/kind/ - Random Acts of Kindness

Lost a lot of weight, improved my diet, and got fit in general in 7 months because I thought it's going to help me achieve prostate orgasm. Can't do it anyway. I'm considering stopping workouts and just do some pushups at home from time to time.

It's a huge defeat for me that exposes my poor spirituality and lack of ability to sublimate experiences.

Recently, I met someone online, and I've never felt so motivated. I'm broke, so I'm looking for work in the hopes that it will be the first step towards actually meeting this person, and eventually moving in with them.

I didn't fap in maybe about 2 weeks. Then I fapped today and yesterday. It felt really good.

>>21278

What does prostate orgasm have to do with being /fit/?

I need to make an Australian friend for a probably very selfish reason but I have no idea where to find one and how to befriend someone in first place.

>>21283

There's an entire board for australians >>>/aus/ . What's your reason for wanting to befriend an australian?

>>21285

I'd like to move out of my country for a particular set of reasons and Australia seems like one of my most feasible and realistic options so far. My reason for wanting to befriend one is so that I wouldn't be completely alone if I ever decide to and I'm able to make the jump.

>>>/aus/

I know of that board existence but from looking at that board posting style and culture I think it would be very hard for me to find someone there I could get along with.

>>21286

>I think it would be very hard for me

So you haven't even given them a chance? Well, you won't get what you want if you aren't will to put up with a little 'risk'. It's at least worth a try, so why not take a leap of faith?

I just found out yesterday that I'm going to be an uncle. It has me thinking about what the family will be like in 5 or so years. It's weird to think that my generation won't be the youngest of the family soon. I'm glad my grandmom is still alive. She'll be happy to have a great granddaughter/son.

I'm also planning to move out of the family house and making some big changes to my life, so I've been having lots of thoughts about the future.

>>21286

Come to NZ then!

>>21299

not >21286, but I've wanted to move to NZ for years. seems nice and quiet

>>21275

Recently started talking to my buddy again after a while not talking to one another. It's not that we ever fell out or anything, it's just that we were otherwise occupied and just kinda drifted for a while there.

Really glad actually, he's just about the only person I can talk to freely and naturally and I really enjoy our conversations.

Also I'm reading about battles where the English used Longbows, it's really interesting. Apparently the reason making a V shape with your two fingers is rude here is because the French promised to cut off the two fingers of any English bowman they captured during the Battle of Agincourt, but because we ended up winning despite having less numbers the soldiers all held up their fingers for banter.

>>21308

>>21309

i don't understand either of these posts

>>21323

It's probably best you ignore me anyway, both cases were pretty needless comments. I'll be sure not to flash V for Victorys should I find myself in jolly old England though.

>>21328

i understand them both now actually

'here' is england, england won the battle of agincourt. i think it became rude because maybe people started putting up their two fingers in any kind 'AVE IT' situation

>>21299

NZ was another place I had considered at first but the requirements there are much more harsher in comparison to Australia. I'm not a particularly rich person and in fact my reason for wanting to move is to improve my quality of life so unless I receive substantial help from someone who already lives in NZ my chances to be able to get in there a practically zero.

>>21279

How close do you live to each other?

>>21306

>Do I just gotta up and say it bluntly?

Maybe not too bluntly because you don't want to hurt their feelings more than necessary but you also want to be clear so it's understood you are broken up now. In other words, yes put it bluntly but try to be considerate.

Sad-blog Written by a Massive Asshole Ahead

I've started my course at university and my

expectations have been slowly crushed as the weeks roll by. I had hope that the university would finally be a physical place where I would not feel alienated due to my love of learning, my passion for philosophy and deep thought on all manner of things. My constant effort towards excellence.

Yet most the students here bemoan the lectures, shun any philosophy too trivial, neglect any philosophy too 'deep' and hold no passion for the examination of anything deemed 'silly'. If I criticise them, or at least encourage them to step up to the challenge, they simply claim I'm insulting them or they silently go on - disheartened. Sometimes I swear they hear different words than the ones I am speaking - cherrypicking those that sound like insults or believing there's some hidden jab behind every benign sentence. Why are they all so insecure? Am I doing this to them? Then why do they fall back instead of working to improve?

Ultimately I know the problem rests in myself. I've lead an easy enough life having breezed through school, I've been tempered by the fires of the internet hate machine and I'm content with who I am. I like to believe I carry at least some of the accrued wisdom of the internet.

I'm critical, unyielding and unrepentant. I've worked to be tactful, gentler and kinder, but I feel that to truly integrate with them, I would have to sacrifice myself - either to join their ranks in celebration of ignorance or lie my way to friendship. Neither is an acceptable option, and so I'm stuck with few to no friends and an anonymous imageboard where I can pretend to be happy while they revel in their celebration of spectacle culture and anti-intellectualism.

To make matters worse, the university course is merely a souped-up A-Level course with lectures. Integration with other subjects is ignored, independant experimentation and invesitagation discouraged with exception to reading the textbook. This is not education; this is training. I've wasted too much money on paying others to treat me like a useful idiot for years. Maybe I am a useful idiot, with my unabashed optimism for the British education system. Or maybe I'm just impatient, and they'll soon switch from the 'comfortable' training to the challenge of actual education and it's blessed freedom.

I guess I should be thankful their mob-mentality is weak (although frightfully present) and that I have access to more resources for auto-didactism at hand, with agreeable teachers for consultation. If they were tumblr-ite sjws, I probably would be too physically injured to type this, due to my accursed habit to stand up for my values.

I do try to improve. I recognise the futility in judging others, yet I feel the harder I work to pretend their lack of engagement is simply due to poor memory from sickness and summer, the more I feel like I'm lying to myself, and that they truly are clueless. I also try to lend my support for them - offering learning material, advice and stimulating discussion only to recieve mute rejection. I also fight to remember that intelligence can be measured with regards to anything, and that maybe they all have comparable depth of knowledge they don't care to share. Humility? I've been criticised for not being humble - but it was never qualified with an explanation as to what they meant. What is humility? Deriding yourself to make others look better? Simply giving only the essential accomplishments, and only when asked? Or something deeper I've yet to grasp? Maybe they mean I should stop trying to utilise a larger lexis and more complex grammar? I'm lost. They observe complex social norms beyond my ken, and apparently one of those norms is not to call it out.

So I guess for another few years I'll have to twiddle my thumbs, waiting to find other people who visibly strive to improve intellectually. How much longer will I have to delude myself that I wont be alone in the future?

I feel like I'm losing my mind. The feeling that my thoughts are leaking comes and goes, but these past two weeks it has been so intense that I don't want to leave the house anymore. More people have started staring at me as well, often when I think about them or when my thoughts take a weird turn. A woman was playing the godfather theme on accordion and singing at the train station last week and I felt like I was going to have some kind of attack if I didn't leave immediately. I can't stop seeing certain numbers, especially 333, everywhere. Nothing feels real, so it makes no sense that I should be concerned that my thoughts are leaking into non-existent minds, but I don't know. Maybe it'll blow over.

On the plus side, I find it easier to maintain a train-of-thought in Swedish when people are listening so I'm going to see if I can take advantage of this and permanently change my thinking language.

>>21337

I think you should see a professional about these problems, maybe just do it talk to someone who would know what you're going through, so you can gain a better understanding of what's going on.

>take advantage

I don't know if playing around with that kind of stuff is healthy, friend.

>>21337

I can only imagine it's a self-fulfilling prophecy that people look at you weird because you're afraid they'll look at you weird after somehow accessing your thoughts. Some mentally unstable people hear voices, it only stands to reason that you might have a problem that needs managed involving believing yours will be heard.

It's funny though, it wasn't intense but around certain people and on different medication over the years I've gotten that sort of idea that I needed to mask my thoughts to shield it from a mind-reader. Just "what-if" paranoia I guess ya know? I think this kind of thing is more common than one would think though, I've seen a few things like pic related before.

As for the numbers I imagine that's another paranoia sort of thing. Overall I agree that you should get some consultation about all this, if for no other reason that a little bit of closure. I have trouble feeling the world is real too, I don't know what's wrong with me besides autism (and who knows anything about the brain in the end really?).

>>21335

Yeah not too bad, it will let you get to spend more time with them before making a serious commitment like moving, unlike if you live 1000 miles+ away.

>>21320

>I think I accidentally made my family think I hate them.

