbers of these kinds of people, especially boards like this. You should probably find somewhere else to hang out if this kind of thing bothers you or makes you cringe, otherwise you'll be cringing 24/7 and that can't be good for you.

>>24267

>>>/unkind/

>>24275

I don't think it's very /kind/ to put other people down for their flaws, mistakes, or unfortunate circumstances just to boost your own self-esteem. Why would anyone want to confess anything if they see that they're just going to be shat on by bullyposters like they would if this was any other board?

You can claim it's all a big joke and all in good fun, but I think there's a good chance that anyone in a really bad place looking for some /kind/ness won't see it that way and will take it to heart. I am admittedly projecting my own feelings.

It's best to report and hide bully posters.

>>24268

>a KHV

A what?

>>24315

Kiss-less (Hand-hold-less?) Virgin

I raped my first and only girlfriend. The worst part is that we developed a toxic co-dependent relationship, and even tho i would like to leave, I'm afraid she's goin to tell what I did.

>>24315

What >>24332 said, it's to distinguish virgins who have at least had some experience(s) with girls and girlfriends before from those who have not. A virgin even to kissing and holding hands.

>>24284

I agreee

I… I have some issues.

So for starters my entire life as long as I remember has been run by depression and some form of social anxiety disorder. Thats almost a prerequisite for even going on an imageboard but I figure I might as well mention it.

I'm suprisingly not a virgin, I've had sex and made out a couple times, theres more to it but that comes later.

So recently some shit happened. Hung out with an old friend who I am somewhat attracted to. I've told myself a million times that I wont try to have sex with her because if I fail stuff will be wierd between us and if I suceed stuff will get wierd.

So we got high, walked around, talked about stuff and me, being retarded asked if she wanted to bang. She says no and we talk about stuff for a while and I ask if I can feel her boobs, she says yes and so I do, we kiss a couple times, hold eachother and we end it, she drops me off at my house. On the ride back I keep asking her if what we did was okay, she keeps telling me i was higher than she was and that its fine. I have doubts the whole time, keep asking her, she keeps telling me its okay.

The next day she says shes fine about it and I apologize and tell her I feel terrible about it.

Fast forward to now and shes not talking to me, I'm very broken up about it because she hasnt really explained whats going on.

I'm pretty sure I fucked up big time and Ill have to deal with losing my closest IRL friend, I dont know, Im a pessimist.

The other thing that came up that I realized is that I have some complex about my sexuality. I hate it, I hate my sexuality a lot. I think about cutting my dick off a lot more than the average person should. Every time I have an encounter I deal with overwhelming guilt for doing anything regardless of how well it went or how close I was. I have trouble enjoying masturbation most of the time.

I feel like a monster, I really don't think I want to continue living like this.

>>24366

Close as in how close I am emotionally to that person.

>>24259

HOT AS FUCK!!

HOW OLD WAS SHE?

>>24261

Get a hot sexy slutty teen/tween like >>24259 did. Fuck disgusting wymynz over 19.

>>24267

Monster. What are you doing here?

>sees later posts

No Johns!

>>24337

What the fuck? You RAPED HER? And then she BECAME YOUR GIRLFRIEND? What?!

>>24366

Nigga, fucking go see her and ask. Also, if you hate your sexuality so much, fucking bury it and don't jack off if you don't like jacking off.

My Confession

I spent the first quarter of the year after the horrible thing happened to me being completely depressed as fuck.

In April, I started to make repairs to my life, but could never replace the only thing that mattered.

The summer was nice, but the paranoia was so real. I worry what people think of me. I worry if people suspect what's partially true.

Then fall hit, and I started some new pursuits. And by this point, I had a decent stable of new friends. Still have them.

Then suddenly it's December, and I've done nothing to fight back against those whom have wronged me. I can't make time for anything important, and I'm running away from my problems at the worst possible time. I'm on a clock. If I don't act soon and at least try to draw out my accusers to face me, I'm almost as bad as they are for being a coward like they are, albeit to a much smaller degree. If I wait much longer, the year ends, my love grows a year older without me having any chance to see her and without me having even tried adequately. And I soon grow a year older, too, my chances growing smaller at the same time.

I want to puke right now just thinking about it.

