/britfeel/ - Feel Britannia

>>22385

Gas the EDL.

>>22387

why

>>22389

Agreed. They basically fall into the Hollywood caricature of thuggish right-wingers.

Ate one of those stuffed base Dominoe's pizzas.

I feel sick and I never want to east cheese again. It was fucking repulsive but I ate it all.

>>22391

You're an excessive guy.

>>22390

just a load of chavs

MGSV was a disappointment.

Been playing MGS3 to make myself feel better.

>>22394

No spoilers pls

Are there lots of good quiet qt scenes

>>22395

Yes.

She's a whore though, Paz is the true qt.

explore the medical platform

>>22394

>2015

>expecting a new game to be anything other than a disappointment

I got sick of the vidya industry's shit years ago, that's why I've mostly been playing pre-2006 PC games, pre-7th gen consoles, and emulators for the last 5 years. Every time I try a newer release it's just the same old generic 2007+ game they keep re-skinning, now with more bugs, more shaders, and less features.

I do enjoy sanic racing and ETS2 though, the only two games I really like from recent years.

>>22397

I've put 64 hours into so I can't say I regret getting it.

But it's unfinished, like half the game is missing, seriously half the game has been CUT; and the story is fucking garbage when we know Kojima can make brilliant stories. It's like he didn't even make it.

>tfw our Finnposter is a cuck

Have some based Kai Murros to balance it out

>>22400

That is some serious anal frustration. I'm genuinely surprised how many people had hopes for a video game after everything that has happened over the last few years, even if it's MGS.

Also, that fucking post quality. I knew halfchan was far gone, but that takes the cake. Most of the posts there are less than half a sentence, filled with texting acronyms, and with no punctuation whatsoever. You used to get crucified for doing shit like that a few years ago. I think I would have given up imageboards altogether by now if I hadn't come here last year and was still on 4chan.

>3am

God damn it, I knew I shouldn't have napped earlier. Goodnight guys.

>>22404

>4:20am

Now I'm really going to bed. Fucking imageboards man, every time.

>>22405

Okay.

>>22402

Game developers' only concern is to make the most amount of buck for the least effort. Not that the game itself is any good.

it's going to sell anyway. eat and buy shit. the ones who actually care are vidya enthusiasts, however they only account only about 0.1% of the gamerbase.

Corbyn is gunna win the labour leadership guys.

Glorious socialist Britain incoming.

>>22408

Corbyn is our best hope. Labour is going to be a pro-mass immigration and SJW party, but Corbyn is the only one who will be totally honest about it, while the others will try and make it more palatable.

>>22409

to clarify, I hate labour and hope they fall apart. But Corbyn is the least likely to deceive more moderate voters into voting labour

>>22408

Say goodbye to our nukes.

>>22415

thanks crane

>>22415

That's just stupid.

Probably the driver made some sort of mistake or it was a freak accident.

So thank the driver instead of an inanimate object.

http://8ch.net/pol/res/3273127.html#3273785

Can someone reply to that post and tell that fucking idiot that the "Conservative" party has been a Blairite party for ages now?

>>22417

Upset that it's a couple hundred less Arab cocks for you to suck? Fuck off finnshit

>>22389

>>22390

>>22387

The EDL were a well meaning group hijacked by BNP shitheads

Tommy Robinson is a fucking hero and if it were up to me there'd be a statue of him in every town square.

>>22419

I've actually never watched his videos despite browsing /pol/ for years

>>22421

Tommy is actually a really intelligent guy, you only have to watch any of his interviews or debates to see it

>>22423

for me it's the fact that he's still fighting this day after being beating, imprisoned, silenced, slandered and had attempts on his life and his family's life

he is a true hero and probably my biggest political inspiration honestly

>>22425

you could always post a rebuttal to his points instead anon

can anyone here redpill me on the refugee crisis? I've totally fallen out of the loop with politics.

>>22425

>one of them says "religious persecution"

>another says "militant islam

>Majority of the refugees are muslim and thus would face no trouble in either of them

>another couple talk about persecution of women and child soldiers

>vast majority of refugees are adult men

>>22426

People tried in the comments of the original post, they got swamped with liberals calling them bigots, racists, idiots, etc.

There is no point.

>>22427

same here, I just ignore all of it really as I can't vote

>>22430

Why not lad pal?

Did our lad ever burn down that restaurant?

>>22431

because I'm a tranny and legal shit is fucked for me right now with name/legal sex and stuff, so I'm not registered to vote

>>22429

you don't argue to convince the opposition, you argue to convince the spectators.

>>22432

not gonna lie if he did he'd probably be too nervous to post about it on here, he probably didn't though.

>>22434

Anyone who had liked that page was in no state of mind to engage in or listen to rational discussion.

>>22436

I thought you said a guy shared it though? Comment on his share rather than the original source.

I feel fucking shit today for the first time in ages lads. Not full on depression, but I have a MAJOR brainfog which I really hate and haven't had once since I started on meds. It's really horrible, I can't think straight in the slightest. All my thought processes just feel clogged and slow and heavy. Send help.

>>22438

Getting off the computer and internet, and going outside for a walk somewhere with a bit of nature and fresh air always helps me when I feel like that.

>>22437

>posting on facebook

n-no

>>22438

drink water and go outside

>>22439

>>22441

thanks lads, it helped. Normally it would last for days and nothing could sort it but it seems to have lessened.

>>22443

>My scrambled eggs seemed a lot more solid than his did, and they were not fluffy or light. Why?

You cooked yours longer/more

>I put a lot less butter in than he did. When I put the butter in it left a big mark on the pan. Is this because I heated the pan up first? Should I not do that? And when I put the butter in there was a lot of crackling and steam. Why?

Did you use a non-stick pan? Butter burns pretty quickly if left alone. You want the pan to already be warm and rising to cooking temp, go in with the butter and spread, then add the eggs while the butter is melted but not boiling.

>When I try to cook eggs the normal way (not scrambled), why do they stick together? Are you only supposed to cook one at a time?

Unless you have a large pan, multiple eggs will join. When I do this I will just split them up in the pan with a spatula. Also bare in mind that super fresh high quality eggs will have better whites that aren't very runny. Generally the older the egg, the more runny the white.

>I always end up with one big egg and it has watery bits on top like the egg hasn't cooked properly. Why? The rest of it, especially the bottom, ends up almost burnt looking but the top won't cook.

Lots of butter and cook it on high, unless you want it sunny side up you can also flip it to finish it off easier. If you're still having trouble you could try using a lid on the pan, the steam will cook the top without needing a flip.

>>22444

Semi related, a few times I've tried to cook an omelette it's been a total mess and I've just ended up doing scrambled eggs

They end up fucking tasty though and I actually enjoy them more than a proper omelette

>>22445

scrambled eggs have milk in them, omelettes don't, so yours would be more of a chopped up omelette really.