How did that happen?

>>21278

i imagine you as a very qt taxi driver who always gets really flustered when trying to speak to his customers

Maybe you should ask your parents what they think?

>>21327

>It's like meditation with pelvic floor muscle exercise and for meditation you need a clear mind, patience and ability to appreciate and focus on subtle sensations. Research confirms unfit people are unlikely to have these qualities. Because of hormonal imbalance in blood and lazy approach to life they perform worse intellectually. The studies confirms they're way more likely to be distracted, bored, tired and eventually give up

All that to enjoy dick in your arse. And here I thought enjoyment of phallic shaped objects would come naturally to a gay. Are you just a lonely straight person who wants to enjoy gay sex but naturally cannot?

>>21344

Yes, we're lucky in that regard. I'm a little worried about how the relationship will change when we finally meet in person, but I'm sure it'll work out in the end.

>>21367

I hope things go well.

>>21366

>Are you just a lonely straight person who wants to enjoy gay sex but naturally cannot?

I try prostate massage because I'm looking for high from long, multiple orgasms + it lowers risk of prostate cancer + it's something that my body offers naturally. It would be a colossal waste not to take it then. Like not picking up a $100 bill.

I could probably get similar pleasure from drugs, but these are unhealthy and expensive. Drugs dumb down the awareness, while experiences like prostate orgasm expand it. Getting addicted to it would be something like getting addicted to dopamine releases from listening to Chopin.

I'm not lonely at all (although I have no friends at all and live alone) and I'm totally straight (although I wish I were bi, because it would be interesting).

I think one of the reasons I can't achieve it is I don't get aroused by getting fucked like gay people do. I'm 23 and I have a history of cultivating lots of perverted fetishes (mostly 2d) all developing like a branches of a beautiful tree. One would think my fascination with futanari, feminine traps and good trans would eventually develop into something like the desire of getting fucked but I guess scumbag brain decided to rewire its sexual pathways in some other directions

I'm just really fucking angry and confused as of late. Apologies in advance for making this thread more political than necessary.

A bit of foreground: I'm a 2nd gen living in Canada, and my parents come from Pakistan. I was a muslim, but left the religion when I was 14. My parents never had a problem with it, nor did any other muslim person I know (then again, I don't associate with crazies). And that would have been the end of that, if not for this:

As I get older I'm getting into politics a lot, and it seems to me that many muslims, pakistanis included, commit a fuckton of crime in countries that they immigrate to, and can be pretty fucking extreme in their beliefs. Now, I believe in justice before nationalism, so naturally I believe that they should be punished or deported. But here's where the dilemma starts. I don't like the left's narrative of DIVERSITY, MINORITIES SHOULD NOT BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR CRIMES, so no way in hell I could support them. But on the right, the people at least sane enough to believe that people believe these sick fucks should be punished for their crimes, I hear talks of REMOVE KEBAB. Naturally, this extends to me and my family, and we're kind of comfortable here, not to mention we don't cause any trouble. Of course, the third side is going back to being a snackbar, but I can't do so due to the fact that I can't accept Islam on a rational or moral level. Sure I could pretend to be one to fit in back in Pakistan should I be removed but if anyone caught wind of my fedoraism I'd get my head lopped off.

So I'm caught between 3 sides. One that I find to be idiotic, one that I agree with but hates me, and one that I find to be both idiotic and hates me (and unfortunately, due to family ties, I'm forced to associate with them occasionally). I could just for with the "I don't hate brown people, just Islam/muslims" side, but I love my parents and grandparents so I'm not sure whether I could take that side either. At least my sisters seem to bend towards fedoraism.

This confuses me even moreso considering that in real life most people I've met like me, from old conservative white folk to niggaboos (though I suppose it helps that I don't look brown). My family has plenty of white friends, and my mom's mentor in medicine was an old texan orthodox christian (an amazing old guy, gone now, it's a shame). Though it runs contrary to all my life experiences, I can't deny cold hard facts.

Apologies for the poor organization of thoughts, just needed to vent.

Life has been pretty difficult since I was 15, 24 now. There are people who literally go out of their way to harass me at home on the street, I've had to move house twice now just to try and get away from it all. The abuse has left me with zero confidence and I can barely leave the house at times due to the fear. Other than that I couldn't be happier

>>21363

>People have snorted coke, masturbated, bled on the floor, thrown up, punched me in the back of the head, stolen my tip money, shown me their pussy, tits, or cock, tipped me with weed, seriously asked me to get them pregnant, told me they know where I live (they were correct), left food messes or drink spills like you wouldn't believe, and some guy asked me to climb to a second story balcony to retreive a duffle bag, lol? One time a homeless man with hooks for hands jabbed my passenger in the mouth through an open window and broke his tooth.

Damn, I never would've thought being a taxi driver would be so interesting. Even though you say these are still pretty rare occurrences, it still caught it me off that shit like that happens to you.

Maybe it's because you live in SoCal? I highly doubt being as a Taxi driver in Texas would be as exciting.

First things first, plz no bully

So I have a tumblr and today I saw someone I follow post something about how whites can't experience racism and all the other statements about racial relations that come with it. It made me mad, like actually upset so I wanted to send them messages picking it apart, asking them how they thought about other related topics so maybe I could point out how I thought they were a hypocrite. Then it hit me, that's really rude and kind of a dick move, what did I think that harassing this person would accomplish? Would it change their mind? Probably not. Would it change other peoples minds? Again, probably not. I realized that the only thing that would get done with that is that 1) I would feel better about myself, maybe a little smug about it for a little while. 2) later on I couldn't talk to this person about anything, I'd just be that dick from a while back.

I guess the moral of the story, if there is one, and I'm not trying to preach here, is that we all have the potential to do rude, mean things to other people to make us feel better. Bullying is tempting.

Have you /kind/red had experiences like this?

>>21412

>Tumblr

I'll resist my bully urges but you're not making this easy.

If people are going to spout their opinions, they should be ready to have them challenged. You're not doing anything wrong unless you go out of your way to be a condescending asshole.

That said, it's a waste of time. Ideologues like those on Tumblr cannot be reached through logic and reason. They're such imbeciles that they're even difficult to strawman, they're parodies of themselves. No matter what kind of fact or reason you present, it'll be met with conjecture and tantrums.

I've dealt with ideologues and extremists of all kinds, and though they may bring up points that I agree with, the problem of not being able to change their mind when they're proven wrong is something common to all of them. While I would say some of their ideas are worth considering and that we should attempt to understand why they believe in what they do, they're not worth debating. And this is coming from someone who's argumentative as hell.

If you're willing to hear from a random, autistic, and deeply confused man from an imageboard for Mongolian puppet shows, I can tell you why these kinds of people exist, though it's a long fucking post and I'm not gonna write an essay nobody wants to read.

Personally, I think that these sort of people, who cannot be reached through rational thought, should be met with mockery. But you seem a bit too nice for that, so leave the bullying to me.

>>21465

Alright then. Just so you know, that monty python webm explains that very well.

Now, I've had it pretty damn easy throughout most of my life. I never went hungry, always had a family who was there for me. But if there's one pain that anyone from the most affluent to the most impoverished of people share, it's uncertainty. Doubt, especially about the future, is one of the worst feelings you can have. You ever had that heart-sinking, gut-wrenching feeling of worry, that things are going to go horribly wrong? Maybe you had a bad exam or a family member is late coming home and you don't know where they are? That's uncertainty.

Now, I used to laugh at conspiracy theorists and political extremists. Who in the hell would want to live in such a paranoid fantasy land? Then when I got older I realized that the real world was far more scary than anything the most insane of political nutjobs could come up with. And it's not because any one organization or group runs the world, it's because no one does. It's chaotic and unpredictable.

Now, a man that believes that anarchocommunazism is the only political system that will save you from the ancient hebrew reptilian aliens who run the world might be paranoid and insane, but at the very least he doesn't feel uncertainty. He can attribute all the problems, both personal and political, to the group(s) he despises and can provide an answer (poorly thought out or not) to any question he has about the world. Sure he lives in a hellhole that's run by evil forces, but it's better than a chaotic, overly-complex hellhole. At least the former has some closure as to who is causing the problems, and through it's black and white thinking a solution can be drafted very easily. What's that? Consider other viewpoints? No way, that may make me uncertain again!

