/kind/ - Random Acts of Kindness

>>28573

Porn is never kind.

>>28666

Lemme give you a little tidbit, Satan.

No one can be happy all the time. Hell, most people aren't happy most of the time. But they keep on keeping on because there are those brief moments that bring them joy. We look forward because we hope that we'll see another beautiful snowfall, play another great game with friends, eat at your favorite hole in the wall next week, listen to that album again, relax in the bath after another long weekend, or laugh at the stupidest jokes that you've heard a thousand times.

But every day you trudge through the monotonous muck and mire in quiet sorrow, and wallow in spite at another person, is another day you've put off finding something that makes you happy. But it's also another point of contrast that brightens up even the dimmest of lights.

You don't have to seize the sun to find a source of bright, happy light. Start small. Appreciate the morning hours of daylight. Laugh at a terrible joke or two. Listen to your favorite album. Take time out of every day to seek the bright things in your life. Try something new! Pick up a hobby, and stick with it if you find it fun, or drop it if you don't.

You might get discouraged along the way. You'll never find something like that, you'll say. It won't get better, and things will just continue as they have been. Well you're wrong there. Where do you have left to go when you reach the bottom? You can walk its endless floor, or you can kick off to what's above you. Mind you, gravity will pull you back down. But each time you jump your legs get a little stronger, and eventually you'll find yourself far above the ground. Just remember that you have to come back down, only to jump up again.

In short, friend, baby steps. Start small, and be patient. You have decades to reach the top.

t. A guy who struggled with depression for years when drugs, shrinks, and religion never worked

>>28691

>No one can be happy all the time. Hell, most people aren't happy most of the time. But they keep on keeping on because there are those brief moments that bring them joy. We look forward because we hope that we'll see another beautiful snowfall, play another great game with friends, eat at your favorite hole in the wall next week, listen to that album again, relax in the bath after another long weekend, or laugh at the stupidest jokes that you've heard a thousand times.

No I understand that's what life is like for everyone. It sucks and then you die and most people do exactly what you said.

I don't though. I haven't felt happiness in years. Not from snowfalls, not from games, not from food, not from music even if I think it's fantastic (I love music. I create my own but I don't feel happy doing it. I just do it to escape my shitty thoughts.), not from baths or hot tubs, not from stupid jokes or even retarded copypasta on the internet that even if I laugh at, I don't feel happy.

Maybe I do feel happy from some of these things but I don't know what it feels like to be happy. I just don't get it.

>Where do you have left to go when you reach the bottom? You can walk its endless floor, or you can kick off to what's above you. Mind you, gravity will pull you back down. But each time you jump your legs get a little stronger, and eventually you'll find yourself far above the ground. Just remember that you have to come back down, only to jump up again.

Sounds like what I've been doing for the past decade, except I only wander the endless floor and the gravity is due to a black hole; you never escape. I know part of it is due to unconditional/genetic/physical issues with my brain that haven't been solved, but even if they were I don't think I could make that jump to reach out of the bottom. I don't know how to jump that high if that makes sense.

>Gotta have a little sadness once in awhile so you know when the good times come; I'm waiting on the good times now.

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The most important realization to have is that happiness is a natural state of being it must not be forced and there is such a thing as 100% happiness without any pain or suffering. There are many who are proof of this, but to pretend you are happy when you are deeply miserable is to deny the very circumstances that have brought you away from happiness (most likely people who are running away from their feelings too) the best thing you can do is remove yourself from these toxic people as swiftly and cleverly as possible as they can also be hostile with envy when they discover there is someone who has more than them. Sad, I know, but it doesn't have to be this way. You can be a hero by standing up for your own happiness and that will quickly spread happiness to those you love. Peace and namaste. I hope this has helped.

>>28740

>try setting up small goals for yourself and promise rewards after you finish. It should help orient your focus towards the future and positively reinforce your approach through having something nice afterwards. Try not to see the task as a hassle, but focus on the reward after. You've described the wait as endless, but by starting with little things with perfectly achievable goals and clear and near immediate rewards it will help your defeatist attitude.

I used to be able to play complicated fingerstyle songs on the guitar. I've been trying to relearn the ability, but it's just frustrating instead. I used to be a 10k runner almost every day, but then I got fat largely from medication issues.

It feels pathetic to set goals like "just pick up the guitar at all" or "just try to go run again at all." I've had therapists say stuff like this to me and it just embarrassed me. I guess I expect too much out of myself?

>But I have a hard time believing that there's nothing that makes you happy, or that you don't know what it feels like to be happy.

I guess that's true to some extent. I remember being happy on opiates. That's probably the only thing I can remember that makes me happy. Everything else is just a distraction.

I don't want to be an opiate addict though. I just remember trying them and remember feeling actually happy.

> but what do you mean by your physical/mental issues?

whining incoming.