>>22446

>tfw I was adding milk all this time

now I know where I was going wrong

I intend to continue

>>22447

hah, glad I could help mate.

Lads, will the kikes ever be gassed for real?

I'm off to bed. Fairly uneventful day, and I failed to have a shower like I was supposed to, but I did get to play with my niece for a bit earlier, which was nice.

Goodnight guys.

>>22452

goodnight

I washed my sheets earlier, so I need to put them back on before I go to bed, so I'm procrastinating cause I hate doing that

Even why I'm anonymous I get all red and feel my blood pressure spike when I accidentally reply to someone.

>>22454

I know what you mean.

I'm not as bad any more, but my heart used to pound at high BPMs, I would start sweating profusely and my hands would start shaking while trying to write posts, sometimes before I'd even written anything. If I had written something, I would always delete it all and never hit Reply.

Sometimes I would go as far as pacing up and down my room, or completely shutting down my computer and hiding under my bed covers to calm down.

I'm still like that with pretty much anything that isn't 8chan, even just imagining other situations while writing this is making my heart rate go up. Avoidance has been a large problem of mine for many years.

>>22455

I know this feeling too, I used to be a lot better, but since the forums I used to post on died then I've not really spoken to anyone online apart from this place, and I've gone about 3 or 4 years since they died, so I'm basically back at square one.

>>22456

Similar story here. Years ago roughly 2003 - 2006 I used to post on a GTA forum, but I eventually became very self-conscious of the fact I had been an unbearable autistic child in front of everyone for years, so I stopped posting and never used a forum again.

I also used to talk to tons of people on msn from 2002 - 2010, long enough ago to have an @msn.com email address, and it was the only place where I knew how to communicate with other people and feel confident doing so. As well as friends from school plus a few random people from around the world, I used to talk at length to popular kids that went to my school. They would always come up to me at school the next day and laugh at the fact that I rarely spoke in real life.

Eventually half the people left for myspace, and then everyone left for facebook and skype. After a long time of just talking to one remaining person every now and again, msn got shut down, and that was the end of that.

It's a shame that msn died, skype was always a shit-tier replacement and I've always refused to use it.

>>22457

I was always the same with real life people too actually, and was always pretty good at being witty and shit, although most of the popular kids didnt do it, most of the outcasts did.

>tfw all the normies use facebook and talk online all the time now, and young teen me would be a glorious golden god amongs the mortals.

If only, in another life perhaps.

I've installed an extension that blocks certain sites I ask it to, but over time gives you minutes to use on those sites, currently it's at a ratio of 1 minute every 10 minutes, I'm not sure whether it works when the browser is closed, but it doesnt matter as I keep the thread open in a tab anyway.

Right now, I've blocked youtube, reddit and normiebook but I'm currently in a cycle of clicking on one to open it, realising its blocked, clicking the next and getting caught in a loop.

Hopefully this will help me get back into trying to learn code and actually doing some reading.

>>22459

>reddit

>normiebook

Well, at least you're doing something to fix your normalfaggotry.

I tried using a site blocker before for halfchan, but I just ended up circumventing it and then uninstalling it.

>>22461

Unlucky man, hope you get well soon.

>mum complaining about money as usual

>suggest multiple ways to fix it, offer to help her come up with a budget, tell her I can pay her money when student loan comes in etc.

>she goes off on one and gives me a heap of shit about being a dead weight

Well fuck you too then. Enjoy your suffocating debt while I move into dad's and don't have to put up with your shit.

>>22463

Women don't want suggestions to their problems, they want you to listen to them complain, and for you to give them sympathy.

I shooed my parents away.

So glorious loneliness for me yay.

>why can't these years pass quicker

>>22465

How did you manage that?

>>22466

He probably told them he lusts after Arab men.

>>22467

Stop being a bully.

>>22466

My dad wanted to do something to my apartment, I refused, he got mad and left. Aand mom had to go with him.

>>22469

He got mad that he couldn't alter your apartment?

That's odd.

Unless he actually owns it.

>>22470

well yeah everything about him is toxic and difficult to deal with.

>>22464

I refuse

don't stress me out with your shit if you don't want me to fix it for you

in all fairness she atleast apologised for being annoying afterwards

>>22471

Maybe it's because he had you as a son.

>>22474

naah.

I'm l i t e r a l l y perfect

Germany's falling apart lads. After all their talk of being able to accept half a million more migrants every year, they've had to break schengen rules and reinstate border controls because it's absolutely out of control.

I hope the shitskins destroy germany and it wakes up the rest of Europe.

>>22476

Yeah, sure.

You know how many times that has been said?

Democracy works.!

>>22477

how many times what has been said?

>>22443

> Solid

Cooked longer.

> Not fluffy or light

Whisk them more, get more air into them.

> Butter

I never use that. Just add more milk.

> Eggs sticking

They DO that. Crack them on different sides of the pan, or just separate them with the spatula. To stop the top being undercooked, flip them. Count to four, then flip them back. Top's done, yolk not completely solid.

>>22446

Wait, what? I use the same recipe for both. Eggs, milk, salt, pepper. Only difference is that an omelette is pan-fried, and scrambled eggs are nuked.

>>22473

Good attitude. Downside is that people will come to you expecting a solution.

And won't accept your solution, and get offended by your suggestion to fuck off.

it's fucking half 8 and I'm thinking about calling it a night lads

college just makes me perpetually exhausted, at least I'm keeping up with the work so far.

>>22480

kek, that's exactly the issue.

>>22479

milk stops it from sticking together properly, I never do anything to the eggs, just add stuff to the omelette (usually cheese and tuna)

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-11479831

>>22483

Surprised he got away with such a short sentence. He'll probably get away with it if he has shit on there too.

>>22483

>2010

I think I'm going to try and stop looking at porn again.

>>22486

Fuck, accidentally looked at porn.

>>22486

Me too. I fapped 5 times today and done nothing else, even though it was nice outside. That's two days I've wasted now.

I think I'm done with imageboards for a while too. All I've done this weekend is masturbate and scroll through stupid and depressing threads, and now I feel like shit.

>>22489

Had a blocked nose all of today so I kind of know that feel

Noses are pretty shit lol

I'm off to bed. I'm going to try my best to avoid touching 8chan tomorrow. Maybe I'll do something productive instead.

Goodnight guys.

>>22491

good luck mate, hopefully you won't see this

I have a job interview in Scotland lads. They're paying for it all and it's a 7 hour train ride.

Looking forward to it lol.

>>22493

What's the job like? Is it well paid enough for you to make the move?

>>22494

It isn't well paid at all, but the rent is cheap enough to live up there.