As per non-extremists, while this generalization is a bit over-stretched, I feel non-extremists tend to group in 3 camps. The optimists, the cynics, and the apathetic. The optimists tend to be idealists who are either ignorant of the world or just ignore information they don't like. The apathetic are the people who turn a blind eye to the world's problems, usually for the sake of their own sanity. The cynics are the ones who are aware and are concerned, but they realize the incomprehensible complexities of the world they live in, and though they may try to fight, they realize there will never be a perfect solution and that problems will always occur. They're the most miserable of all the camps, as they have the most uncertainty and the least answers. I'm in the third camp in case you couldn't tell. Ernest Hemingway once said that the world is a fine place and worth fighting for. I agree with the second part.

Once again, I'd like to stress that conspiracy theories are not necessarily wrong and that even extremists can bring up good points (i.e. stormfriends and political correctness, commies and corrupt corporations). I typically find it difficult to begrudge people on a personal level for their views, as there is usually a good reason why they hold them. But their worldview is ultimately far too narrow and they oversimplify very complex problems, offering cookie cutter solutions that could easily be worse than the original problem.

I'm warning you though anon. Should you go the route of trying to understand the world's complexities, you may very well end up a miserable pessimist. I'm >>21380 and this is but one of the issues I have with today's world. Thankfully, I have some great folk around me who keep me grounded.

As for you anon, here's where I'd tell you not to fall for an extreme, but I suppose that's hypocritical given everything I just stated. So I'll say this: learn as much as you can about the world, always be willing to admit that you're wrong, and that you will never know everything. Have strong convictions, but realize that they may change with experience and that not everyone will share your beliefs. If your thinking leads you to an extreme, then don't let anyone, not even me, stop you. Pick the extreme, but stay true to your convictions and beliefs, and never stop learning and questioning.

>>21483

>Vietnamese muppet shows

B-Baka!

>>21486

I'm very content living alone, so it's not like I want to become bi out of desperation, for sure.

It's just that I don't get the whole male aesthetic thing that even straight (?) people joke around. It would be beneficial to have homoerotic passion like some athletes and be mirin' your own gains. I would probably treat workout seriously then.

Another example are great artists who also draw gay doujins etc. I feel like I'm missing out, especially when I see so many people reacting positively to their work.

The benefits of being bi just go on an on. I'd never ever replace my fascination with feminine curves for being gay because there is more straight porn, but being bi would be a nice bonus

I can get off to some traps just fine, but it's only because they look like girls. I love well-drawn penises but lean cute boy with symmetrical, clean face has zero appeal to me, same with handsome actors that apparently some straight people "become a little gay for".

I am pretty confident in my life, as far as I can tell. I am still in high school but I look forward to a brighter future. I thought of getting into Caltech, moving to San Isidro (a residential district in Lima), and pursuing a better life. I do not want to marry in my adulthood years, rather not marry at all. I do not feel the need of marriage.

Before San Isidro, I thought of staying in California just to go through my Caltech years. I have not fapped in quite a while, as stated by my previous statement about self-confidence.

I am fine being by myself throughout my life, and I hope to pursue my dreams and goals to succeed to a higher position. I also thought of keeping a habit of activity and emotional strength.

For a long time now the only human communication I've had with people lasting longer than interactions with a clerk has been posting on various boards trying to have some fun. But I can't seem to go a day without being in some thread that devolves into arguments because it feels like someone is determined to misunderstand what I type at every response. Sometimes I'm being baited or running into the one anon who's only online that day to argue over nothing, but sometimes it feels like I'm losing my ability to coherently convey thoughts.

I can spend hours desperately trying to get a point across, not fishing for a "win" or concession because I'm not completely retarded, but just some sort of acknowledgement that what was typed was cogent. It feels like I'm going insane sometimes. Whenever I stop I feel more depressed than when I turned on my computer, wishing I hadn't even bothered for the day.

Underage here. Specifically, 16.

I'm having a huge phase of self-improvement in which I'm going from being an angry, irritated shit to being the most ideal independent person I can be.

I started taking AP European History, and I'm having an exam on ``The Prince`` on Friday. Other than that, I've been reading ``1Q84`` and ``Brave New World``. Feels gud mayng.

I have two personal long-term goals.

The first one is to get a full scholarship to a program where I can study in Japan for six weeks during the summer as an exchange student. The good thing about this scholarship is that the requirements are fair (I can easily maintain a 3.00+ GPA, for instance); the bad thing is that such a scholarship is given out only three times.

The second one concerns university. I've got my eyes set on MIT. I'm thinking of either pursuing a double major in finance and architecture or doing finance as an undergraduate and then do architecture as a graduate (probably in another school).

Finally, I'm going through a lot socially. Because of my self-improvement, I've been considering deleting all of my social media accounts (especially my annoying as shit Twitter), but I can't seem to find a way to contact my friends otherwise.

My friends in general stopped hanging out with me for some reason, and about 80% of them talk to me reluctantly. Which is funny, because I've had various rumors spread about me by them (including one guy who told almost everyone about my liking a girl we both liked). A friend of mine even told me that that same guy and his girlfriend both came to her and asked about who I liked; she was kind enough to tell them to fuck off.

Still, they seem like the type of people who would flip their shit if I didn't invite them somewhere.

I'm learning to stop caring about all of this, however. What's important to me right now is how I do well academically, not how many friends I may have.

To everyone here, I believe that every single person has the ability to change the world, and none of you are exempt from that.

I do not want you to ever give up in pursuing something you are dedicated to. Do not accept defeat easily.

If you feel as though something could change your life for the better, get up and go do it, Anon.