I have had depression, anxiety, and derealization (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization) issues since i was maybe 11 or 12. I have tried so many medications and none of them help, and recently I had something else pop up on me that just made all the other problems worse and now I'm basically unable to leave my house or work and my doctor sucks and thinks I'm full of shit just because I'm not an idiot and know how medPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>28783 (continued)

What I'm looking for is PROFESSIONAL, SPECIALIST help, and I have no idea where to go to get it because I have little specific idea about what the hell is wrong (or right?) with me except vague symptoms and nameless negative (neutral/posititve?) emotions and desires like:

>All my life I've felt like I were wrong to my very core, like I don't belong in this society/on this planet. My values, wants, needs, and such are completely at odds with those around me; they don't understand mine and I don't understand theirs.

>I don't know how to lead a conversation.

>I often feel an overwhelming urge to create things, anything from writing to drawing to animating to singing to sculpting to painting…

>I can't reconcile the want to belong and the want to be left alone; this cognitive dissonance makes my brain hurt if I try to dwell on it.

>I find interacting with people beyond the superficial (e.g., grocery store clerks or passing by a coworker) for long leaves me mentally and emotionally drained and I can only recover by sitting quietly and doing 'nothing' in seculsion for a while, and if I don't get my alone time I start going neurotic and short-tempered.

>I have nasty and violent fantasies about people who slight me.

>People keep ignoring and talking over me, then asking "wat's wrong?" and "y so quiet?"

>I hate myself. I don't want to live anymore. Why? See above.

And so forth.

Who's to say if some of the things I've listed are actual "defects" in my being or are just personality traits/quirks that are incompatible (or I just don't know how to make them work "correctly") with the surrounding society I just so happened to be born in and need to learn ways to route around them like two pieces of electronics that have no way to connect on their own so need an "adapter" of some sort?

>>28765

States and districts have guidelines on this, yes. As far as the philosophy behind it goes, I don't know.

A proactive & engaged parent > the most well trained teacher

>>28765

>Don't they have guidelines about how to deal with cases like this?

Mine didn't.

I'll say no more to avoid opening those old wounds.

In many states the guideline is to beat them.

It's okay to beat kids in those states as apparently children aren't human there yet.

So I guess if you are in the south you just do that.

If not try get the child's parents involved to determine the best course of action on a case by case basis.

>>28781

I'm surprised corporal punishment (or whatever it's called) is still a thing anywhere in the US these days. People make a fuss over hearing their parents have spanked their kid a single time anymore from what I hear. -but yeah, that's screwed up to hit someone for something they can't help.

164 hours of hard cardio left this year!

I want to read SICP. I know nothing of computer science but I'm told SICP is the best way to start. It is very difficult though.

>>28010

>maybe,,, ask my best friend out who I have had a crush on for a while? he's super cute and nice,,,

Good luck friend! Did you ask him out?

>>28757

>I have no damn clue what to do with my life anymore

I know that feel, broseidon god of the brocean.

I've turned my back on video games, I'm more or less done with heavy metal and music in general, I keep losing the will to try and teach myself Japanese because I'm still a huge weeb but I barely watch anything anymore, I spend most of my time not working on pointless waste of time sites like this instead of dealing with the huge pile of dishes and such which just feeds my depression.

The only thing that I've been doing with myself is keeping myself from going crazy/depressed while trying to not be a fatass anymore.

>Will Jogging Make My Muscles Disappear?

What kind of idiot asks this? If people are so desperate to become like their fallen idol zyzz they should get on roids without asking silly questions.

>>28758

Screencap your recommended videos on jewtoob or wherever else has recommended things so we can all share… something. I dunno, just another template thread so we can be all cozy and chummy with each other. Damn does that sound gay. *wink*

>>28771

>What kind of idiot asks this?

There is a huge number of weightlifters, powerlifters, etc. who don't do cardio and think it "killz gainz".

No seriously, Scooby alone has made dozens of videos and articles trying his damnedest to debunk it! Look at Scooby's pecs, his abs, his traps, his quads, etc., and know he's been doing like 5-15 hours hard cardio a week for over 30 years. Considering Scooby has piss-poor muscle-building genetics (took him 10-20 years to reach his natty genetic potential), that alone should be enough. But it isn't.

My guess is fat powerlifters and other /fit/ards are just lazy excuse-seekers and/or like you said, emulating some roider who died of a heart attack in his early 20's because he only cared about aesthetics, not health.

I just want to be happy. And my happiness is impacted by whether or not I can make others happy.

So maybe caring about other's feelings is selfishness. I don't care deeply however. I'm not gonna cry cuz anon is stuck as a NEET. But I will tell them to fighto and keep fighting and keep trying.

At the end of the day all we can do is keep trying.

Just be happy anon. I hope your today is OK and your tomorrow is brighter.