It's game testing, jej.

Also, good morning all. Just started raining hard, guess I'm in for a cosy day.

>>22495

It's super rainy here today and really windy too. I got a lot of reading done yesterday because of my new blocking add on for chrome, although I'm thinking of adding tumblr to it, because I spend loads of time reblogging pictures of autumn and books. I did manage to read 100 pages though, so it can't be that bad.

Thinking of going to get myself some blue top milk, some actual chocolate and some cream then making a really nice hot chocolate.

>>22496

>reddit

>normiebook

>chrome

>tumblr

I don't know what to say anon, I really don't.

>>22495

if you have nothing keeping you where you are then go for it, I would.

>>22497

I go on tumblr sometimes to yell at/attempt to redpill SJWs, hasn't worked yet but it's still fun.

>>22497

Reddit and tumblr are fine as long as you stay away from the SJW's and faggots.

I mostly use reddit to shitpost on jontron and keep up with news from some games I plays subreddits. As for tumblr, like I said, Autumn and books are my comfy place.

I cant justify normiebook, I like to read about the lives of people more successful than me.

>>22499

Fair enough, I know a lot of people went over there to basically write the opposite opinion of whatever is the SJW's problem of the week.

>>22500

>Reddit and tumblr are fine as long as you stay away from the SJW's and faggots.

⬆️ +1

>>22501

and some people just go to troll, which is still hilarious even though they do tend to get banned

>>22501

There's plenty of /pol/-tier stuff on both sites; it's not exclusively SJW lunacy.

Just made a hot chocolate and it's absolutely Godly.

Had one of those big bars of dairy milk, melted 3/4 of it in some milk in a pan, adding more milk as it went on. Once it was all melted I added some double cream and then just let it get a bit hotter.

Made 2 mugs worth, so Im just drinking them both now.

>>22504

that sounds amazing

>>22503

All the pol tier subs were closed down because they don't want it to offend GoPro advertisers.

It's a shit website and you shouldn't use it.

>>22508

only recent for me too

just made jelly lads, haven't had it since I was little.

>>22510

well aren't you special

>>22510

that webm is great

>>22510

Woke up at 8:30, but went back to sleep and woke up again at 12. I really need to start getting up the first time, I did the same yesterday too.

>>22512

It is kind of special, I haven't woken this early time for months.

>>22514

You can do it mate.

One thing I've found that helps me is getting up really slowly, by focusing on one small movement of a limb at a time. It makes the process of getting up less effort all at once. It might take a minute or two for me to get from lying in bed to standing on the floor, but it's better than staying in bed for another few hours.

CURRY

NIGHT

>>22517

Fuck.

Oh well, I've booked my theory test for 4 curry nights away. At least that's some progress.

>shadow cabinet has above 50% women

>feminists still complaining that there's no women in top three places

They will stop at nothing

>>22519

Commons isn't even 50% women, I guess that's sexist too.

>>22519

>>22520

they will literally complain until the house of commons is 100% female, then they'll complain that it's not fair that the house of lords has such a lower percentage of women.

>tfw I haven't watched Snake in weeks

I haven't even seen him play TPP. I just can't be arsed with it anymore

>>22522

I think this is the first time in 5 weeks someone has said "snake".

>>22522

I've checked in on him a few times, but never longer than five minutes. I just couldnt handle heads coming up, and I'm really completely uninterested in Metal Gear anyway.

>>22522

>>22523

I'm surprised he captivated people's interest that long in the first place. After watching two of his streams, I felt like I'd seen it all, and never felt the need to again.

>Feminist uses the term emasculated

Someone's about to get a taste of their own medicine lads.

>>22522

Same lad

>tfw the man in the curry shop tries to talk to me and I have no idea what he's saying

>>22528

Nod and smile

>>22525

I think after a while it became an obligation. I'd spent ages getting this mentally ill man to like me, I felt like I had to keep it up.

Glad I've stopped now, though a part of me still feels a bit bad.

>>22530

I feel the same way, there's this mentally ill man on the internet and he's so alone. At least when his chat talks to him he doesn't feel as bad.

At least he's got Sam to keep him company.

>>22482

TOO MUCH milk stops it sticking. You just need a splash.

Cheese is iffy to add. I like red leicester, so it goes really fucking manky when fried. Too much and the omelette's nearly inedible. Too little and I can't taste it.

>>22495

>It isn't well paid at all, but the rent is cheap enough to live up there.

You'll hate Scotland if you're from down south. And the locals will hate you for your accent, bruv.

> Game testing

I was offered that the other day. Turned it down; zero-hours contract and minimum wage.

They really seem to want me to test their games, but they'll need to offer me steady well-paid work.

My friend does it, and he doesn't make enough to get by off it.

I work in a Tesco warehouse, and get 15 hours a week minimum contracted, at £7.60 an hour. Usually about 40 hours a week, with anything over said 15 being time and a half overtime.

Fucking cushy for entry-level no-qualifications-needed grunt work. Plus, 5 years at Tesco means you're apparently super employable. I get occasional agency calls after applying for jobs, wanting me to do stuff worse than what I'm doing. And applying for better jobs gets rejection E-mails, rather than just nothing.

>>22499

> Tumblr

I have a tumblr account to follow porn/catgirl/catgirl porn blogs, and keep tabs on a few people I know.

One of them reblogs SJW stuff specifically for me to call them on their bullshit, because she finds it hilarious when I rip them a new one.

Tumblr is really best for catgirl porn.

>>22533

>not using pixiv

>>22535

I honestly got a little bit of a boner reading that.

>>22535

>their parents fucking called someone on their son for drawing loli

ayy

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/shopping-and-consumer-news/11863183/Aldi-spells-out-poo-on-label-of-extra-virgin-olive-oil.html

DEVILISH PEPE SEEN IN ALDI WRITING 'POO' ON THE OLIVE OIL

Lads, I think it's time we sat Pepe down for an intervention. This is too far.

>>22538

why would he have anything to do with reddit frog?

Did any of you get upset when you hit 19 and realized the people in the porn you were watching were younger than you?

>>22542

It was strange watching porn of someone my age for the first time.

I live basically the same life as I did as a child, sat in front of my computer in my pajamas, except I don't go to school.

Whereas these girls are getting fucked by loads of men on camera. There are zero things we can relate to, I can't even imagine us living in the same reality we are so different.

>>22542

Yes, but I still perceived them as older than me at the time. I still do in fact, and I think that's because I've not had any social contact with my age group since I left school.

I still think of myself as a kid in my head, and when I see 18 year olds, who are 5 years younger than me, I perceive them as adults.

>>22542

not really, but I still don't really think of myself as an adult, I don't do anything different from when I was younger, nothing adulty anyway.

>>22543

>>22545

Glad to know I'm not the only manchild here.