But never surrender.

```Never.```

>>21555

With what I'm talking about right now, I don't want to give the impression that I feel I'm being "mistreated" or anything. It's more like I'm questioning my own ability to present, with clarity, an idea. This is basically just venting.

>can you you own up to being wrong?

Depends, but usually yes. Especially the last few months, where I'm more worried if I've been coherent and less interested in "trying to win". I do try to prove my point in an effort to persuade, of course. But eventually the responses stack up and it feels like I'm doing my best to address every point handed to me while my points are just being ignored.

>Are you willing to give respect or even undeserved niceness where you receive none just to get someone to take the stick out of their butt?

I say yes on respect because out of habit I do that when I'm trying to have an honest conversation, but that's hard because what is meant as respectful and what is perceived as respectful are two different things. People project all the time. They aren't necessarily projecting their feelings, but what they expect is meant. In just a recent thread on another board, for example, was filled with people convinced I was "mad" and "triggered" when I was honestly trying to understand everyone's points. And I was honest in saying "I apologize, what do you mean by [x]?". Yet simply responding after the accusation of "u mad u triggered" meant, in their minds, that I was mad and triggered even though I wasn't insulting anyone or using all caps or anything.

>but it sounds like you're getting especially down because you don't have anyone to respect you as a person and the insult drives home harder.

That's the worst part, I don't even want respect when some of these pop up. Just a vague indicator that they understood a point I'd make would put me at ease. "Well of course [C] isn't true because it doesn't follow your [A] and [B], you moron" would be nice because it acknowledges that I said [A] [B] and [C], but that's rarely the case. Unless I memepost with everyone else and reaction images, it seems like if I post [A] [B] and [C] they just pass over people's heads and they're calling me a worthless idiot because of point [D] that I didn't even make. This site is pretty much the last place I have for interactions, and I can't tell if I even belong here if I can't be cogent.

The one happy thing in over 5 years that's recently entered my life will soon disappear. It was a brief period of happiness.

Here's a story of attempted /kind/ness gone wrong from yesterday. I was in class and when it ended I saw an iphone on the ground with no one near it. I picked it up and waited around for a few minutes then I thought I would take it to the lost and found before my next class but it was already closed. After like ten minutes it starts beeping and telling me to call some number, I call it and its a home phone and no one answers. Then when I am standing in front of my next class wondering what I am going to do with this phone that I can't get to stop beeping some guy walks up all aggressively and takes it out of my hand then says "why you stealing iphones bro" I tell him I picked it off the ground and I was just trying to return it and he just quickly walks away. I don't understand why he didn't just phone his phone and I could have met him and given it back instead of using that stupid lost phone app.

>>21686

In this day and age, people have grown to be distrusting of one another, I've noticed. Even sometimes when I randomly say hello to a stranger on the street, they would nervously look back at me and start walking faster.

Don't let it discourage you, and just remember that your intentions were good; and that's all that really matters in the end.

You have a heart of gold, don't let them take it from you.

I'm going to sleep soon. Goodnight, friends.

>>21692

A friend, but because of an outside factor we can't really be together any more.

>>21695

Good morning! !!

I recently rediscovered the wonderful joy of oatmeal. Go buy a can of it, guys, you can put pretty much anything in it (or just eat it plain) and it still tastes amazing.

Is /kind/ doing anything for Halloween?

I don't celebrate holidays, so I'll probably just sit around, and OD on horror themed media.

>>21694

Thank you for the /kind/ words.

No matter how shitty my day is this board always makes me smile, thanks for that /kind/

>>21737

You too…

Ugh, I keep waking up with headaches. I have why this is happening.

>>21275

I've been trying to find a reason to keep on living for about a year now.

The only thing giving me energy are the ones that love me and need me.

Knowing the truth about myself is killing me slowly. I wish i had a gf by my side right now, even tho i know it would only keep my depression at bay for as long as we're toghether. The time spent alone is a trial to my sanity

Well I just played through The Crooked Man again. That game always really gets to me since it has waayyy too much for me to relate to. Actually felt pretty bummed when I finished.

So in order to cheer myself up, I was brainstorming some cheer up food. Are pizza enchiladas a thing? Because it kinda just popped into my head. I mean, there's tomatoes in enchilada sauce, and there's also cheese, so it's already kinda close to the components of pizza, with a tortilla replacing the crust. I was thinking you just then replace the beef/chicken with pepperonis and bam, pizza enchiladas. Might make them tomorrow. Hopefully they're good so I can pat myself on the head for thinking that up.

>>21337

>>333

Nice Nice whats wrong with that?

>>21882

… Is this reportable for bullying?

>>21897

Couldn't make them today, too many people were over. My cooking skill is inversely proportional to the number of people watching me. Something like pic related would have happened if I tried today. Tomorrow for sure.

But Friend, getting scared by spooky games is fun. Although Uri's games aren't really scary scary. Speaking of, I had know idea her Boogie Man game was out, so I'm playing that shit immediately. I'm already bracing for the feels.

im going to be putting my transmission back in my car this weekend. the rain frm the hurricane kinda ruined that for me last weekend. im going to see soulfly of the 28th with a good friend. my meth addiction is under a lot better control then it has been, but im not homeless any more either leaving me to shit post with the best of them tbh. lately ive really been missing someone i used to be really close with a lot. so much it hurts sometimes. well, gotta keep the rulecucks in line. love your board tbh, i lurk here a lot.

> mfw PC's OS partition got corrupted because of forced shut-down.

> had my OS partition revert to factory settings to fix it.

> lost all my save games.

> lost Photoshop, my brushes and settings.

> lost my board password.

Is this the feeling of true despair?

>tfw dealing with your psychological issues will always be boring and never involve you getting dragged into a supernatural, life threatening situation where you become the hero

Why must you do this Uri? The Boogie Man was pretty good though. Doesn't top The Crooked Man though, which would be hard to do honestly. Also, it's always a shame when you realize you played though all of vgperson's translated games.

>>21934

Funnily enough, I played and quit Mogeko's Castle for the same reasons. And I wouldn't blame you for Dreaming Mary, that creeped even me out a bit. But that's why you always have materials on hand to offset the fear. Funny stuff preferably. Laughter offsets fear more than anything, even cute stuff. My research says so. It also says it's nearly impossible to have nightmares while falling asleep to your favorite youtubers, so maybe give that a shot. This is legit research too, scholars would be jealous.

Also, my pizza enchilada attempt came out decently enough. Don't have a recipe this time since I wasn't too proud of it. All I did was put some pepperonis on top of plain ol cheese enchilada because I'm a lazy bastard. It's fine though, all experiments need some sort of baseline, and this will be it. I want to aim for a little more of a pizza flavor. Maybe a layer of cheese and pepperonis on top of it all? Or maybe I fidget with the sauce or cheese. Looking this stuff up feels like cheating, so this might take awhile.

>applying for a scholarship for a summer exchange program to Japan

>long and rigorous application process

>I have to write four essays and a shit ton of other info about myself, plus attach a recommendation letter from a teacher and another letter from another school official

>today I realised that, once I submit my application, I will be contacted to partake in an interview

>interview is expected to last from around thirty minutes to an hour

It's not even going to be within the next three months, and I already feel pretty confident regardless.

Wish me luck, anons. I'll make sure to keep you guys updated on how everything goes.

I unintentionally upset a friend with my apparent apathy and now I'm so torn up about it I can't even sleep. I don't mean to be this way, but it's so hard for me to get excited for things. It's no wonder some of my closest friends are of the depressed variety. I really need to stop going online when I'm feeling moody, it always seems to end badly.

>>22024

I know the feeling of unrequited love all to well. Some of my best friends I've had strong feeling for at one point or another, but I've never been able to drop them because of how important they are to my life. I couldn't imagine not having any access to them like that, my heart goes out to you, anon. If she's a good a friend as you describe, I wouldn't recommend cutting ties with her. If I were you I'd use this time to take a break from her presence and allow your emotions a chance to be able to separate themselves from her, if that makes sense.

>>22052

it may not mean much, but the best of luck to you and your endeavors. Three months a long time to keep your confidence up, so remember to think well of your abilities and try not to let any negative thoughts intervene before then!

>>21733

Check out this: >>>/grim/320

Went for a haircut today. Near the end of it the hairdresser tried to shake out any loose hair on top of my head for about 15 seconds. I was petted on my head for about a quarter of a minute today. She also said I had nice, soft fluffy hair and wanted to know what I did to it.

Felt nice

>>21279

So last week I applied to my local Target. Went in for an interview on Wednesday, they hired me on the spot, and offered me a decent wage/hours. I'm going in for orientation tomorrow. I'm so nervous that I could throw up, but it feels good man.