>>28776

Since this is an image board (i.e., autist central) I know my between-the-lines point is going to go right over pretty much all y'all's heads so I'll say it straight without sarcasm:

The giving kind of person, is almost always rewarded by someone who is taking.

That is, they'll just see you as a Nice Guy, and use their l33t social skillz to butter you up just enough to turn you into their unwitting personal doormat.

When you find out it will devastate you. It will emotionally distress and possibly destroy your trust in others if it happens often.

Source: me, a former giver who has hardened up with walls of ice and resentment around his heart who would love nothing more than to open up his heart once more but is paralyzed by fear and memory of what has happened so often when I do so.

You want cute?

The last 4-5 eps of Nichijou will do it.

>>28699

exercise is placebo

>>28700

>Things like cognitive behavioral therapy are not placebos or meditations, though.

>If you continuously steer your thoughts in a certain direction, you actively "re-wire" the brain by strengthening connections and associations.

But I do not want to rewire me. I do not want to be "fixed" persistently. I only want to have option to temporary be able to do important stuff. Like one day a week. Or 2 hours a day. So magic pill drug fits better.

>Today I need to work on a task that is important to me.

>I am afraid of mental and physical fatigue from effort. But I know that this fear is not well-founded. I know that the fatigue will not kill me, and I know that it is temporary.

But my fear is well-founded. When I do some tasks (physical or mental) I am then exhausted for days or weeks.

I am even afraid to do things like potato peeling because I know I will just lose energy that I could use in better way.

>Mindfulness means constantly reminding yourself of these things when you are in the moment.

Won't work. Only makes me feel bad for not able to do things.

>When you feel like you cannot continue because you are not getting instant gratification, try to make yourself aware of the present. Then make a conscious decision to continue.

I am unable to make conscious decisions. I do not choose tasks I do. The tasks choose what to do with me. I need a drug that allows you to choose tasks that you do.

>>28713

>I found this website more useful

Actually I did visit those websites Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>28719

>But I do not want to rewire me. I do not want to be "fixed" persistently. I only want to have option to temporary be able to do important stuff. Like one day a week. Or 2 hours a day. So magic pill drug fits better.

Why wouldn't you want to be "fixed" when even something as simple as potato peeling is exhausting for you? Improving yourself and becoming a better person does not mean losing yourself.

There are no magic drugs, all of them come with side-effects that are at least as bad as their benefit is good.

>Won't work. Only makes me feel bad for not able to do things.

You haven't tried, you admitted that already.

>>28719

>exercise is placebo

You think so, do you?

Would you like to prove it?

I challenge you: 20 minutes HARD cardio (and by that I mean you being huffy and puffy for the full 20 minutes [warmups and cooldowns don't count: the timer begins when you start sucking wind], you can barely speak aloud 3-4 words before you have to take another breath, and when you get home its difficult to peel off your sweat-soaked shirt), every single day for one month. No skipping, no excuses ("wah my legs hurt" -> you get used to it; "wah I don't have the time" -> you're here long enough to type up your big ass replies, you have plenty of time; "this won't help" -> I know it will, so do it to prove me wrong), get out there and get it done.

http://scoobysworkshop.com/cardio/

http://scoobysworkshop.com/2010/08/14/importance-of-cardio-cardiovascular-exercise

Get out of here and make something other than excuses for once in your life.

That "something" being you, not that sad sack of fat and social dysfunction that's taken you over and leaving you a worthless waste of space who wants drugs (the pussy way out) to "fix" himself because he's too big a bitch to do hard work.

So throw out that internet-addicted sadsack cunt and get running/cycling/jump-roping, because you can be a sick cunt if you wanna be. Man cannot make himself without suffering, for he is both the marble and the sculptor.

You know what, forget anything I said. After reading more of your whining, you're just another attention whore bitching about your White People Problems. Boo hoo. Why the fuck anyone who sucks that hard would be afraid to "lose themself" is beyond me. If I failed that hard I'd throw myself in the garbage and replace me with something better.

Hope you're having fun with everyone sucking your foreveralone cock, pissing on everyone when they give genuinely helpful advice only for you to shoot it down. I for one am done wasting time on yet another slack-jawed waste of space, on yet another crybaby pussy, on yet another worthless whiny bitch.

As you are, you will never amount to anything.

Sage and thread hidden.

>>28720

>Why wouldn't you want to be "fixed" when even something as simple as potato peeling is exhausting for you? Improving yourself and becoming a better person does not mean losing yourself.

Because my objective is not to be a potato peeler or typical person-robot that just go to work and is worker. While I can't peel potato, I can do other stuff which I do. But sometimes I need down to earth shit like potato peeling or working for money - that's for what I need drugs, so they temporary make me able to do this.

>There are no magic drugs, all of them come with side-effects that are at least as bad as their benefit is good.

Let's see, let's try.