I still think about what I want to be when I "grow up". I still don't have an answer.

>>22544

Exactly the same man, I'm 23 and I honestly have no idea what people think I'm like when I have a rare interaction.

Like do they see a 23 year old guy or what? I don't feel any different in maturity since I was 18/19.

It's weird. Also I agree about pornstars seeming older than the viewer, I'm guilty of this too.

>>22547

>I don't feel any different in maturity since I was 18/19.

For me it's 14. Ever since I hit that age it's felt like the world has been moving on without me, while I've remained the same.

As time keeps going forward, my internal concept of "normal" drifts further apart from the actual norm, and I feel more and more lost in time.

2005 was 10 years ago now, but I still feel much closer to then than I do 2015. I feel like being a NEET recluse is what being in a coma might be like, but being completely conscious the entire time.

>>22546

I know what I want to do, but I also know it's because I'm a creepy sociopath, which is a bit depressing

>>22549

What do you want to do?

>>22548

iktf

I have no concept of time basically, I can't tell if I've been somewhere for an hour or a minute, everything seems to just move on without me.

>>22550

mortician or embalmer, anything to do with cutting up dead people

I wouldn't mind alive but that's not a job

>>22553

I don't really have sexual urges at all, certainly not towards that. I don't know what it is, it just makes me feel good. I am mentally fucked up though

>>22554

>I don't really have sexual urges at all, certainly not towards that.

I guess that's for the best in this case.

>I don't know what it is, it just makes me feel good.

Do you dissect frogs and shit? I'm guessing you're also the anon that cuts their legs.

>>22555

I am yes.

and I have, I don't kill them though, I prefer animals to people.

>>22556

W-what have you done with people?

>>22557

Nothing, I want to but I also don't want to go to jail.

Which is the main reason I talk about things here, it's not like I can say it anywhere else.

>>22558

That's good to hear, I can respect people that have fucked up desires but also the ability to restrict themselves from acting on them.

>>22559

thanks, it's nice to be able to talk about it

I'm off to bed. A little later than I'd hoped due to me pulling my room apart earlier in an attempt to tidy it, and it took ages to put everything back.

It's a lot better now though, that chaos corner is actually accessible now. I even managed to play some records for a bit earlier.

Didn't manage to keep off 8chan for the whole day obviously, ended up spending the entire evening on here. I had a relatively productive morning / afternoon though. I'll try again tomorrow.

Goodnight guys.

>>22561

night man

Woke up at half 8 today, didn't get up again, but I also didn't fall back asleep, just lay in bed watching youtube videos and reading posts on kiwi farm. I'm counting this as progress.

I also managed not to fap this morning, I passed the hardest part of the day for me now, so that's good. I realised yesterday that I fap daily, and perhaps that isn't completely normal, I remember when I was younger it used to be like two or three times a week.

>>22564

Good job man, I got up at that time too. Got any plans for the day?

>>22565

I'm working from one til seven, so nothing other than that. I've got to shower soon, and I might do some reading before I have to go catch the bus.

>>22566

Sounds like a decent day, enjoy it mate.

I might try to see what else I can do with my room, there's a lot of places in it that need sorting out.

>>22567

I tidied mine a couple of days ago, mostly it was just clothes lying around, although I did take my second monitor from my desk and replace it with a corkboard. I've still got my TV as a monitor though, so still have plenty of screenspace.

Are you the anon with the insane pile of stuff?

>have to go to prepare-for-work-or-lose-your-autismbux thing in 15 minutes

>didn't do the stupid online test thing they've been asking me to do for the sixth week in a row

Maybe I would be motivated to do it if there was any kind of consequence for not doing it. Maybe I still wouldn't because I genuinely forget about it until the last minute every time anyway.

Forgetting to do homework was always my biggest flaw in school. I used to be in detentions every single day because I could never remember to do it, and then I'd usually forget to turn up to the detention so I'd get an even longer one the next day.

I think I might bring this up, and maybe we'll start actually doing something while I'm there rather than just "how have you been? did you do the work? can you do it for next time? thank you, goodbye" week after week, month after month.

Now that I think about it, I've been going there a year now, and absolutely nothing has been accomplished. What a waste of time.

This is getting ridiculous. My work has now rang me 4 times today.

>>22570

Officially i am 3,5 months into unemployment, unofficially 7 months.

I have to go to the unemployment office next month though. No more glorious social office days.

>>22572

You get any money for being unemployed?

And what was your old job?

>>22573

I've "never" worked a job.

I graduated high school and couldn't get a job (wow, what a surprise).

And yes i do receive welfare. Finland actually has human rights

>>22574

>neetbux

>a human right

Come on man. I'm as much of a NEET leech as yourself, and I've got asperger's too which gives me even more of a disadvantage, but even I'm not so self-entitled to consider neetbux or autismbux my right as a human.

>>22575

Welfare is a human right. It is written in the law in many european countries.

I mean it's not one of the basic human rights (property, life and fair trial) however we consider those countries without welfare system to be barbaric.

Don't blame me. It wasn't my idea to create a welfare society. Previous generations did it.

FIVE TIMES

FIVE times work has tried to contact me today.

I gave up and thought "there's no way it can be them again". But it was.

>>22577

The phone is ringing again.

I can't take it.

>>22576

Right, well that's a slightly different stance.

Your previous wording made it seem like you believed that people who don't work deserve to get money from taxpayers, because muh human right to their money, which would be pure self-entitlement.

Welfare society is the stupidest shit, why the fuck would anyone want to work their arse off to get by if they can just get an acceptable amount of money by doing absolutely nothing?

It's a massive disincentive, and probably stops people from working more than it helps them start. At least that's the case for me.

>>22577

>>22578

Why haven't you answered it? Do you have telephone phobia?

I do, I can't answer a phone unless I can see that it's either my mum or dad calling.

>>22580

People only use phones for two things.

To give bad news, or to get something from you.

I'm fine answering the door, usually because it's just a delivery man.

B T F O

T

F

O

https://youtu.be/iDxovNO8RN0?t=28m15s

>>22581

That's why I haven't replaced my mobile yet, even though it's been broken for about a year. I'm mostly only ever called by my dad to ask if I want to come over, but now he just calls the house phone and someone else will pass the phone to me.

I'm just as anxious with the door, although if I'm expecting a delivery I can sometimes muster up enough courage to open it.

If I'm not, and I'm downstairs making a sandwich or something, I usually crouch down and hide to avoid being seen through the window.

>>22583

>not just using the Karl Pilkington strategy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOh6XP-lXsU

>>22584

It's mostly the same method, only I make the effort to be out of sight before freezing.

>>22584

Karl would fit in so well here.

Assuming it's not an act.

>>22586

He has a girlfriend though.