Wax released a new album recently and I'm really enjoying it. Lots of his songs about things I don't have experience about like having gfs and doing drugs every weekend but I still like them all. It's Friday right now and I don't know how I feel really, I kinda feel like I shoulda went out but I always say that every weekend and I never end up going out ever so I don't know why the feeling's so prominent today. My friend said he'd play CoD blops III with me tonight but I haven't had an update from him. Hopefully he's out having fun or something because he recently broke up with his girlfriend and I'm a bit worried about him. I was looking forward to Fallout 4 despite all /v/'s rhetoric but sadly I had it spoiled for me. /v/ annoys me sometimes. I don't really understand why they hate Fallout 4 so much but if I ever ask why I only get responses that think I'm trolling and stuff.

I'm NEET and I've got far too much time recently. I keep finding myself getting sucked into GW2 to drown some hours out the day. Partially being NEET is really good because I have lots of time to dedicate to self improvement, like today I:

>spent 1 and a half hours finishing a 2 hour long documentary on Alexander the Great I fell asleep to yesterday

>Spent an hour on a drawing of a grill that I'm really proud of because I was more accurate with the proportions than I usually am, especially since I'm really bad at faces usually

>did a few push ups and sit ups before jumping in a cold shower

With GW2 sessions chucked in between. But having lots of freetime is also a bit poo because Fridays feel like just any other day so they're hard to enjoy a bit. I'm not even NEET in the traditional sense though, I'm not in education or employment or anything but I'm home all the time because I have to help my dad out with his work since he has arthritis but it still leaves me with lots of free time since a lot of what he does I'm not required to help him with. Like today I wasn't even needed at all since he was off doing god knows what.

Usually on the rare occasion I do actually go out with my friends I'm always asked by people what I'm up to these days and I never really want to say 'I'm kinda a caretaker for my father but not really since he's very independent' so I always hate it when the topic is brought up so I don't know why I just typed out a whole thingy about it. Strange really. Found a babby chip in my tooth yesterday and I don't know how it got there, it doesn't hurt or anything but I'm still a bit worried. Dentist on Monday though. Could probably type like this all day but I'd best not.

>>22052

Sounds cool, do you know where in Japan you would be going?

I'm going to start on a happy and end on a sad.

I've started fostering kittens and cats who have nowhere else to go, they're all incredibly happy and playful and have stupidly big eyes and will always do something like climb up my leg or pounce on my arm.

But I've been feeling down lately because all I've seen is un-/kind/ things recently. I know I'm on a *chan and all, but I'm really only here for /kind/ and /v/. I stopped paying attention to everywhere else because of how edgy they got, and now it seems to of spread to the rest of the internet. Maybe I've just drafted into an echo-chamber of filled with people I don't like, but I seriously don't get how anybody can hate humanity as a whole.

>>22618

I understand how you feel, friend. Chans have always been full of edgy or mean people, but it does seem to be more widespread across the rest of the internet nowadays. I think some of it can be attributed to an Eternal September like effect; more and more new people are getting into internet culture, seeing edgy things said (in jest or otherwise), and being influenced to do the same. It's also possible that I'm just influenced by nostalgia goggles, of course.

In any case, I've been making an effort to contribute to the opposite lately. I feel that being the change I want to see is the best thing I can do to make the web just a slightly /kind/er place.

>>22621

Do you treat people with kindness and respect in spite of your misanthropy?

I live in middle east.I feel disconncected with my family but my father.Despite we don't talk regularly, he understands me.I dislike my family, the problem is not they act "wrong" They judge my harshly because I don't act like them.

Worst thing, I'm the only hope for my family since according to my family my other siblings are not promising.I have close friends but we don't live in same city and lately I be close friends with someone living in abroad. My close friends giving me hope, literally I wouldn't give up one of them even if someone offered me best womens, best houses, best cars.

But I still not sure how to socialize with avarage people or get motivated.Many people say I look depressed.Don't know how to stay motivated.

thanks for reading my blog post.

Got denied for a raise I've been trying to get. I thought with all the shit i've done over the years taking over for 3 different people, I'd wind up getting considered for sure.

I've done their jobs for so long that now the excuse is that i've been doing it forever without a raise so far that I don't really deserve one now since it's what i'm SUPPOSED to do.

I should've asked for the raise when they dumped those positions on me. Each time I thought it wasn't a good time to ask since the company was seeing a downtime. the company is in a downtime yet again but I had to ask, I just couldn't let another raise pass me by one more time when most of my colleges have already gotten raises or various perks by now.

I'm meeting with HR, my COO, and Supervisor to discuss it further on Thursday where they will give an evaluation on my performance that day but I don't think I'll get the raise either way.

I feel like shit, I shouldn't have asked.

I don't even feel like going to my gym and working out like I usually do at night, I just don't feel like doing anything.

Got my permit in October and I'm happy for myself though I wish I could magically drive better. I need to improve on my turning and I get extremely nervous about getting too close to another car on the other side.

Besides that I have been thinking my life over and I feel like I haven't progressed at all. Everyone else looks like they entered adult hood and I am stuck in a middle school level mind set.

I'm going to be graduating in six months and I have no motivation to finish because I think my classes are a waste of my time due to them being subjects I already learned in middle school like environmental science and English is no challenge anymore. We don't even have a history class in senior year which grinds my gears because I love history. I wish there was a way I can be home schooled while participate in the school's trade program. I chose to learn about being a mechanic but going in I soon realized I would have to have knowledge beforehand about cars because the people who actually get hands on experience are those that have worked on them before while me and my friend know fuck all and stay behind to read the text book.

I don't know what direction I want my life go in. I have no interest in being a very smart engineer but I also have no interest in working at a grocery store or fast food. Isn't there a job out there I can live comfortably with?

My parents may be divorcing. I find my mom being drunk and puking her brains out while my dad lives downstairs to be never seen.

Sorry for the chopped up paragraphs this is all I think about right now. I understand I'm whining and should be improving but I just need to feel better by getting it off my chest. I used to feel extremely knowledgeable in middle school but once I started high school I think I got slow.

>>21275

Hey /kind/, I just made a legitimate blog on my journey to becoming the best man I can be. I hope you all enjoy :)

https://transcendinghumanity.wordpress.com

I would really like to see a little /kind/ network of wordpress blogs. It's pretty easy to make one.

>>22765

I read it but I have no idea what you actually want to do - or be. Do you want more positive attention from people? Is this why you do your "journey" in blog form?

I don't understand what Great even means to you, you need to define it somewhere. Take a moment to introspect and explain things properly. I hope I don't sound too mean, friend!

>>22765

I was thinking about starting one, but I'm not sure what to write about.

When I fall asleep I hear voices talking to each other about mundane things, like it's a slice of life anime.

>>22750

I added you, my username is the long one.

>>22770

Thanks for the input, I really appreciate it. I'm editing it now. I'm pretty new to this all and I hope that I get better at it. People like you are the reason why things progress.

>>22773

Hypnogogic hallucinations! They're great. If you have them every time you're very lucky because most people have them few times in lifetime. It also means you have great potential for lucid dreaming and meditation, so learn these if you haven't already and trip away for free and without unhealthy substances

>>21337

Nice hax00r numbers fam.

>>22622

Yes.

>>22803

>tfw you lucid dream and everything feels more real than reality

>tfw you feel like you woke up in a dream but it's the real world

But I also hear whispers when I'm awake.

>>22879

I'm sure it's scary but I wish I had your problems.

>>22803

>most people have them few times in lifetime

For real? I get them like every other night. Sometimes it's great sounding music and/or visuals instead of voices. I'm too unmotivated to try any techniques for lucidity as I sleep like shit during the week but I do get occasional lucids (short, sadly).

I should try fixin it tho, and start meditating more as it's a habit I've tried to build for a while now.

Recently lost my job because I was too slow and dumb. It feels like I can't do anything right in my life and I keep fucking up on the easiest of things. I'm 24 and split an apartment with my younger brother and he just got a gf recently, and she is ALWAYS over now. I don't mind that he has a gf but it just makes me feel shitty since I'll probably be alone for half my life since I'm introverted as fuck. Right now I'm studying math and hoping to get into community college at least, or just say screw it and join the military at this point since my life is going nowhere and I'm too dumb to do anything about it.

I'm glad I was tight with my money since I got at least 2 months of rent saved up (was saving up to travel). I'll have to go back to working retail probably and for shit paychecks until I can finally understand this math and just go back to school and get a career.

Depression really sucks and my family won't help me in the slightest.. I can't afford to visit a psychiatrist either. I just wish I could have a really close friend that I could rely on and do the same for him/her.