I've been pretending to go to college for 4 months, soon my dad will find out and I dont know what to do, im not even sure if I should be worried because the plan was to go to sleep before january 1st but im feeling better know. All I do is drive around, park in empty lots and watch anime on my phone, sometimes I walk in local parks.

Another one is im starting to truly hate whats left of my family, bunch of useless hypocrites, im just pretending for the day that I need them but the desire to be a self sufficient adult alone might be enough to finally do something with my life.

>>24407

>go to sleep

Didnt know the filter changed that too but I kind of agree with it, a deep and eternal sleep is all I wanted.

>>24413

Come on anon, all girls have rape fantasies anyway ;^)

Seriously though, they do and with all the sjwism going around im sure even males definition of rape has changed, he probably just forcefully kissed her or something like that. Id be shitting my pants too, if she can prove it our friend will get his life ruined.

I tore my foreskin, now I have to be super careful when taking a piss.

>>24417

Well, this IS a confession thread; confessing implies guilt on some level. So anon hopefully feels bad about dping that.

>>24424

How did you do that? I want to make sure I don't make the same mistake. :^<

>>24413

>>24415

>>24417

Nah, it was an actual rape. I felt guilty after the action, so I stayed cuddling with her, trying to confort her, lots of tears…

To my surprise, she didnt report, but I visited her every single day of the next 3 weeks, because I felt guilty, but also because I was a shitting my pants…anyhow, we bonded(in these visits I tried to portray myself as a decent person) and became boyfriend and girlfriend.

>>24466

Just remember to take it easy; life is not a race.

>>24633

We already knew each other, went to the same uni…I didnt do it in the street anon lol.

>>24634

I do the same thing, and I already discussed this in other chans…I don't think it's that uncommon, anon.

Btw, why so many animufriends in this board? Nothing against it, just wanna know.

>>24634

Hell yeah, I do that too. I don't have the storytelling skills or the desire to really make it very elaborate, but I often fantasize about how I might fit into a story somehow.

Erotic self-insert fantasies are probably the most common.

I'd be okay with hearing some of your adventures, could be fun.

>>24634

I'm envious of your imagination, keep on dreaming dream bro

I spent much time during our downtime bullyposting on 420chan…

>>24366

You hate that you're a guy who likes girls? I really hope you can someday accept who you are and be okay with it, even if it takes a while to get there. Doesn't help that a fuckton of media tries to make men ashamed for simply being men. Sorry shit's rough, anon.

I grabbed my girlfriends face during an argument with my brother. She got super upset and said that reminded her of her abusive dad and ex. When I went to talk to her she cried a little and then said it was fine.

I was so broken up about it that I couldn't stop apologizing and crying about it like a little bitch. She ended up saying that it wasn't even that big a deal and that she only pretended to cry and get upset in order to make me feel guilty. She thought I'd give her hugs and kisses not turn into self-flagellating wreck. She only wanted attention she said.

She ended up apologizing for lying but I'm not even sure why she was lying or even if she was lying.

I feel so ashamed on two levels, grabbing her face and crying in front of her.

>>24405

>horrible thing happened to me

What horrible thing anon? Was it a breakup or the loss of a loved one?

>nothing to fight back against those whom have wronged me

You need to man up, do whatever you must do to make yourself feel strong. Draw inspiration from famous historical figures, go and confront them.

You know I find helps? Realizing your enemies are the worthless scum of the earth and you are better then them. They are lying whores that don't deserve a modicum of your time but you will not tolerate being lied about. You go to them, put your foot down and demand they confess.

I kicked my brothers cat when it was only 10 months old, its 7 now. Dont know why I did it, it was hissing at me for no reason so I kind of got mad. Later I punched it really hard because it was walking on my desktop and at that time he liked to pee everywhere, he'd already peed on half my college books and pillows. I feel bad because now its always scared of me and looks stressed. Poor kitty, I fucked him up early in life just like bullies fucked me up.

>>24929

I did something similar to a couple of my pets when I was younger. I stopped, and mellowed out as I got older. Told a friend of mine this, and they told me I wasn't a fucked up piece of shit because I regretted what I did. Didn't make any sense to me, but maybe it does to you.

>>24909

> reflexively using emotional manipulation when she's upset

Time for some real talk.

If you don't put your foot down on this behavior, it WILL get worse.