>>22587

oh yeah.

>>22587

he doesn't particularly like her though, it's a relationship of convenience.

>>22589

Whether he likes her or not doesn't change the fact he is able to get a girlfriend and maintain a long term relationship. Just as a person who hates their job is still employable, or a person who hates their friends is still able to socialise.

Karl has friends and a job too actually. Definitely a normie.

lads, I can't find the LD50 of codeine anywhere

I don't want to die, what do?

>>22591

there should be a little leaflet in the pill box with recommended dose on it

>>22592

I doubt I could get particularly high with the recommended dose though.

>>22591

>>22593

>>>/degenerate/

>>>/just/

>>>/end/

>>>/it/

>>>/get/

>>>/clean/

>>>/be/

>>>/a/

>>>/moral/

>>>/christian/

>>>/n/

>>>/improve/

>>22587

To be fair if any of starred in a successful tv series, despite being autistic, we could easily get a gf

>>22595

True, but he's had his girlfriend "since the 1990s".

Now that I'm thinking about it, I'd quite like to watch a documentary that looked into the lives of the various anons on /britfeel/.

>>22594

don't you fucking tell me what to do

>>22597

But you literally asked me to:

>>22591

>I don't want to die, what do?

>>22385

>Honour the Fallen

Appropriate edition, /britfeel/ Classic is currently out of action.

>>22598

w-well I changed my mind

just finished cold extracting the codeine, went for an incredibly low dose to err on the side of caution

>>22599

Perhaps that's why 8chan is falling over right now, halfchan anons coming over here seeking refuge while their site is out of action.

>>22601

Possibly. Though they both keep showing the same error.

I fucking hate cloudflare

>>22603

>>22604

>>22605

An accurate depiction of the beta uprising's outcome

I hope we don't have to have a second exodus.

>>22596

Ah that's a little different then.

Yeah I agree, it's always interesting to see into people's lives for an hour or two. Love documentaries like this.

>>22596

it would be boring as shit, 99% of us sit in the same place on the internet most of the time.

>>22609

Give the editors more credit, I'm sure they'd manage to piece something interesting together with a couple of months worth of footage.

They would do shit like hire actresses to pretend to be interested in us while we're unaware they're getting paid, to have a romantic interest side-story bit.

if mods don't have the balls to ban all 4shitters on sight this place will be fucking ruined.

Remember, these are the people responsible for making us leave in the first place.

the codeine just kicked in lads. feel really relaxed and foggy and warm. think I might just snuggle up under the covers and go to sleep.

>>22611

relax, most of the userbase came from there originally, if they start any /int/ shitposting they'll be out.

Think I'm gunna watch Mad Max again tonight.

Witness me brothers.

>>22612

Goodnight degenerate.

>>22610

>They would do shit like hire actresses to pretend to be interested in us while we're unaware they're getting paid, to have a romantic interest side-story bit.

That wouldn't work (on me at least) I'm pretty paranoid

>>22608

That reminds me. Here's a pretty good documentary about virgin guys.

https://vimeo.com/28466163

>>22611

Who are you referring to?

>>22617

Saw this years ago, I don't think any of them really represent us. Still good video though.

>>22620

hey, worst comes to worst you can always hire a hooker

>>22616

I'm paranoid too, but I think I would be too caught up in the moment to realise I was being played.

When I was in year 10, I was head over heels about a girl from a different school that I had been talking to / flirting with over msn, never met her irl, but we did webcam each other a couple of times, and she was literally all I could think about for about a month, even when I was supposed to be paying attention in school.

Then she went on holiday, and stopped talking to me after she returned. I never found out why.

I also have another story about a different girl from another school who claimed to be my internet girlfriend on msn for a while, but she was actually leading me on while mocking me behind my back with all the popular kids at my school, who were all in on some big prank to make a fool of me.

A lot of things are starting to make sense now that these memories and more have resurfaced.

>>22622

things like that are the reason I'm paranoid, people asking you out as a joke and stuff, it's pretty shitty.

>>22622

I'm kind of glad I had absolutely no trust in anyone in school.

Some girls did that to a strange guy from school and it was just painful to watch. Although I fucking hate him and he's a huge dick. I was literally the only person who didn't bully him and he then claimed he didn't like me to try and act cool.

He's now turning into Chris Chan.

>>22625

I spent a few years at an all girl school tranny trust me, you didn't miss much, women are evil.

>>22617

>no uni whore will ever do a documentary on us

oh well

>>22625

Every single girl in my yeargroup was a 4/10 or lower. I'd often overhear guys mentioning this and being envious that girls from other schools were far more attractive.

>>22625

The vast majority of them are not hot, and they are bitchy, and always putting you down or fucking with you, and generally make you feel like shit.

>>22628

Actually, now that I remember there was one attractive girl.

She was going out with a 22 year old though.

>>22630

how old was she?

>>22631

15-16.

>>22632

He got to live the dream.

>>22632

bit creepy

I felt sorry for a lot of the people who got bullied at my school, but a few of them actually deserved it. There was one kid who would draw pictures of him killing girls from our class, and then give the pictures to whichever girl he had drawn. He said multiple times that he was going to bring in a gun and kill lots of us, and he once just went up to a random girl and smacked her in the face for no reason. He got bullied like FUCK and it was actually pretty funny.

>>22635

What a lad.

>>22635

damn, I mean I wanted to do that but I wasn't retarded enough to actually do it

>>22637

hitting people that is

>>22635

Kek, I know what you mean.

As much as I got shit from other people in school, I dished a fair amount of it out to others too. Didn't go a day without taking the piss out of somebody, or hitting them, or throwing something at them, etc.

That's why I've never really claimed that I was bullied at school, because I was just as guilty of it myself. I had to target someone else or be the target myself.

I mostly took it all in good humour at the time, it was just part of the "banter", but I think it did kind of fuck me up with all sorts of trust, paranoia and anxiety issues after leaving school.

There was a strange kid in my highschool who would do stupid shit like run away from classes and come back 30 minutes later claiming he was beaten up by Nazis, going on protest. And stole my highlighter pen. He started bringing a knife into school, doing this thing where he would run up to people, put the knife to their throat and demand money. After they panicked he would laugh because it was a joke. Not long after that, he wrote a series of notes describing how he was going to kill each teacher and placed the note on their desk. Obviously he was quickly kicked out.

In about 2011-2012 I was talking to a tripfag, avatarfag on halfchan /b/ who was mentioning where he lived. Eventually it got to the conversation of what school he went to and I found out it was him.

It was a surreal experience meeting someone on 4chan who you knew irl. Especially when it was the school psycho.

>>22640

Holy shit, that's pretty mad.

>tripfag, avatarfag

I always knew those fuckers were crazy, finally my beliefs are confirmed.