My MSc thesis (with post-defense edits) has finally been approved. They took 3 weeks to get back to me. I was getting worried.

I feel so happy now but so tired. I thought I was going to lose my mind. My main advisor had been pretty nasty to me for the last 2 years. My MSc work invalidates the work of his former student so he hated me for it. Also his former student was an idiot and comes from the same middle eastern country as him so I suspect there was racism of some form at play. The guy was a bully. But somehow I survived.

I guess I'll just wait for the paperwork to be signed officially before I let myself feel too hopeful or happy.

>>22715

>I think some of it can be attributed to an Eternal September like effect

This seems pretty accurate, 2015 might as well of been eternal summer for us, the amount of normalfriends becoming newfriends constantly throughout the year is insane.

I've told this story elsewhere but there's somebody in my TAFE course who's the most generic aboriginal to exist (lives on wellfare, hunts, does stupid amounts of drugs etc.) and he'll talk constantly with all his friends about how 4chan will be the new facebook and how /b/ is the best place for memes.

>>22945

Good for you, friend!

Month behind on rent since I couldn't find a job in this shit economy. When I finally managed a shitty minimum wage position my hours took a hit due to various stupid reasons and I likely won't make this month, either. Sometimes I go dumpster diving for stuff and get a lot of food and cool shit that way because poor. Thought about killing myself but I've been working on my depression so I'm not bad off enough with that to want to actually outright do it at the moment, though it is funny that I'm grumbling a bit about getting it more under control considering how much time and effort that took.

People say I'm decent at stuff but I make a shitload of mistakes when I work for someone else, and so they start to wonder. All my friends are online and I have zero want/inclination to find some irl as I've found I'm much happier as a recluse rather than forcing myself to be social, and I don't get along with my family as my mother is an unpredictable, manipulative alcoholic. Though I do enjoy helping others with their problems and being a psychologyfriend, offline I currently only exist day-to-day to get a paycheque so I can provide for my pets, keep internet up since it's included in utilities, and keep playing vidya. That's about it.

I feel that there is nothing to be content about.

Everything I see is just empty. Trying to learn something new? Nope, no point because it feels empty. Pick up a new hobby? Still feels pointless despite that I KNOW there's a point. Exercise? Even though I am dedicated to it, I still don't get a rush from it even though I'm making some progress. Cook something nice? Feel like shit anyway. I have a huge library of books and I don't even read them because I lack the attention span. I have some project ideas but I don't feel motivated to do them. I once had a huge interest but now it's hardly there. I'm just pleading with myself sometimes to do SOMETHING, ANYTHING, but I won't.

I'm sick of this shit. I know I'm not alone either.

> 19 years old.

I'm young but god.. I feel like I'm at my wits end already..

I think I fucked up early in life, anons..

I fucked up hard.

> Crippling depression in high school.

> dropped out after some heavy bullying and just bad shit happening. I got framed for sending horrible e-mails to my teachers once.

> unemployed.

> can't find a job either since high-school drop out.

I don't know anymore, man.. I'm nineteen. I should be out there, in university and learning how to be an adult.. Or at least working at a minimum wage job but nope..

I'm sitting here, moping and grasping at the hopes that I can git gud at 3D modelling and game dev to the point that I can make an indie game someday.

I'm so fucked.

>>22960

>>22925

Use reddit to advertise. There are many different niches. Whenever I create a YT channel I create two vids in a niche and get hundreds of views in the span of days. Learn how to tag correctly as well.

I've made so many mistakes in my life. I don't want to continue on with this existence anymore.

Sometimes I really wish there was a reset button somewhere.

> had a fight with GF.

> hasn't talked to me all day.

> tried to talk to her so I can apologize.

> ignored.

I think it would've been best if I stayed single.

>>23155

I guess you're right..

I thought it was gonna be smooth sailing but I guess not.

My last relationship lasted for about a year and a bit before I had to break up with her because I don't wanna drag her into my depression problems..

Man. I feel bad..

Maybe I was just being an inconsiderate ass. I don't know. I just got swept up in the heat and anger..

I'm a filthy NEET so chances are, I'll just give up on relationships if this breaks down. People are fickle things and it's not worth the heartbreak.

>>23017

Hmm, are you me anon? I also dropped out of high school thanks to my depression. Felt exactly the same way you do, too. Well actually, I still do since I haven't quite pulled my life together, so I don't really have too much advice.

Except, don't let it get to the point where you're doing everything alone, like I am, because it just isn't possible for someone to do so much on their own. You won't be able to motivate yourself well and you won't be able to accomplish much because of it. Even when you do accomplish something, you'll feel pretty empty because there's no one to witness and congratulate you on what you just did. Trust me on this. When I barely managed to graduate my junior year after missing so many days of school because of my depression, I felt completely empty and cried a lot on my walk home from school. Even after I did this program that helped dropouts get their diploma, I felt pretty empty, like I didn't really accomplish anything. Anyways, just don't try to do it alone. Post your progress here to /kind/ if you have to, we'll definitely help you out.

Also, try to have some structure in your life. Think out some kind of schedule for your day of when you exercise and study and have some free time to yourself, and stick with it. If you don't, you might end up doing what I do, just wasting countless days without any purpose or determination of what to do, and before you know it, months and years of nothing start passing by.

Wish I had more advice for you friend, I absolutely know how painful it can be, and I always try to help people in similar situations as me. So work on getting your GED because I know you can do it friend. Those aren't generic, empty words either. The amount of regret you show is a sign of how much you care. And when you care that much about something, you can definitely get a lot done. Just have to work out these kinks first.

Also here, have one of my feel good webms. Good luck friend.

>>23148

Hey, friend. I do feel guilty. There isn't a time in my life where I'm not feeling the weight of my sins. Thank you for posting though, it made me feel better.

What's got me so worked up is the following:

>Be friends with a grill (friendship for almost two years now)

>Decide to do something special for her birthday

>Pay an artist to create a personal portrait for her

>Friend is excited

>"I'm so happy. Thank you, Anon!"

>Few weeks later . . .

>"Holy Poop, Anon! Guess what? I found a guy that makes me even more happy than you do!"

>>Even more happy that you do

>>>More happy than you do

>Proceed to cry and post on /kind/

I've been with her through the thick and thin. I've comforted her when she was at her weakest and encouraged her to always try her hardest even when times seemed low because I knew that she was able to. I believe in her. So, why /kind/? Why does it hurt so bad? Shouldn't I feel happy? It's selfish of me to feel the way I feel. I just, I just don't want to hear her cry again. I don't want to see her get hurt anymore. Am I /unkind/? I've become a bully**, haven't I?

>>23177

Are you me?

I'm sorry to hear that friend. Do you wish to talk about it?

>>21275

today i got motivated to continue making art

my head hurts because i have not eating but i feel good because i'm starting to paint again

but im so hungry , but happy

i need to shower today

and the mail is getting late to bring my packages buh

I'm watching DBZ The Movie

>>23222

I'm considering trying marijuana (https://www.leafly.com/news/health/best-cannabis-strains-for-depression under the "disinterest" section.) SSRIs and other anti-depressants give me horrible side effects and I'm getting desperate. Perhaps microdosing psychedelics like LSD or Psilocybin could help? I would try to get some form of medical supervision when doing this so I don't totally fuck myself up (even though there is low harm, I still want to mitigate the risks involved.)

I do exercise frequently and my diet is decent enough -albeit not perfect. Although, it doesn't help that much. Depression doesn't make me that sad but it just sucks the motivation/discipline out of me and makes life much harder and everything just seems mediocre and flat.

Nice picture by the way. I love scenic imagery, /scenic/ is a good board for anime landscape.

>>23282

Same here man.

dealing with people is really tiring. But at least I'm not a hiki neet anymore..

One of my cats died today. I found him as a stray a while back.

I spent two hours using a stick to dig a grave, then I burnt some incense and said a few words, and prayed.

I took a shower but I feel really hollow. I'm starving but I don't wanna eat the food I made. I'm really sad but I hope he found some happiness during his life; I hope I took care of him so his road may lead him to warm sands.

Well, I thought today was going to be a good day. I was all starry eyed with optimism thinking I was going to have a good day walking around the city applying for jobs.

What ended up happening was me giving up since my leg started being stupid again, so I kinda lost my confidence. Figured I'd cut my losses and head home. But this was an new apartment we just moved into recently and I also have terrible memory, so I ended up getting lost even though I didn't go very far. Wandered around for 2 and a half hours, before it clicked in my head that it was just one straight line I had walked from home. I felt incredibly stupid, and then sort of overreacted thanks to the fatigue. Can't keep my friends, can't get into school, can't find a job, and I can't even do simple things now. Found my way back home as quickly as I could before I started tearing up. Didn't help that I ran into a lot of people having fun together walking home from the university here.

On the bright side, I got some chicken nuggets from Burger King during all that walking. Those guys are cool, they aren't assholes like McDonalds and skimp on the sauce. So I had like 5 honey mustard packs for my 20 nuggets. Definitely made up for the terrible day.