>You haven't tried, you admitted that already.

Yes, I did, in past.

>>28722

hard cardio is dangerous, unhealthy. especially for me.

And stupid exercise only makes me fatigued for week.

>>28723

>You know what, forget anything I said. After reading more of your whining, you're just another attention whore bitching about your White People Problems. Boo hoo. Why the fuck anyone who sucks that hard would be afraid to "lose themself" is beyond me. If I failed that hard I'd throw myself in the garbage and replace me with something better.

Because I only fail at stupid down to earth stuff that stupid world forced me to do. I only want to temporary activate abilities to do that stuff. Normally I want to be as I am now and do tasks I like.

>As you are, you will never amount to anything.

Yes, so I need drugs so they temporary makes me able.

>>28756

you can definitely be heal friend in PSO2

-OP here

had some time to play built a little magic (brewing/enchanting) station in front of my house for people to use

added a plugin to limit mob spawning should cut down on lag immensely as I understand

still no clear answer if I should add mods

>>28756

Thank you heal friend for always getting us out of those huge fuck ups we cause due to our dumb mistakes.

>>28756

I feel like I could fall into that. -and being a cute girl is just icing on the cake to my image. Little healer loli knows she can never be the best or most obsessive player but her role in helping will always have been a factor to their success.

>>28768

you could also be a robo loli or a demon loli

>>28529

Oh, I read the post just now.

I'll wait some more days just in case

>>28531

Thanks. I dunno if they will or not i think it's been some weeks. I dunno.

>>28539

-actually I wanna apologize right quick, by the nature of this thread you may not have wanted any kind of particular response or questioning so I don't mean to insinuate you're calling out for help.

Have a good day Friend.

For starters, there's nothing wrong with feeling that way, so stop punishing yourself or letting others look down on you for already being in a pretty gloomy place. Secondly there IS good and light and wonder in the world, but part of getting to it is seeing the evil and shittiness for what it is so you can reject it in favor of what you really love and care about. That may include all the defeatist/nihilistic replies you may have already expected to see here, but then again those may also be people fighting the same internal battle in their own way. Peace.

A bit of a TV cliché is that everything would have just worked out if you cast aside some of your pride and asked for help. Putting aside how those characters are already respectable enough for you to like I disagree in such a hopeful safe message. As someone who has no real amount of pride I say more it's a fear of losing dignity which is a very legitimate all-around concern. If you feel like a mess and you don't see a way out there's still that much to lose for no gain. Everyone around surely knows that I'm a dreary person but when you put it into words or obvious actions that outright make a statement people inevitably judge or won't leave you alone and you cant stop them without really losing it and getting agressive and driving them off and adding a personal hurt to their lives. I already have so little connections that keep me safe, no part of that process is acceptable just to vent so that's why I'd like forgiveness for perpetuating a sorrowful atmosphere here even if only within this lone thread.

-but that's a foreword of sorts really, should I remember what I had to bitch about I'll be back. Brain problems.

>>28234

just all the games made in USA for those systems…some even have JP added also.

they are there if i wanna play them.i buy the hard copy once i beat a game or see it in a store.

i mostly just have music playing in the background while reading boards.

sometimes, i will make art or watch anime/cartoons. few times, watch a movie or work on me backlog.

last movie i saw; stay tuned

type of movies i enjoy; uhf/stay tuned/the stupids/motel hell/dark city/logan's run/milo+otis and pokemon2k

i like those type of movies.

>>27523

>ⓘ /kind/, more like /lewd/

>⚠ Disconnected from the IRC network

what do?

>>28441

Is it giving off any errors, friend? Have you tried connecting with a different IRC client?

>>28441

Some of the IRC users have been "playing" with the bot so someone in the chat commented "/kind/ more like /lewd/" because kindbot gave some very nsfw responses.

I still don't really get how to work irc. It seems annoying to me for a lot of reasons, but mostly because to close down every time my computer goes to sleep or I close my browser. There anyway to just keep it running or have it automatically open a certain chat?

>>20545

I know this is a bit late, but thank you for the source!

Walking around comfy city

Power metal that's brutal? What a rare and delicious combination!

http://tribunalrecords.bandcamp.com/album/hold-high-the-flame

Couple other decent finds from searching Power Metal on Metal Bandcamp:

http://metalbandcamp.com/2014/03/stormforge-sea-of-stone.html

http://metalbandcamp.com/2014/03/noble-beast-noble-beast.html

>>28447

>Brutal Power Metal

I have just the thing for you. This is a record that was released in 1994 in the depths of the Russian Federation in extremely limited quantities (500 or less). It's really rare but it's a fucking gem, the guitar tone fits more first wave black metal than anything and the singer sounds like the result of years in the Zone drinking vodka and having his vocal cords radiated. This LP rip kinda sucks, I'd recommend you to get it off Soulseek or something.

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