>>22641

anyone who goes on an anonymous board to make a name for themselves is crazy

>>22641

He was also one of those bronies.

>>22642

Truth, attention whores, the lot of them, and highly cancerous. You let one get by and suddenly you're swamped in them, and then their presence drives off all the anons and decent posters.

>>22643

Fuck man, you couldn't make up a poster that shitty if you tried.

Shit, it's already 2am, I haven't changed my bedsheets yet, and there's still stuff on my bed from when I was tidying up earlier. This could take a while.

Goodnight guys.

Kind of worried now.

Got my jeans all muddy because I fell down a hill yesterday. My only other pair were some ones I had since I was 16. I tried them on and they are too big for me.

I think I'm underweight.

>>22646

I'm the same, all my jeans leftover from my teenage years are way too big for me, partly because I used to always get baggy ones, but also because my weight dropped like fuck a few years ago.

Went from W34 down to W29 / 30.

Does depression/anxiety affect resistance at all?

I'm coming down with a flu again…

I live in a clean place, unless something is rotting beneath the walls. So strange.

>tfw got the cold

I'm just sitting in bed and trying not to die today

wish me luck

>>22649

Drink plenty of water. You'll feel a little bit better the next day

>>22648

>>22649

Confirmed.

Diseases can spread through imageboards.

>>22650

Will do. Having a nice mango and berry smoothie atm and have lots of water waiting in the wing.

>>22651

>tfw even britfeel isn't safe

>>22651

it's a computer virus

…I'm sorry

Seriously though being neet destroys your immune system. After being neet for 3/4 years, I've managed to drag myself back to college.

Caught a cold within 2 days.

>>22654

I'd never considered that before. I just escaped NEETdom and am the guy posting about the cold too.

>>22654

One of the upsides of being NEET is I never get ill

Maybe twice in 10 years, and that's because sick relatives coming round

>>22654

Getting a cold is extremely common when you start working in a new place.

tempted to buy some more hearthstone packs lads

>>22654

>>22656

Can confirm this too, I was rarely ill while being a NEET recluse for 5 years, but since I've been going outside regularly this year, I've already had 4 colds.

>>22658

I don't even play the game, but opening those packs are like crack

I understand why Fifa UT is so popular now.

>>22660

do you have an account and just buy packs without ever playing?

>>22660

I've always been insusceptible to garbage like that. It's such obvious kikery that it's not even worth considering, why would you ever make "getting jewed" your pastime?

I lost interest in hearthstone very quickly. I spent money opening naxxramas and I believe it only opened up a small section of each wing and I expected it to open it all up. It was extremely expensive for maybe about 5-10 minutes of gameplay. I have no idea how people enjoy this.

It's obviously ran by Jews. I remember seeing a montage of videos where people spent £40 on the wrong cards because they were purposely arranged so people would mistake them and have to spend even more money on the new cards.

Speaking of video games, it's been months since we've had a stream.

>>22661

I played single player, and bought packs with gold you get from achievements and stuff

I felt myself wanting to buy packs and build decks though, even though I'd never use them Had to fight the urge so uninstalled the game in the end when I ran out of easy ways to get gold

>>22655

>>22656

>>22657

>>22659

4 replies, think this my pr for 8ch, thanks lada

>>22658

Should have got in on the 7pack bug at tgt launch ;4)

If any of you lads are interested, Amnesia the Dark Descent is free on Steam for a limited time

>>22666

You trying to spook me to death, Satan?

>>22666

Already got it off a cheeky humble bundle

2spooked to play it tho

Went out and bought the next book in the book series I've been reading today lads, I'm only a third through the second one but I absolutely love it and dont wanna get stopped in my tracks when I finish it.

Also managed to not buy any fast food, and instead bought a pizza at Asda on the way home.

ALSO havent fapped since monday morning. I'm feeling super good about today.

>>22669

Name the series you plonker

>>22665

don't fucking remind me that I missed that bug

all those cards, gone, like tears in the rain.

>>22669

glad to see you're doing well anon!

>>22669

Nice one mate, you're doing really well, keep it up.

I've kind of pissed today away, but then again it's been miserable and wet outside all day so I don't feel too bad about it.

>>22670

Malazan, book of the fallen. It's high fantasy.

too ill to cook so ordered some fried chicken lads. keeping the lighting low and taking lots of painkillers to manage my headache, feeling not too bad at the moment.

Americans on /pol/ are cancerous.

>>22675

/pol/ is cancerous in general, the moderation is far too heavyhanded. and 4/pol/ is basically just /int/ these days.

redid the codeine lads, didn't really last long or do much last time so this time I've tripled the dose, added sugar and also much more mixer. The taste is far more pleasant this time as a result.

>>22675

/pol/ is cancerous.

4/pol/ is anyway. It's a good example of what happens when kids are literally raised by 4chan.

>>22677

You're going to regret this.

>>22678

speaking from my experience with other drugs I don't have a particularly addictive personality, if that's what you're getting at.

>>22680

/pol/ was always right maybe one or two years ago

at this point though it's just kids who don't even truly believe in national socialism repeating the mantras without putting any real thought behind it. it's really sad to see what has happened to a formerly amazing board.

>>22681

I agree there are a lot of dumb kids on /pol/

/pol/ as an entity is still by and large 100% right htough

>>22682

I'm quite happy to agree with that

>>22683

hmm, you're making me think honestly. I think I'm just going to leave it after this, not worth the risk.

>>22685

Yeah, I was inspired by Purple Drank but since you can't get that syrup here it's just pure codeine without that second ingredient found in the syrup. My recipe.

>crush 24 8mg codeine 500mg paracatemol tablets

>dissolve in 150mls of warm water

>add two heaped tbsp of sugar

>place mix in freezer for 10mins, this allows the paracetamol precipitate to sink to bottom

>filter the mixture so you're left with only codeine, water and sugar

>add filtrate to pint glass, dispose of substrate

>add several ice cubes, then fill glass to brim with sugary soft drink of your choice

>>22686

shit like that always escalates man, your body gets used to it, so it stops working, so you need more/stronger stuff and then one thing leads to another and you end up sucking dick for crack.

>>22687

cheers anon, I appreciate you putting in the effort to talk me out of it.

really not worth it especially considering I just traded in NEETdom for college.

Well Americans always are the ones claiming that white America is mostly German and Irish, and always attacking the English as 'Anglokikes'.

>>22669

Well I fapped and now I feel terrible.

>>22690

Same here. I only seem to do it when I've done fuck all in the day, and my body starts craving anything to feel good and replace the empty void.

But then I fap, feel good for a couple of seconds, then immediately feel even worse. Wanking in front of a computer, what an existence.