Done with the military and now i'm in a small town in nowhere, friends are few since they're all out studying in the cities. Working a job that is shit, but at least for now there's severe lack of unemployment so I get to wok full weeks and overtime. I have saved a shitton of money, by being really, really careful with my moneyt this year. Seeking to fix my grades so I can study computer science or something of that sort. If not, I'll get back into the military along with the good friends I gained there. One of them is willing to try some special units thingie, may jump on that too.

>see my ex yesterday in the grocery

>she seems flustered about it

>i tell her she looks good (just being nice since last time i saw her she looked fat )

>She tells me "why did u leave the house in that? "

>"i didn't think I'd be meeting anyone of note today" (it was a smb3 t shirt and a red pants)

>"i recently got engaged "

>see shiny ring. Tell her congrats. Fiance pulls up in car. Shake his hand. Congratulate him. Smile

>smiling wave them off and walk off to finish my shopping

My dog died today. She got paralyzed because of the dachshund spine being retardedly designed. Feelsbadman.

It will be my birthday in a half hour. I really wish I weren't getting older since I still feel like I haven't done anything of note.

>>23493

I'm very sorry anon, I don't want to even think about the day my dog passes away because I love her so much.

>>23531

Happy birthday, anon!

>>23546

Thank you friend.

My life story? Not too well, I'll go swiftly.

7, house burned down, dog died in the fire. 11, found out I am homosex, father hated me for it. Parents divorced because of it, brother lived with papa, me, momma.

18 now, just turned last June. Ever since I was 13 my dad had never said anything to me, and just last birthday, only my sister and mother said happy birthday. The big 1-8, nothing.

Doesn't feel good man.

Had a few online relationships, about 5, also furfriend. Just recently met a cute British goi, but I'm American. Afraid I won't get to meet him, but eh.. what can you do. I've only held 2 jobs, one at Wal-Mart as a temporary cashier, and the other at Burger King, of which shut down to move somewhere else 3 months later.

Couldn't get hired back on. Father just diagnosed with glioblastoma, and my brother, whom had a tumor when he was 4 had just got it removed, so I'm supposed to get checked soon. No license, can't afford the classes (400 dollars for a class) and I can barely eat properly. (underweight)

So far, not sure what to do. I really really like this guy, and I really want to meet him but I'm not sure how or anything. Hell, I'm scared to even share a picture with him. We've known each other for quite some time, and I don't even know how I'm going to pay to get to England. At most, I have some slight thoughts about earning my way over there through twitch streams, but I don't think I'd ever get that big.

That's me. Hello, /kind/

>>23999

So, in the end, you still get offended?

>>24013

I've read this story many times, and each time it's only a slightly different version. I thought the moral of the story was that pettiness, and a lack of empathy leads one to be easily offended.

Also, something about learning to accept subjectivity.

>>24031

>A person who's more empathetic would probably be more offended

Based on what exactly? I view and use empathy as more of a tool to understand others, and resolve conflicts.

Also, I was implying that you should try empathizing with the people who were triggering you instead of getting frustrated with them. This advice is based on my own experience with being offended by people I perceived to be wrong or immoral. Learning to understand the "Other" has been invaluable in my pursuit of a more peaceful life. Might be something you want to look into.

>mistreated

Except that's just your subjective view of the matter. As a friendgot, I view none of what you described in your blog post as offensive or mistreatment.

>generalizations

Well, I know how difficult it can be to empathize with people when you view them in terms of being a homogeneous group, instead of as a group containing individuals. Have you tried not doing that? I'm thinking my way would be less stressful.

One more thing, you say being gay isn't anything special (I kind of agree, but I also accept that others have differing, and valid subjective views on the matter), so why get so worked up about it?

>>24037

TRIGGER WARNING: USE OF THE WORD "TRIGGER"

>what are you trying to defend here?

Nothing. Did you even read my post in its entirety?

>intentionally dancing around the answer

Hmm, I wasn't intentionally dancing around anything. What answer?

>you tried to use the term "triggered"

>tried to

What a weird way to phrase that accusation. Anyways, I wasn't trying to trigger anyone. Promise.

>>24041

Whoa friend, pull over!

Do you know how much fun you were having?!

>>24041

I can't be doing with this passive-agressive tomfoolery, it aint my issue anyway.

>>24038

>It was a direct response

It was a vague statement. Sorry I didn't guess that you took my "claim" and applied it so broadly when I was simply commenting on your particular situation. I should have known.

>I'm not upset about my own orientation

Wat? I was simply wondering why someone seeing homosexuality as special, exciting, or interesting, would bother anyone. It's harmless.

>>24056

I'm sorry you see my little joke as a micro-aggression. Just trying to trigger laughter to oppress this situation.

>>24071

>passive-aggressive

A buzzword to throw around when you don't like what someone said, but aren't able to come up with legitimate criticism to use against them.

I was definitely being sarcastic, but sarcasm alone isn't "passive-aggressive".

>a simple mistake

I don't know that to be true.

>Because I don't want it to be special?

That doesn't make any sense. How does their opinion have any bearing on that at all? If friendgotry was special to me, how would that affect you?

>I want to be recognized for who I am

Why do you care about that? You mean, who you think you are, right?

>Peace out

I didn't say you could leave though.

My legs hurt from two days of riding a bike to and from work. 15 miles after so very long since I've last sat in such a seat.. ow ow ow. Also, all this cardio has made me a sugar-junkie.

Pic is how all this exercise has made me feel.

>>24078

Other guy again, you should really save yourself and others the trouble of these little scuffles by opting for conveying your message over being cheeky. You say you're doing it to promote fun but the way you're going about things it's very easy to confuse you for a troublemaker. You've made yourself a bit clearer but when people get in the mood for fighting they don't wanna stop and further provoking them just makings things chaotic which is only fun for instigators.

I still have another eight pages to go on a paper due Friday and haven't studied for my exams Thursday and Friday.

>>24114

Eight pages for Friday for me, too. Good luck friend!

I makes a friend today from work! She took me home when it was cold and rainy (I was gonna ride my bike) and she's going to help me with my car I thought was gone forever.

>>24418

Think of something like totally far out there man.

And draw it in a way that would make sense.

For example, a short comic a handful of the Strike Witches approaching the enemy, who turns out to be Devilman who DEBIDU BEEAAAAMs at the Witches on sight.

Continue along those lines how you feel the fight would progress.

I've been working a lot recently. I feel like it's draining my life force. Don't have the same enthusiasm for posting like I used to. Am I growing up or dying? Both? Who knows. Who cares.

I have an interview on Saturday. I've been looking for work since October. I'm surprised they're hiring now, with holiday shopping ending in a week, but whatever. I'll take it. It's a simple overnight stock job. Perfect for me, and I need income right now, even if it's minimum wage.

I'm feeling confident about it, but I'm still going to do some googling to get an idea of what the store's interviewing process is like, and common questions they ask.

>>24782

I'm proud of you, friend. I'd wish you good luck with the interview, but I'm sure you'll ace it.

I told my friend I had a boner and she told me to take care of it.

>>24781

Growing up and becoming a normal friend. It's ok. We'll always be here to fun post with. Fighto, make money and make your dreams come thru

I sort of want to post my nsfw art somewhere, playing around with the idea of a blog, but i don't wish anyone to know it was me, i care a lot about what people say nowadays

> CURRENT YEAR

> still a jobless NEET

At least I have friends now and started to make art at a regular pace so I have that going for me..

There's this qt who works at a convenient store near my house. Every time she rings me up I involuntarily do something awkward, and she gives me this look like I was an alien or something. It happened again this time, but instead of getting annoyed, and deriding myself I just laughed. Looks like I've finally matured a bit, and it feels good man.

>>26111

that's just what people do in reaction to things they don't understand. It's more likely she is just wondering if she misunderstood. Not your fault.

I somehow got a gf. The last couple weeks have been happy, scary, fun and stressful.

I don't communicate well with humans and its worse with girls but somehow I'm getting by.

Also. . Been busy so barely post in 8ch. Boards are frozen and less ppl post so i don't post either.

Finally decide to post something. Have to fill out captcha.

close window and not post my pointless thoughts

4 days to exams and as always cant get myself to study, I have no idea how to motivate myself and as such are incredibly anxious of exams.

Hello friends, BR here, I found this board today and I feel it's pretty comfy.

Anyway, currently at last year of high school, trying to figure out shit to do in my life, or at least try to get by as best as I can. Right now I am interested in programming and I enrolled for a few classes For any /tech/ or /prog/ friends reading this, is C# on Visual Studio a good bet for a full beginner? Also taking the basic programming logic classes as well. I hope that similar to >>23017

I can be a game dev one day, but I can get by writing simple software if anything.

I also would like to start my own business one day. Trying to do that can be tough where I live, but hell, would be quite something to tackle.

Anyway, good luck friends with your own projects and lifes. Don't give up!

Today, I made the decision to not take my close friend to her prom.