She WILL eventually evolve into crying and lying to make you buy her things, guilt trip you into not having friends, into becoming a shell of your former self.

Just like a dog, you need to establish boundaries or you will be shat upon.

Or just DTB (Dump That Bitch) if you're not yet man enough to make that happen.

>>24932

>reflexively

The fact that she said she wanted a specific reaction from him leads me to believe that there was too much thought put into the action for it to be simply a reflex. I only nitpick because it seems like a way to excuse the manipulation. Because she's just a dumb dog, right?

>She WILL

Assumptions.

>You need to man up

>if you're not yet man enough to make that happen

This is how men manipulate other men, I guess.

Based on what he said, and if he was actually asking for advice, I would have just suggested that he leave the relationship entirely because no one should have to deal with that kind of treatment, 'real man' or not.

>>24933

>The fact that she said she wanted a specific reaction from him leads me to believe that there was too much thought put into the action for it to be simply a reflex.

That'd be true if she were male. But women are far more adept at "thinking without thinking", you could say. The power of emotional intelligence.

By the way, all people are dumb dogs. If you don't believe me, go watch a season of Dog Whisperer, then try some of those exact same techniques on people. You'd be surprised how often it works. It'll also kill your soul a little. Or perhaps a lot.

>Assumptions.

Just like the sun rising next morning is an "assumption". It cannot be logically nor reasonably proven that the sun will rise next morning, therefore we should not rely on it to like it did the last 1.4 trillion times.

>This is how men manipulate other men, I guess.

Of course. The quickest and most effective means to get people to do what you want (aside from threats of violence) is via ridicule. It just works. It's in our genes. Different techniques work on different people. For example, call into question a man's unmanliness like suggesting he is a friendgot or a virgin will trigger a primordial response that goes in the brain in less time than a fingersnap: "if I am acting like this which made the other party question my sexuality, then others might think so too, such as women, those I am hardwired into the life goal of impregnating to pass on my genes. So I better quit it right quick or I have failed at existence!" So by taking advantage of this natural tendency one can often MANipulate with ease, especially with practice.

Women though are far better at it for obvious reasons, as depending on tjat man's self-perceived tribal status you very well may instead trip the following: "You dare step up to me? You dare threaten my status, my hard earned ability to pass on my genes to every worthy female in my line of vision? I should crush you where you stand before you interfere with my nature-given privilege!" Which, as you can understand, could be quite dangerous.

>>24932

>>24933

>>24936

>Time for some real talk

I've heard this from a few other people I told this to. So perhaps I should. I guess I just feel powerless in a way because I don't want to seem abusive or controlling. But I also don't want to be a pussy or a shell of a man.

>the problem with escalate

She's never done anything like before. I met her in January this year and we've been official since June. She's never guilt tripped me before. I don't know why she did now.

I know she is absolutely terrified at the idea of losing me, she tried to force me into promising that I'd never leave her / break up with her I wasn't even going to break up with her, but she thought because I have such a huge sense of honor that I'd leave her over the face grabbing thing by pressing the question over and over until she started trying to have sex with me and I just gave in. We fucked and I promised.

>leave the relationship over that kind of treatment

Do you mean for what I did or for what she did?

I appreciate your advice friends.

bump

>>24634

Holy shit! i thought i was the only one who did that. Hell i still kind of do that. I even like to make concept playlists about some of my fantasies.

>>25944

> concept play lists

My curiosity. It is piqued.

>>24240

Confessions ? Alright then.

I'm doing things I wouldn't normally do to get a girl to like me by being especially likeable to her. I have genuinely no idea if that's just standard seductive operation or if it's downright sentimental manipulation.

>>25977

Dont worry about it, they do that sort of crap too so its fair game.

Nothing too big but I was completely destroyed in an argument and laughed at because I let my opponent anger me. I feel really stupid because of that.

About 6 months ago, my dad was killed in a motorbike accident. I feel bad because all I can think about is how sad I am because I'm single. It feels like I didn't care about him enough.

Since 2016 began, I've burned bridges with everyone I live with. When I was suicidal in the past, I emotionally maipulated everyone I got very close with suicide threats. I didn't mean to do it, but I'm over that now.

But here, this is my confession: I regret nothing.