>>22691

Not really, it's just that I managed to go for 2 days and then messed up. Still, my plan isn't to give up completely like some, just to cut down from daily/multiple times a day so I shouldn't feel too bad.

It doesn't help that I've done almost nothing since getting back in from my trip out, but while I was out I managed to read a bunch on the bus/train.

>>22693

I don't know why you should feel so bad since your plan is already a success.

You have cut down from doing it multiple times a day.

>>22694

Yeah, like I said, its just the fact that it could have potentially held out longer, and being unproductive too. (not that I've done anything useful in the hour since last posting)

Guess I'll watch a film and try to fall asleep.

Holy shit, just saw a massive spider in my junk pile.

I dont mind little spiders, but this one was huge.

>>22688

wasn't just me lad, but thanks, I hope it helped.

I could do a stream if you want lads?

I'm a macfag though so I'd probably only be able to stream N+

>>22699

I dont know what to do, I'm freaked about poking the pile incase it jumps at me or something, but I also don't want to just leave it.

>>22699

I'm also on mac, but I've got crossover which works for most things.

>>22700

I don't know what to suggest mate, I used to just sit on my bed or my chair with my feet off the floor, and wait it out in constant vigilance until my mum woke up, or if I was lucky, get her when she went to the toilet in the night.

These days I keep a spray that kills them in my room at all times, so I'm prepared for battle if one ever invades.

>>22698

doit. We havent had a stream in a long time.

>>22698

Get on it m8

>>22704

>>22703

Okay, give me a minute to set it up..I've never done it before so it could easily tits up

>>22702

I'll probably end up doing that, I've got heavy things, so I'll be fine when I can see it.

>>22706

Good idea, I wish you luck.

That reminds me, I once killed a harvestman with a ukulele, after four hours of waiting for it to move into a good position. Them fuckers are creepy, and huge too.

>>22704

>>22703

Okay, I'm not even sure if I'm live but tell me if this works

http://www.twitch.tv/i_shap_i

I'm 29 and never drove

I have like 7 grand saved up from neetbux

How much would it cost me to learn how to drive, buy a cheap car and insure it?

>>22707

thanks mate

>>22709

>29

>7 grand saved up from neetbux

S-sensei.

I'm curious as well actually, I couldn't even make a rough guess.

>>22709

Theory test is 25 quid, and I think a provisional license is 35.

According to a quick google, lessons cost around 24 quid a lesson, and you can pass after 12-35 hours, which given we're useless neets, lets go for the high number, which would be 840 quid.

So about 900 quid to learn, and the test costs 62, no idea how much cars actually cost though.

>>22698

>no idea how much cars actually cost though

I sold my old car for £70.

I kind of miss it now

So that's probably the cheapest cars go.

I'm finally off to bed, I enjoyed the stream tonight though so it was worth staying up.

Goodnight guys.

My mum and her boyfriend have gone away and won't be back until Monday, now I can pretend to be a responsible adult with my own house for a few days.

Well, I'll probably just use my speakers instead of my headphones, talk to myself out loud rather than in my head, and maybe wander into the living room a few times for no reason just because I can.

>>22716

Madman

>>22716

haha mate you should lay down on the floor while you're at it haha

Feeling motivated today, lads.

So motivated that I'm going to wash my bedsheets and the shower curtain. Even going to get a sausage sandwich.

>>22719

glad to hear it lad. I'm over the worst of my cold so I'm going to tidy the house, eat well and all that good stuff too.

>go to /r9k/ on halfchan for the first time in a while

>see tinychat thread

>see this

http://tinychat.com/r9jej

>>22721

I'm scared to go in, what is it?

>>22722

The biggest fucking normie you can imagine.

My family all visit this chiropractor every month or so. They say he has a machine, you hold this metal rod and the 'waves' or whatever measure the nutrients in your body. He even told my younger brother to stop drinking orange juice because of his high blood sugar level.

Now I'm pretty sure you can't actually check blood sugar levels without analysing actual blood from the body. This whole machine thing feels like such bullshit.

Is this chiropractor full of shit lads?

>>22724

>chiropractor

Yes. He's full of shit.

>>22725

basically with a chiropractor you have about 1% chance he's going to give you a good massage and tell you how to improve your posture so you don't hurt yourself.

And 99% he's a quack who believes in auras and chakras or some shit.

wonder what I'm going to have for tea tonight lads. It's a toss up between making an omelette or having takeout again, not sure which to go for.

>>22728

try meditating and studying philosophy instead

nofap will only take you so far lad

>>22727

omelette's probably healthier, but it depends how you cook it

does anyone else think sports look really fun lads?

>tfw no friends to play 5 a side with

>>22731

If I could close 4 of myself, then yea

Bellends take it too seriously though.

I'd take up Golf if the stupid courses round here didn't make membership like an actual job application, and then charge me like 600 quid a year if they deem me worthy of their precious club.

>>22731

They were fun when I was in school. Now, I've been wearing workboots for years and can't actually run any more.

I mean, I can kick a ball in a straight line now, but that's about it.

>>22732

> Golf

Yeah, fuck that. Anywhere that would require me to be nice and friendly to upper-middle-class dickheads is a no in my book.

They'd also object to my workboots chewing up their precious grass just by standing on it.

Hell, they'd probably object to my mere presence. I seem to offend people like that just by existing.

That, and I can't afford thousands of pounds of gear.

>5am start tomorrow

JUST

>>22734

FMSF

Doing what lad?

>>22736

What are you planning to do with that many noodles?

>>22737

Try them all over the coming weeks

Just got back from an ultra long walk, possibly he longest I've done yet. Think I've given myself a blister, had to walk like a mong for the last couple of miles.

>>22735

college, usually get up at 6 on a friday but mummy isn't driving me in today

>>22736

try the creamy shrimp lad

Looking at how many hours it takes to learn to drive last night really fucking depressed me, doing 3 hours a week like people did at school would mean it would take months. Think when I pass my theory test I'll have to book one of those week long crash courses because waiting that long will kill me inside.

>TFW probably won't be able to get time off work in November/December and my theory test isn't until halfway through October.

>>22740

How is college going m8?

>>22741

I got my license the instant I turned 18.

I don't drive much though. Keeping a car is way too expensive.

You want mine?

Non-virgins welcome or not?

What about blowjobs/handjobs?

In fourhchanr9k there was plenty of discussion about gfs and sex (dem trolls) yet they were pretty strict that non-virgins are not robots.

>>22744

There's nothing stopping them from posting, but they will have to face the consequences of being a lone normie amongst the numerous robots, spergs and wizard apprentices.

At least that's how I'd like to think it would be, but I remember a strawpoll months back that said most people here had experienced some form of sexual contact in their lives. Not me though.

>>22745

I don't think persons who payed for a prostitute are above us. No way.