She recently got a boyfriend and is very adamant on taking me to it. However, she does not wish to take me because of my presence. Instead, she wishes to take me because she feels it is her obligation to do so.

I understand that she does this with the best intentions; however, she had told me that she'd rather go with her boyfriend instead of me. The only reason why she continues to wish to take me was because she had promised to do so last year.

/kind/, I won't change my mind about this. I know by doing this, she will feel betrayed in a sense.

But let's be real here. I'm a beta and the guy she is interested in is some sort of alpha. He's more handsome, /fit/, and she's already head-over-heels for him. I know she'll have more fun going with him than me.

I'm going to tell her next week when I have the spare time to do so.

She's going to hate me for this.

But that's okay.I already hate myself. Her hatred will never compare to the amount of disdain I have for myself.

Thank you, /kind/, for reading

I hope you all find some sort of happiness soon. I love you all!

I'm Anon from >>26367

I'd just like to thank you, /kind/. I don't find happiness in knowing that I'm betraying her trust like this, but it should provide with the best possible outcome. That being said, I love all of you. ♥

>>26376

I don't think she's like that, but as >>26379 has said. I'll be giving her less time.

I don't have anymore anime pictures, so pic related is my current wallpaper. I hope you like it!

>>26367

Just tell her you don't want to go with her because she has a boyfriend.

This seems straight forward to me.

Hey, /kind/.

A few days ago I tried to tell my doctor of my suicidal tendencies and of my ongoing fight with my emotions. He suggested that I go see a psychiatrist.

However, because I do not know how to drive a car, the doctor had to inform my family about my situation. I'm not certain if this is proper procedures. This doctor has known me since a child and probably acted out of emotion rather than what the rules state.

My family, being old-fashioned and religious, decided that the doctor was some sort of "quack" and deemed him as a "devil" of sorts. They, then, proceeded to take me to the nearest church where I was forced to pray for my own sake and then dosed in holy water.

Now, they treat me as a sort-of "abnormal" living in their home. I only wish to be treated as a normal person, /kind/. I understand that I carry the scars of my past and all I wanted to do was to make steps towards my personal happiness.

I also have to wear a rosary around my neck. I was never religious to begin with, but I had wanted to discover my own salvation through gentle, more softer means. You know, rather than forced.

As of now, I am trying not to draw attention towards myself so my family return to the way that they were

Also, if you were wondering, I am going to go to counseling that is available for the students at my school.

OKAY, BLOG-POOP DONE! LOVE YOU, /KIND/!

>>26767

Finally found a job.

I'm starting training tomorrow and tuesday.

Life is good.

I've gradually been losing the motivation to post. I don't understand it. I used to really enjoy posting, but now even typing this up requires me to force myself.

Hey /kind/, my 91 year-old great-grandmother is in the hospital today, nothing really extreme, she's supposed to be out tomorrow. She never was extremely sickly, and could walk around the house easily. But I'm worried, is the inevitable coming for her now? I knew it would come some day but not today, right?

>>26920

make her last moments count

Two days of Job training is complete.

I start working tonight at 9PM.

My muscles ache from training but I look forward to doing something with my life. I get to help pay for some things around the house and have money to burn for PC upgrades.

It feels good. It's only 3 hours every day so it's not so bad. I get paid bi-weekly so that's nice, too.

Wish me luck with my first day of work, /kind/.

Happy to be alive, Friend.

Babe Is pretty happy, and I am too!

Started working out a few months ago, and its starting to show! Its not really much, but I mean, Its something!

Fantasizing about teaching people how to draw and creating a secret society of elite anime artists.

In two years people begin to wonder where all these great artists are coming from that could only draw stickmen before. Gradually we become an army of drawfriends fighting for cuteness and liberty, sweeping in to help /kind/ causes. The powers that be try to counter us but we are formless and our memetic powers too great. In the end we save the internets by flooding it with cuteness, love, and hope.

I'm in a night calc 3 class while working 35 hours a week got my hours cut from 40/week and a physics class during the week. I have my work cut out for me, but I think I can survive and pull it off

I love the good vibes in this thread

And this board

I wanted to make this semester great, but I already feel like giving up…

i just want someone to love and friends

>>27477

I am not sure what to say beyond that.

I just want someone affectionate and kind to spend time with me because i currently don't. Maybe its all my fault that i don't

>>27476

Am I ever not going to feel a sense of jealousy from seeing that girl?

Went for a job interview today, and thought it went really well. The job itself turned out to not be anything I'm interested in though.

I don't know what to do. Do I take it and hate myself for a while, or turn it down and possibly disappoint everyone.

Assuming I even get it in the first place.

>>27643

First, congratulations on the good interview!

Second, it's much, much easier to get a job if you have a job, so stick with this while you look for a new gig.

>>21275

I ate a really hot pot noodle with chilli sauce in it and my eyes were watering, my tongue was on fire and my hands were even shaking but I ate all of it with very few sips of water and I was really impressed with myself but nobody else is impressed with me and it's making me feel bad

also why can other people eat hot stuff and not even care but when I do it I have to put my heart and soul into it and have my eyes and nose and stuff water everything is much easier for other people than it is for me and this annoys me

Spent the entire day doing nothing worthwhile.

Thought of dropping my project, again. Decided against it, but I'm really doubtful I can do anything good with it. Made a couple decisions towards making it less idiotic, but that's really it.

Went for some kebabs. Going there was fucking terrifying, though. Anxiety hurts like hell. But the kebabs were pretty good.

Spent more time imagining a life where I have friends rather than actually making it happen, as is usual for me. Then again, in that other life, I might actually be a decent human being.

Drank a lot, ate little, again. four cups of coffee, 1.5l bottle of Doctor Pepper, a 0.5l can of beer and a quarter bottle of vodka, vs a kebab and a sandwich. If I end up losing weight, I shouldn't be surprised.

Went on /pol/. There were some good times, there were some bad times. All around, unproductive, but not terrible. Seeing Trump get attacked was pretty fucked up, though.

Remembered yet again why I despise social interactions, and why 8ch is so perfect for me.

Still waiting for a car to hit me or something. Noticed my behavior becoming more reckless recently. Probably related.

Thought about looking for someone to have 1 on 1 conversations with, but remembered that I'm way to autistic, spergy, retarded, unappreciative, all around rude, disrespectful and abusive of everyone I come in contact with. I wish I wasn't, and I'd love to be nice to someone, but at this point I'm incapable of it, especially since I can't trust anyone.

Fuck, my thoughts are disjointed as all hell.

>>28247

I've just come out of a shitty area in my life and although I won't be much help, I can try to be as friendly as possible, do you have steam?

I could message you from there if you'd like.

You sound like you really need someone to talk to, and I wanna help.

>>28249

>steam

no. strange, I'd consider myself a bit of a gamer, but never cared much for it.

do have skype, though

anon_of_rebirth

it's 3 am, though, so i'll only respond tomorrow.

and i'm not really a nice person, to be honest. so it won't be pleasant.

>>28250

You've been added, But yeah, I do hope I can provide at lease some positive company, I am not online very often, but when I am, I'll do my best.

PC fucked up. God knows what, or why, but essentially, a bunch of crap doesn't work. It's been like this for a bit, but I thought it was compatibility issues up until now that something is preventing fucking Avast from launching.

Have most of my files backed up on my SSD, but still have to get all the drivers and shit working again, which will take ages. Again.

a few people added me on skype but no one messaged so far. Meh. Probably for the best.

Have to browse chans on mobile now, which is cancerous, especially since I only have access to very few reaction pics for a while.

No progress on anything ever, since I'm a lazy, unproductive sack of crap.

Should dump it. It's a dumb idea anyway. Then again, aren't all of them?

All in all, I still have no idea why I'm here.

Or anywhere, for that matter. It's a waste of time, either way.

>>28289

You can try using one of those GNU/Linux liveCD-s, you can use them without installing and they're not hard to use if all you want is browsing the internets.

>>28292

>linux

Tried it once, couldn't get into it. It'd take me way too long to make it work the way I want it.

Setup didn't take too long, actually. Biggest fuck up was accidentally getting the 32 bit version of Windows, so I had to redo a few things again.

Dual monitors work, most things are prepped now.

though I did lose all my reaction images. webms are fine, but I forgot to back my images up.

i'm a fucking idiot, I know.

pic related is one of the few images I had backed up on jewgle drive, so I still have it. It's been my wallpaper for ages now.

>>28301

Nothing much, really. Just going out late at night, running across busy streets without looking, drinking a lot more than before… just small stuff like that, but it is a bit of a change.

>how's life treating you, friend?

Doesn't matter anymore.

Yeah yeah call me edgy and whatever but I really don't care anymore.

Wouldn't make a difference if I had no problems in life and had a bunch of privileges.

I'm just chilling and slowly learning to enjoy the small things in life.

It's escapism, in a certain way.

I hope I don't change, life feels good the way it is.

I used to think about being someone I'm not, but yeah, I work, pay my taxes and abide to the law.

Aside from that, I live in my own little world.

>tfw hurt back doing an exercise specifically meant to strengthen my back to help prevent back pain