>>22742

it's okay actually. i'm finding it pretty exhausting though, all the socialising and working is mentally draining.

>>22744

talking about a gf beyond "I'm a 23 year old virgin and finally got my first gf, we're all going to make it" is ban territory

nobody wants to hear normie shits bragging about how great their lives are. if you're doing well that's fine but don't brag about it on here.

also lads, short college story, no normie shit included I promise.

>be walking towards mcdonalds to get lunch

>see some guy with a red fauxhawk badly playing/singing greenday and begging for money

>has "equality" and the unite against fascism logo on his guitar

>look him dead in the eye

>call him a fucking commie and tell him to get a job

>he hasn't been back since, despite having been there multiple days in a row before

Did I do good?

>>22736

What is the holy water?

>>22746

I don't think so either, but I've seen people try to argue that they are.

To me it's not really about the act of sex itself that makes a person a normie, it's more that a girl on this earth regards the man highly enough to have sex with him, for free.

That is the ultimate validation as a heterosexual male, at least as far as sex goes. To have had that happen at any point in your life puts you above the men that have not, and especially above the men that have only ever paid for it.

>>22750

Literally holy water

My mum's a very religious Catholic

Why she keeps it in the kitchen in a water bottle I have no idea

>>22751

I've had a number of females crushing on me.

Too bad they were all out of my league and didn't have a peenor

>>22753

Finns not welcome.

>>22755

Well at least you cannot take away my virginity!

I cannot help my looks

>>22753

>out of your league

>were crushing on you

Does no compute

>>22756

>I cannot help my looks

Yes you can.

>>22757

Maybe munters were crushing on him.

>>22758

Robot is a person with a certain mindset. It's not about what you've done or not done.

>>22760

please go away faggot

>>22759

Finn defense force inbound

>>22752

well if vampires show up you'll be fine.

>>22760

I think it's exactly about what you've done or not done.

Thinking about all the shit you've missed out during adolescence and adulthood due to having no friends, being a recluse, and being too afraid to leave the house is what really compounds the feeling of hopelessness and despair.

I don't want to know about some faggot who has had a jolly old life until last year when he didn't get a job fitting his qualifications, or some fucker who has recently broken up with his 2nd girlfriend.

>>22764

I see it as a mindset myself, someone could be like you said all through their teenage years then strike it lucky at like 20, then after a year or so go back to the exact situation they were previously, because of the mindset, any success they manage to luck into is short lived, and they're destined to fail eventually.

Even if they're not robots, they're still failures, especially in the eyes of normies.

>>22764

Having sex doesn't mean one is immune to any mental illnesses.

That's just a meaningless detail.

There's no point in focusing in minor details. All of us have it equally bad

>>22765

I'd say that was "depression", and yes that can develop for pretty much anybody in any circumstance. I personally consider "robot" to be more than just depression though.

>tfw studying for the first time in years

this is fucking exhausting lads. have a test next week and don't want to fuck up but jesus this is knackering.

>>22766

>Having sex

>just a meaningless detail

>All of us have it equally bad

Bullshit.

mother has left for glasgow for a few days lads. spend most of my time in my room anyways but Id forgotten just how comforting it was knowing another human being was in the house, feeling proper lonely. At least I have my dog with me.

>>22770

I'm home alone for a few days too, but I really like it, in fact I feel less lonely than when my mum and her boyfriend are here.

When they are around I feel trapped and suppressed, whereas right now I feel really free to do anything I want, even simple shit like humming to myself and walking around with a bounce in my step rather than sneaking around in silence trying not to disturb anybody or have them notice me.

>>22766

>That's just a meaningless detail.

Please die.

>>22771

that's one of the reasons I'm pretty much nocturnal now, no one to avoid when they're all asleep.

>>22771

>tfw I cant even wake up early because I'm worried my alarm is going to wake up my parents.

>>22773

Yeah I did that for years too. It's avoidance behaviour though, which kept me locked into my state of mind, and the shitty sleep pattern really fucked my life up for longer than I should have let it.

Eventually I just forced myself to be up in the day, and be around them more, so now it's not too bad but still pretty bad, don't get me wrong. I used to be proper sweating and heart racing if I had to make breakfast or lunch while they were downstairs, to the point where I would often just stay in my room and go without eating.

>>22774

I'm lucky that my mum and her boyfriend are half deaf, I often find myself waking up to their alarms while they sleep right through it.

Spent something like 1.5 hours studying and taking notes lads. Quite chuffed with that. Wish I could get to sleep because I have an early start tomorrow.

>>22776

Well done mate.

>>22777

th-thanks

I popped on some classical music and it really helped me focus.

>>22775

it's the eating thing that bothers me most. I can't do things with food in front of other people, prepare it, eat it, whatever. I always feel like they're judging me.

I have other anxiety things, but that one's the worst.

>>22779

I kind of know that feel. I'm not that bad if I'm eating with the people I live with, but I'm terrible if relatives or anyone I don't really know is around.

Family gatherings/parties with buffets, Christmas dinners, etc.

The worst is when they put the food in the middle of the table, and you have to get everything yourself, or worse, ask someone else to pass something over implying I don't just eat whatever is in reach, and decline all offers family members make to pass me stuff. I absolutely loathe those situations.

>>22780

I struggle with shit like that anyway cause of the noise, crowd, and so on, but the food thing is the worst.

>>22781

that and all the distant relatives asking me what I've been doing with my life.

>>22782

Luckily I've only been asked that once in the last several years, I said "just looking for a job at the moment" and killed the conversation.

>>22783

I usually do that too.

And I doubt anyone will know this feel, but I get a lot of questions about my medical stuff as well. tranny

>>22784

What kind of tranny? Are you passable or is it really obvious?

>>22785

ftm, and I pass pretty well, I've mentioned it on here before, but it was a while ago.

>>22785

Their face got posted a few months ago after someone :v) found their plebbit account.

>tfw saved it but not going to post it

why isnt life fair lads

>>22787

that wasn't me, I'm pretty sure that was just a guy that crossdressed.

>>22788

because you touch yourself

>>22791

Apparently, although I think the other guy was just a wannabe trap, not a full tranny.

And that's a guy, you can tell by the chin.

I've met a lot of trans girls/traps though, normal people probably can't tell.

>>22791

>tfw a tranny is manlier than you

>>22792

unlike mtf, ftm can actually pass pretty easily. You can add masculinity through hormones much more easily than you can take it away.

>>22793

Not manlier than me, I'm pretty masculine looking besides the fact I'm underweight. Strong jawline, thick eyebrows, broad shoulders, lots of body hair, etc.

My hands, arms and fingers are really thin and girly looking though.

>>22794

yeah but past about 20 hormones don't do shit for face shape, or skeleton in general.